i have no idea why but i listened to the files again and i really do not think i can fight my true nature. i am not happy about it but what can i do? i have had terrible sex 3 times in the past year when i try to act like a real Man. Why bother?

i just know it must have made me focus on my true nature i am not really happy about it i am taking a trip tomorrow and my Wife and i will have a separate room she will expect me to perform i bought viagra and i hope that will work but i wilt as i try to please Her i am afraid to try maybe She will ...

i am still feeling the effects of these files. i must be susceptible to anything that reinforces my feminine side. It is my fault i know but my life has changed.

things are a bit better for me. i still do not feel like a man but i have found a balance to make sure i entertain my wife through oral and toys. She made me feel better on Fathers Day. i got to enter Her and i lasted a good 3 minutes. Viagra helped and She asked me if it was ok if She used Her rabb...

ihp's comments were accurate and heartfelt i think. My CT test came back that i am healthy but my doctor wants me to see a urologist. once the physical issues are ruled out then it is just me and my thinking that has to straighten out one way or another.

Just an update. i have not listened to the files in a long time. A few people are correct that it is not fair to my wife that i decided to listen to the files and allowed myself to drift toward who knows what. i took the step to voluntarily talk to my doctor about my lack of passion. She ran a test ...

Just an update..it is weird that i feel relief now that my wife has started her period today. Avoiding intimacy was never part of my plan but it seems easier than accepting my shortcomings. i have not listened to these files in a long time but they still echo loudly in my mind. i have 7 days worth o...

Ok a quick update. i have not listened to these files in over a month. i did have a decent episode with my wife 2 Sundays ago. She rolled over and offered me her breast and i did my best to get hard. it worked out that she waited until she was there at the edge and then stuck me in. i lasted about 2...

Thank you Ora just an update i have not listened to this file in a while I did have about an hour to myself where i got to wear some of the stockings bra and panties i bought since the first time i listened. And i looked hot in the mirror. i have been avoiding the intimacy issue with the wife helped...

Thank you Ora. I will try to focus on family rather than accepting my sissy side. I wish i could be two people at the same time. Strong hubby/daddy and pleasure giver enthusiastic sissy. I will see how this progresses.

Thanks for the understanding and well thought out replies. I have not listened to this file since Friday and being away from the computer doing family stuff shifted my focus a bit. My wife had a few drinks on an empty stomach and got a bit mean spirited. She asked me if i wanted to stay married to h...

87% female i guess it make sense

Thanks for the input. Well the way it worked out was we got into bed and i was nervous, not wanting to let Her down. I tried on a pair of black underwear tight with a zipper in front. She said i looked cute and asked what would happen if i got an erection with the zipper there. As i kissed her and w...

i just listened to it again and got about half way through i guess the 20 minute mark and had to pause it. i was getting my little thing rock hard at the thought of real men and i swear almost came in my panties with out touching. i had to stop it because in an effort to reassert my maleness i invit...

Thank you for the support! I actually wore pink panties to a baseball game and i know they showed each time i had to use the restroom. My heart was pounding but i did look at the real cocks next to me. Monday morning my wife wanted me and all i kept hearing was little Miss Squ... i got hard but once...

i listened to this yesterday and actually went out and bought panties and a slutty bra and pantie set in pink and black. I bought my wife a rabbit vibe because i keep failing in the use of my little thing. She is so frustrated when i fail so She deserves pleasure.