I convinced Nicole she needs to meet Mike. The surprising part of it is I thought she would want me to be there, but she kind of felt that could be awkward. She is worried that if for some reason I can’t get her stuff for her, she could get it herself. She also wants to keep the door open to sleep w...

It’s so nice to see Nicole waking up and first thing she does is a line. It’s so nice having someone around that loves it as much as me. I knew she would, just had to get her over the fear. Next thing is she ha to do lines in front of Justin. He I’ll love it. He is getting more sex than he can handl...

I asked Nicole if she would like to meet Mike. I asked her because if she ever ran low on coke and I’m delivering or can’t get it for her for some reason, she will be able to go get it. I also told her if she really thought she could, if she started sleeping with him, she would likely start getting ...

Now I have to teach Nicole how to become a coke whore. I want to have her meet Mike and see if she can start sleeping with him. She will likely not have to buy her coke and meth anymore, and I would love to see Mike shoot her up! The more dirt I get on her the more secure I am with Justin and most o...

Now I have to teach Nicole how to become a coke whore. I want to have her meet Mike and see if she can start sleeping with him. She will likely not have to buy her coke and meth anymore, and I would love to see Mike shoot her up! The more dirt I get on her the more secure I am with Justin and most o...

This morning I get up to do my first line. I walk out to the pool and there is Nicole smoking a cigarette. The best part was she did a line already before me! She said she couldn’t sleep thinking about that first line of the day. I said isn’t it the best feeling in the world? She said yes! She also ...

Nicole saw all the coke I brought her back and she just said wow, I guess I’m doing this. I asked her if she did a line while I was gone and she said yes, and she is a little nervous because she is starting to need it. I told her to stop worrying about that and enjoy it! She said she is and she love...

I text Mike and I am meeting him at his house to get Nicole’s meth-coke. I want her on that quickly, she will get ultra hooked! I can’t wait til I can do that, a bit jealous actually! I will be doing it soon and shooting up so I will have my chance.

Omg! She just confirmed. She told me she is afraid to run out and if I could get her a big bag of my own. She said she would pay for it. I told her she may want to start off with some cut with meth. It lasts way longer, but the fall back, which doesn’t matter because you aren’t going to quit anyway ...

The one thing I see happening with Nicole is she was always a bit shy and for a woman that looks like she does not a ton of confidence, and not sexually aggressive. Now that she is doing coke she is horny, aggressive, talkative, and most of all confident. I can see shortly as she settles into doing ...

So I just had sex with Nicole and Justin is hanging around the pool and I did a line right in front of him. Nicole is afraid to. She told me she was heading to the bathroom to do a line. She is sooooo hooked, I love it, and I love that she loves coke like me. I think Justin would actually see Nicole...

She is already trying to justify doing coke. That is the first sign she is hooked. She also said I love to smoke when I’m doing coke they taste so good. I told her the one thing about coke is you will smoke a lot more, not sure why, but your cigarettes will compliment the high. I told her to complet...

This is so awesome. I went out by the pool for my 1st line of the day and I asked Nicole if she wanted to do a line. I told her there is nothing like that first line of the day. She said she wants to do one but is afraid she will get hooked if she starts doing lines first thing in the morning. I tol...

I just gave her a small bag so she has her own coke now:). I gave her about 10 lines. See how long it lasts her. I bet by tomorrow late afternoon she is out. I did it! I’m now in full control! I will always have my coke now and so will Nicole:). I am so happy I got her on it now!

Nicole told me she always loved coke and that I am going to get her hooked. She kind of knows I am. I told her not to worry about being hooked. You know you will love it so being hooked is actually a good thing! I told her she won’t even think about being hooked because she will be feeling so good s...

Omg...she just said to me promise you won’t say anything to Justin, I don’t ever want him to know I’m hooked on it. I even asked her, do you think your hooked? She said I love it and the sex with you and Justin is so good and my cigarettes are so good when I’m on it. I kind of see I will be hooked. ...

She did ask me knowing I have used it for so long how much could she do without getting hooked. I told her if she kept it to 4 lines or fewer she should be fine. I know if she is doing 2-4 lines a day she will want more because she will be totally hooked. She is going to be because she said she will...

Yes, I got Nicole to do a line before sex:). I’m going to have sex again later and have her do another line. I just put the line out and she did it and said this feels so good thank you so much! She is on her way to getting totally hooked with me. I can’t wait! So excited for her, she loves it.

I know my best times with Justin were before he knew I did coke and was having daily sex with old Mike, more sex than I was having with Justin. This will be exactly the same. I will have my coke and a lover. We will become closer watch and see!

What a treat doing lines snuggling and making love to my sweetie. We are getting into a very intimate and emotional place. I love spending time with him more and more. We were talking about the amazing connection we made when he shot me up twice before things got crazy. It’s hard to explain, but whe...

I’m starting to feel that soon I will be in full control and have my way with everything. I will have a husband that loves me doing coke, a lover that loves coke as much as me, and a woman I love that soon will be as hooked on coke as me:). I always loved being sneaky, but even more getting my way. ...

Nicole will get home from her Mom’s today usually around 4. I will get home at around 2 and have sex with Justin and make sure he sees me do a line. I will shower and get extra dolled up and take Nicole into her bedroom. I know she smokes weed with her mom so she will likely be high and I will be ab...

I shared with Mike how I got Nicole to do 4 lines yesterday. He said if she did 4 lines and doesn’t do it often she probably feels crappy this morning. I told him Nicole is the last one I have to get to make sure I never have to worry about doing coke from now on. He loved my idea because he sees wh...

Nothing better than doing a line first thing in the morning then having sex. Did 14 lines yesterday. I’m so happy now! It has been such a battle to get my coke back. That was the last time. I finally have it back and I know this time it is permanent which is such a relief! I have to fight for myself...

Nicole text me she did a line:). She said right after she had sex with Justin.

Doing lines with my honey. I lost count but I think I did 11 so far today and it feels so good. I text Nicole about the 2 lines of coke I left her. She said I was so sweet and thoughtful, and knowing they are there she will probably do them. My plan is working. She will be totally hooked before she ...

That was awesome sex with Nicole, we were both high. I tried to get her to do a 3rd line and she said she would love to but wants to be careful. She said the sex was incredible after doing a line. I said I know, we should do a line together before sex all the time. She said that would be awesome! I ...

She will be easy to get hooked because she told me how much she loves it. I will have her hooked soon. I will get her used to doing lines every day and before she realizes it she is hooked:). I’m leaving her 2 lines for today when I’m gone but hiding them and will text her tonight where they are:). ...

I just put a second line out for Nicole, and wait let’s do another line and go make love. She did it! She is in the bathroom. My goal is to get Nicole hooked. That will strengthen that no one will ever take my coke again. Justin on hypno and Nicole hooked too. My plan is working perfectly. I will do...

I decided to tell Nicole myself. She was a bit shocked at first, but she basically said if that is what you want to do, it is your business with Justin. She said I know how hard it is because I can’t give up weed or cigarettes either, so she understands that part. Right after she said that I took ou...

What a feeling I got this morning. I woke up and for the first time in a long time I needed a line, so I’m definitely getting hooked again. The best part was grabbing my bag and putting a nice fat line out for myself Justin was actually excited. He said to me I don’t know what it is because I know t...

Justin said he would talk to Nicole. I hope she understands. I have done 3 lines since I got home. I made sure Justin saw all of them. He has listened to the hypno 2 more times. It is so empowering to do lines in front of him. It seems like he doesn’t like it and likes it at the same time, really st...

You can’t imagine how happy I am right now! I love Justin so much and Nicole too. I will prove to them how much I love them, and they will see like before, I am happier when I have my coke.

OMG! It worked. I now have my coke back permanently. It was not easy. A lot of talking and negotiating before he would listen. I had him listen 5 times and I took out my coke and asked him if he wanted me to do some. It was weird because he said not really but right after that he said that would act...

Just did a line here we go. So hope this works so I can finally have my coke with no more drama.

I am leaving. I had 5 lines with my honey. I am going home and I am going to do a line before I walk in, grab Justin’s file and seduce him to listen to it 5 times. I am then going to do a line right in front of him and hope for the best! If all goes well I will finally once and for all have my coke ...

That was so nice! I’m so relieved that for the first time in what seems like forever I have coke and my cigarettes in my bag!!!! You don’t know how good a feeling that is. I never have to worry anymore, they are always with me now!!! A few more lines, and I’m heading home and I will make sure Justin...

I just got to Mike’s. He took an extended Holiday week off from work, so he could spend time with me. He greeted me at the door with an ample coke supply to take home!!!!! He just made my day! Finally I can do a line whenever I need one. I am going to hand the tape to Justin, tell him to please not ...

I don’t think anyone realizes how amazing it will feel for me to have my coke and my cigarettes back in my bag again, permanently! I can’t stand the pressure to not have them. I feel so much more relaxed when people try to take them away from me. I have to stand up for myself and make sure they go w...

I will tell them as soon as I am hooked again which will be soon. I want them to see I don’t function any differently when I am using coke all the time. I have only been doing 5-6 lines right now. Today Mike said he would start giving me some so I can use it at home because he knows I will need it. ...

I’m not using it as an excuse but some of the things I went through nobody should ever have to go through. My excuse if you want to call it that is I love doing it, I love how it makes me feel, and I feel like I function so much better. To stop you have to want to stop, and for those reasons I’m not...

I know. It’s so hard because this is what I have always done. I feel more comfortable, so much better when I’m doing coke. When I’m not I feel tired and awful. I’ve come to the conclusion I can’t function without it, so From now on I don’t have to worry about that anymore. I will always be doing it ...

Great sex and coke with Mike today. It feels so good to be back on coke! Soooooo good!

I can also see Nicole and Justin have gotten so much closer. I’m glad though, it will allow me more freedom to spend time doing lines at Mike’s anytime I want. I’m sure soon there will be a lot of night’s I stay at Mike’s especially once I am hooked, I will stay there quite awhile until I can handle...

It has been a long time and so many discoveries. I have learned so much about myself, and most of it I just blocked out. I don’t want to get into all these things, but I will share one so you can get an idea what I’m dealing with. My abusive boyfriend that I lived with forced me to use and get addic...

I can’t believe what I have been through. My last day on here was 31 days ago, outside of one part of one day they allowed us cell phones. I am finally home. I missed Justin and Nicole so much. A lot has changed for the good. I’m mentally in a better place, but I have a long way to go. More at anoth...

I am going through some very difficult times right now. I am in regression therapy. Yes, a form of hypnosis. Some of the things that are buried inside of me that happened are so bad. I guess you go through those traumas and your brain discards them as if they never happened. There are a lot of awful...

I just have to add one thing. I know I am a beautiful woman. I am intelligent, but I have a much lower self esteem than anyone would ever believe. I use sex to feel good about myself. The fact that someone wants me is gratifying. It is because I was raped over and over by my first boyfriend an even ...

Thank you for all of that. Something about that song and Justin. I’m sitting here crying, and realize my life is spinning out of control. I’m ready to have a conversation with Mike I hope he understands, and then I’m leaving to have a conversation with Justin. We have to move a long way away from he...

Just got back from my workout and had sex with Justin and came right home to do a line. I have to do some shopping today. It seems like I have been really busy the last two days. Nicole told me she didn’t say anything to me about the coke and cigarettes because she knew I wouldn’t stop and if I had ...