Tonight should be fun. I am already dressed up as Nicole and her me. Nicole actually looks good as a blonde, but in reality she would look good no matter what. I find myself a bit jealous now that my body is changing. The one good thing, my boobs are bigger than hers now:). They just aren’t as perky...

Grover while I respect and appreciate your input and concerns, I’m living a completely different life here than most. My best friend and sexual partner is also having sex with my husband. I am fine with that. I have a green light to sleep with whoever I chose including how often and when. Second, ha...

So last night I went out. I don’t know what got into me but I drove to new Mike’s house. I saw his car so I went up the driveway. I just had to find out something. If I could go there and have sex and do no coke. I promised myself if I was failing to resist I would just leave. Needless to say he was...

Since my due date is September 30 I am now 4 months pregnant. My life has changed so much it is crazy! I went from needing sex multiple times a day and doing 20+ lines a day, and smoking cigarettes, to being completely straight, and having sex more like 3-4 times a week. I got my huge boobs but I am...

I know it has been awhile since I last posted here. I guess it is because everything is going well. I am visibly showing now and I am having trouble accepting my body. I have never seen myself look like this before and it is hard to accept. I will say that Justin and Nicole are really good at tellin...

Things have been quiet here which is a good thing. We all continue to thrive in a way I could have never imagined not very long ago. Engender me and Nicole go out all together we get looks from people a lot. Not really a lot, all the time. Sometimes and I’m not sure if it is the boobs, heels, sexy c...

Thanks stupidme. My clothes are getting tight and when I look at myself I feel like I am starting to show but Nicole and Justin say they don’t see it. Maybe just being patronizing, I think I can see something and clothes fit has changed a bit. My boobs I love! I got them for free at least now. I was...

We had a great Easter. The hunt that Justin planned was really fun. I know we are very fortunate to live a lifestyle that most don’t live. Justin is really aware of that and helps people all the time. I don’t want to get into what we got from him while finding our 6 each. It just isn’t fair. All I w...

Nicole usually goes to her Mom’s every Sunday and this is Easter. We wanted to do something together so she agreed to see her Mom on Saturday. She also wants to go there on Easter but not until dinner time. Justin said he has Easter booked for brunch and wants us to go home and all make love togethe...

Thanks Grover. I just have a lot of insecurities projecting myself a few months from now. The morning sickness is not as constant lately but still a pain some mornings. I’m not very sexual right now so having Nicole around is a plus, but I still worry about it even though there is no evidence I shou...

I have not been doing well lately. Morning sickness and nausea have been daily the past week and I just haven’t felt that great. The one thing I love are my boobs. They are easily DD now and seem to still be growing. I’m as big as Nicole now:). I’ve not been very sexual this week. Justin and Nicole ...

Without knowing it Justin and Nicole just made my day! I have been kind of depressed being pregnant worried about my body and so many thing. We both dress to various degrees of slutty, but this is the first time Justin wants me to be a whore. I have whored my whole life for coke, and I love new sex ...

Crazy day. I’m now the goodie two shoes. I walk into the bedroom and I glance over and Nicole has a pack of cigarettes in her hand and digging in her bag looking for something. She didn’t hear me come in. She looks at me and goes oh shit! Please don’t tell Justin. So she tells me every Sunday when s...

Justin made love to me this morning and he said my boobs are getting bigger. I asked him if they were as big as Nicole’s and he said pretty much. So I asked him if he thought they were too big and he said no they look great on me. This is the same guy that was begging me not to get DD/DDD implants l...

Well I got my wish. I am officially a 34DD now:). I am borrowing a few of Nicole’s bras. She is going bra shopping with me today. I hope this continues, but a lot of times in the aftermath they don’t. Sometimes they do and that would be great. I’m actually in between D/DD but DD is a better fit. I d...

All is quiet here. Nicole and I contemplated being each other again this weekend because it was a lot of fun. We decided not to because we didn’t want to wear out the novelty. Maybe next weekend. I am going to start showing soon so I don’t know how sexy I will feel with a baby bump. I don’t like tha...

So Justin sat with me this morning and said he wanted to run something by me. He said if we have a boy would you be ok naming him after my grandfather? The name sure isn’t current but I understand why he wants to do that. I know how important he was to him, so I truly understand and told him I know ...

I had to ask Justin something today. I asked him if when he met me if he knew I was on coke if he still would have dated me? He said honestly, he would have tried to help me, but no, he wouldn’t have dated me. So I asked him if he regrets marrying me knowing all he knows now? He said yes. He added t...

Nicole apologized to me today. She said she might have gone too far teasing me being Justin’s wife. I said omg you don’t have to apologize it was all for fun and I didn’t take offense to you or Justin. In fact, I enjoyed being the girlfriend. It’s a whole different perspective. Nicole said yes, it a...

Things really changed yesterday. I started throwing up again and all of a sudden I’m craving ice cream like crazy. My boobs are getting bigger. I feel it and my bras aren’t fitting and I’m actually more comfortable in Nicole’s bras:). I may get my DD after all! I had to cancel my workout this mornin...

This is probably the best thing we have ever done together. It is almost like living in a movie. We are all playing different roles and the longer we do it the better we get at it. Justin tried to make me jealous with the way he comments about Nicole being his wife now. It actually works at times be...

One nice thing I noticed is my bras are getting tight and my skin is itchy. My breasts are starting to grow:). I don’t notice it to the look, but how my bras feel is definitely tighter. I may get my DD/DDD all by themselves. I think after I’m done breast feeding they will go back to normal size alth...

My mind is on a racetrack now. When I get done breast feeding, the slutty girlfriend is going to be fucking someone else, so they have some alone time with their baby. I’m going to need a break after all this. I can go out and have some of my own fun! Probably not any over night’s just sex. Then the...

I just stop and think how we went from a total disaster to this. What a timely wake up call for me. I could see myself being the girlfriend for quite awhile. I know it would probably get old at some point, but right now being the girlfriend instead of the wife is bringing out my inner slut. I don’t ...

This is so crazy! It is such a turn on for all of us. Everyone is playing their role so well because we are all so into it. Last night Justin thanked me for carrying their baby for them because Amber, formerly Nicole can’t have children. Sleeping with Amber was like being with an entirely different ...

The look on Justin’s face when we came out was priceless. He said we even looked like each other. We told him Nicole was his wife for the weekend and I was his girlfriend. Nicole even stuck out her hand and said see as she has my rings on. So we started working on him, rubbing his crotch, kissing hi...

Our stuff was delivered around 3. Nicole is becoming me as I write this and me her. Going to be fun. Justin knows something is up. He doesn’t know what though. Gonna be fun!

Lol Justin asked us what we are up to. Said he can tell when we are scheming something. We told him nothing, and not to mind us. He keeps trying to pick our brain. I hope all this stuff gets here early tomorrow. Supposed to arrive tomorrow. If we get it in time we can start tomorrow night. I think h...

I forgot to mention I will be wearing a jet black wig styled like Nicole. It is going to take a lot of makeup because our skin tones are very different.

So I had this idea for me and Nicole. We are going to trade places this weekend and blow Justin’s mind. Nicole is going to be me all weekend, and me her. We are ordering a blonde wig for her and I will style it just like mine. I will do her makeup and nails like mine, and we will dress in each other...

Had a great workout today. I am really in better shape mind, body, and spirit than at any point of my life. I want to do everything right for our baby. I’m not just saying it, I’m living it! It feels great! I was reflecting back to where I was to where I am and the contrast is scary. When I met Just...

So tonight Justin made me cry, but in a good way. He bought a karaoke machine. So after dinner he set it up and he asked Nicole and I to sit on the couch. He said I used to do this a long time ago, but it has been awhile, so don’t expect much, it is just something I want to do for you. So he starts ...

Baby shopping after lunch. Since we don’t know the sex yet, mostly furniture items. Also looking around so once we do we know what we like. This is very exciting! I never expected this so soon. Our plan was 2 kids, after our 2 year adventure and exploration. We are really happy though, and Justin is...

Warren, Grover, and stupidme thanks for all your input. Grover I want you to know I’m the women that you thought I was except for one thing. I used coke. You will see that women from now on. Yes, my baby probably saved my life, and if not, my relationship with Nicole, and my marriage to Justin. I’m ...

I sat down with Nicole and Justin to let them know about my feelings about something. I told them there may come a time in my pregnancy where I can’t have sex anymore. Certainly after I deliver, if not some time before as well. I told them to have as much sex as they want or need. I don’t want them ...

Thanks for the feedback. Maybe this is another chapter. I like the idea of that. Justin told me last night how much he wishes his grandfather could have met me. He also added that he wants to raise our child in many of the ways he raised him. He said he never gave him anything He didn’t earn, and se...

Justin wants to start getting baby furniture already. He is so much more relaxed now. This was really wearing on him. This afternoon we made love and we stayed in bed and talked. He told me right now I am the women he knew I was and would be. He also said he forgives me for every bad turn, and our l...

I’m not sure if this is where this saga should end or not. Everything is normal and better in our lives now. Maybe this would be a good place to sign off. It seems like I know a few of you that chime in periodically and help guide me with thoughts from the outside. It didn’t matter if I agreed with ...

Getting ready to head home. The feeling is much better than on the way here, and so much better than what it could have been. I will be so happy to get home. Justin wants us to have a celebration tomorrow. He has such a glow and is so happy to be a father. He has wrapped around me since we got the n...

Our lives just changed so much. I was scared to death to face this day, and everything turned out perfect. One thing really hit me. There is no other man that I’d ever want to have a child with than Justin. It wasn’t supposed to happen yet, but in so many ways it saved everything. I was on a collisi...

IT IS JUSTIN’S BABY!!!!!!!!! We are so happy. He came in and just shook our hands congratulating us. He said let me give you 15 minutes and I will be back. All your files to take home. Justin fell into my arms and we both cried so hard. This is such an amazing feeling. Nicole gave us a hug and stepp...

Supposed to be having lunch but I can’t eat. I’m so nervous about the appointment today. Justin not eating much either. Split a couple of appetizers and most of it left. Really scared right now. I’m praying. Will know in less than 4 hours. This is soooooo hard!

Thank you stupidme. We are on our way out for lunch and the rest of the day. So nervous waiting. Tomorrow seems like the most important day of my life. Nothing I can do about it now except hope and pray. Justin is acting stressed. Not sure if I have ever seen him like this. He tries to hide it, but ...

I had a great visit. They were worried about me with the coke use. I told them I have done none since I found out I was pregnant. No cigarettes either and working with a professional trainer that works with pregnant women, and have followed the nutritionists guidelines to the letter. They were shock...

Leaving soon. Tension rising. Hope and pray for the best

Justin has been a bit quiet today. We are leaving tomorrow and heading for Mayo. We won’t come back until Saturday. I’m really starting to feel the reality of this trip. I hope everything is progressing well for me, but then there is the NIPP test to see if Justin is the father. I pray so hard it is...

Last night was a riot! The headliner came out and came into the audience. Sure enough he stops at our table. He shakes his head and asks Justin to stand up. He looks him over and says this guy is chiseled, and then says ok so you are either the body guard here, or there is a story, which is it? Just...

I finally got an admission from Justin! He told me he loves when Nicole and I dress slutty. He said your both so dam sexy that it doesn’t really look slutty on either of us, that we pull it off! He then said maybe it is residual from the hypno, but He said it gets him all stirred up, meaning really ...

It has been a calm week once again. We are enjoying life, working out, and enjoying each other. This continues to be the life I would have laughed at several months ago as something that could never happen, to the life I love. Nicole has become the best friend I have ever had, she has said the same ...

Sometime exactly a week from now we will learn if Justin is the father or not. It seems the closer it gets the more nervous I get. We leave here Tuesday of next week and will be staying until Saturday morning. I’m hoping that is a cheerful ride home. My mind spins around like a top. What if this? Wh...