I’m so scared right now. I’m pregnant. A while back I thought it was my placebo week for my pills and didn’t take them. I missed a week thinking I have been on them so long a week wasn’t going to matter. I told Justin last night I’m now an escort and shooting heroine and we are done. He all but begg...

I woke up this morning around 5, and didn’t feel good again. I ended up throwing up and felt very nauseous. I’m thinking maybe it is the heroine, but it started the day before I took it. I’m going to the store and see if I can find something for an upset stomach, and I will have Mike shoot me up whe...

I’m already starting to feel a craving for more heroin. This stuff is really strong, but I’m sure that’s why it is so good. I have a feeling once he shoots me up tomorrow, I will never be turning back, but I don’t want to I love it! I have no idea how many lines I did today, which is good, I don’t h...

My sweetie came home with a lot of goodies for me:). I sat him down and told him how much I see that he cares for me. I told him I had a nice surprise for him but we have to do a line together first. I told him I love him so much I’m going to fuck someone for him tomorrow and come home and tell him ...

Mike is going to be so happy. The guy I met at the club that I had sex with twice text me back! I will be sleeping with him tomorrow around 1. Mike is going to be so happy! I love him so much, I will do anything for him, he takes care of me and always jumps to make sure I don’t end up craving anythi...

Mike went to get my heroin:). I’m so glad I tried it now. I know I’m getting hooked but it is so good why wouldn’t want to get hooked on it. I finally did a line about 30 minutes ago. I still love my coke! I have to get all my clothes, I’m sure by next week I will be dating as an escort. Sounds like...

This is so nice, I feel so safe and so good, it is hard to believe just putting a needle in you can make you feel like this. It is definitely how I am going to feel from now on. Mike is building a website as I speak. He is going to do a lot of advertising. He said it should be up and running as soon...

He is so thoughtful and caring for me. He told me he never shot himself up yesterday . He wanted to stay straight in case I had a bad reaction. He wants us to get into business together. He will build a website and I will be featured as the escort. I said that would be so awesome! He said in turn He...

That is such an indescribable feeling, and to think this is how I’m going to feel everyday now is so wonderful. I love Mike so much. He makes me feel so good, and he loves me so much. I told him he makes me so happy, I’m going to fuck someone for him tomorrow. That night we all went to the club, Me ...

This is what I love about Mike. He really cares about me. He said it looks like you want to be on heroin now, and I see you needing coke so bad I will shoot you up at 12:30 instead of 1 so you don’t have to suffer. Tomorrow he said I will shoot you up right when you wake up, so you don’t have to wai...

He told me he loves to see me so happy, and always wants to be the one that makes me feel that way. He loves me enough to know how I love being high, and is looking out for my happiness first, I love him so much. He just so understands loving to live high all the time, because he does too. I’m so lu...

He just told me he already has the needles done, so instead of trying to transfer and divide anything, I’m going to have to do as much as yesterday. I said that’s what I wanted anyway. He said if you do it, there is a pretty good chance your going to start needing it, you realize that? I said I want...

This is almost impossible watching him doing lines and not being able to have any, but I’m wanting to do heroin, that feeling is indescribable

I’m really not feeling well today, kind of sick to my stomach, I’m hoping it is because I need heroine. It will feel better.

I stopped doing lines. I talked Mike into shooting me up with just half of what we did yesterday, but he said he wasn’t going to shoot up because if he gets too far into this his job could become a problem. I said ok. He will shoot me up after lunch:). I love heroin I’m even suffering not doing coke...

We are both sitting here doing lines and he said the problem with heroin is it is too good. I don’t know about you but I sit here wanting to shoot up again. I said I know I’m thinking the exact same thing. I love heroin. He said as much as we want to shoot up we can’t. We have to use it as a treat o...

Nothing like waking up with a line waiting for me and my coffee and cigarettes, with someone you love. The best part is not having to count how much coke you do, this is the way it used to be when I went to work and Amy had my line waiting for me. I am a princess now. Mike really got me thinking abo...

Today has been a great day. Sitting here doing lines with my new honey! The only bad thing about heroin is I can’t do coke for like 4 hours before. I was literally dying for a line. I was sweating. Mike said the same thing, he was getting really edgy. The best part of being with Mike is he appreciat...

Still really mellow. This a really nice high. I think I may have dosed off for awhile, just so relaxed. We can start doing lines again soon. I’m really starting to feel that need very strong. Mike is dying for a line. He wants me to keep a log about us, he thinks that is cool. So I guess I will be p...

That is the most amazing feeling I ever felt in my life! I didn’t think my body could feel those sensations. It lasted about 20-30 minutes, I think. So so so so amazingly euphoric. Now I’m feeling so safe and so very mellow. I’m so happy that Mike was the one to shoot me up, it really is so intimate...

OMG I just pulled in. I’m going to be doing heroin in about 5 minutes. I’m dying to get high. He is coming out.

I am on my way. Have to stop and get cigarettes, and I’m dressed so slutty, I have 6” heels on a tight skirt and tons of cleavage. Mike loves the slutty look. I love being slutty so a good match. I have my brick red pouty lips and my nails are blood red and long which they always are. Will be in my ...

I’m dying for a line it is so hard not to do one. Mike said the same thing. He said to try to get to his house right at 4 so we can shoot up right away. He understands what it feels like not having coke. I can’t wait for him to shoot me up, less than 2 hours and I will be all his.

Just did my final line until Mike shoots me up. I’m so looking forward to it. If original Mike is right, it will be the most intimate feeling I have ever felt. Mike making me feel the highest euphoria ever. I will be with him forever soon. He has been texting me all morning. I told him as soon as he...

I just wanted to let everyone know I am probably done posting here as the whole purpose of this was to chronicle Our journey together. Since our relationship ends tomorrow at 4pm there really isn’t any reason for me to continue to post this journey anymore, it has reached the end of the road. I hope...

Mike text me and said he was doing some research on how often you can do heroin and still remain a recreational user, and not fall into habitual use. He was reading an abstract study that said once a week is what there usage is. He told me if it as good as everyone says we could do it every week! I ...

It doesn’t matter anymore. After 4 pm tomorrow everything will be forgotten. I will begin a new highly medicated life with Mike

I talk to much when I start doing a lot of coke. Somewhere somehow Justin and me seemed to crash. I think it wasn’t the coke it was Nicole. Don’t get me wrong, I totally love Nicole, I’m glad I’m a lot of ways she lives with us. Maybe I am just paranoid but I think Justin loves Nicole at least as mu...

Mike text me back. I just had to go in the bathroom and do a line. All I can think about is tomorrow. I wish that was today! Do you know how long I’ve waited for the right woman to do this with? You are so beautiful and so into coke like I am, and open minded enough to do heroin with me. I said you ...

Justin went to pick up some weight flooring for the workout room. I said to Nicole come out and have a cigarette with me. So I took out my coke and made 2 lines. I did mine, and got up and said that is yours if you want to do one and have sex, I said I have to use the bathroom first. I came back and...

Mike just text me and said he is so excited, he wanted to know if I could come over Tomm at 4 if he took another day off? I said OMG! YES! He said all I can think of now is shooting you up and bonding together. I said me too. I keep visualizing you shooting me up and getting so close to you. I want ...

Mike is getting nervous. He said he needs to know something before he shoots me up. He asked me to promise him if we end up together, that no matter what I will never ask him to quit coke. He said he tried once and can’t function without it. I said I promise, but you have to promise me you will neve...

This is so much like when I was having affair on Justin before. I was sleeping with Mike more than Justin. Now I am having an affair with new Mike and sleeping with him more than Justin:). This is going to be a very coke filled 4 days. I’m back hooked again, so my usage is going up, and I will keep ...

I started texting new Mike. I explained to him what Mike said, and he said he heard about something similar. Then he said are you concerned about that? I said no, it would actually feel really nice if that happened to us:). He said for sure, but if we become that close, would you act on those feelin...

This really has my mind spinning. I love Justin so much, and what if Mike is right, and he usually is, I am going to really get close to new Mike, and my feelings, especially since he will likely shoot me up again, may become so strong I will have to be with him. The only part of that I love is I wi...

I just did another line and the wheels are really spinning now. I asked Mike do you really think if he shoots me up I will become that close to him? Closer than Justin? I don’t see how that is possible? He said I have seen it and it isn’t a guarantee by any stretch but you are going to become very v...

I have always been controlled by men. Now I’m in control. I was talking to original Mike about shooting up. He said one thing that I probably will experience is how intimate it becomes when you are shot up by someone. Something about him putting that needle in you and you feel better than you have e...

I just did another line, and now I’m getting my coke mind back. I will do anything to keep my coke now. I am really getting back into it now. I’m not going through that anymore. I’m not giving up Mike either, he understands me just like my original Mike did. He told me over the weekend, Coke is goin...

I’m dreaming but I’m so high right now, not used to it yet, but soon I will be. My dream scenario is finding a guy I can fuck that gives me a clean drug test. Tell Justin I’m done with new Mike and then pretend to have found another guy that I start spending weekends with, but I’m really at Mike’s h...

I just did only my 10th line. I am doing very good. The nicest part is my coke stockpile is going to be started, because at this rate I will have a lot left. Multiply that by 17 weeks and I will have enough to last me awhile if I can’t quit, and if I have all this extra coke around, it should be put...

He also told me it was the best sex he ever had and will gladly be my Mike! I thanked him for all the coke, and told him the sex was great. He couldn’t leave my boobs alone he said they were perfect, but I told him they are too small. I told him what I was going to get and he said you will be so hot...

Awwwe... Sorry you feel that way. I do deserve Justin, and he knows it. He loves me and I love him. He knows I will be all his in 17 weeks and totally clean. For now I have my coke and I will enjoy it, and I am. Mike text me when he got home and he said he loved our weekend together, and next weeken...

You do a lot of talking and thinking when you do coke. I’m thinking of what I said to Justin, everything was fine until he found out. So the key to me doing coke if I can’t quit is never letting him find out. I need a backup plan, just in case. I put an ad in for someone specifically that does the d...

I have started texting Mike again, the original Mike lol. I told I’m finally trying heroine on Friday. He said you go girl! He added don’t do more than half a dose, and after you do don’t do anymore for at least 3 weeks. If you do you can get yourself really hooked and that will not be good. He said...

I just did a line and made love to Justin and then we had a long talk. I think he feels better about things and where they are heading. I do too! I told him I am high right now, but it also makes you talk and open up so I did. I started when he 1st asked me out at the gym. I said their has been one ...

So I get home and Justin isn’t here. Nicole said he had to meet the realtor at our old house as he is putting it on the market hopefully today or tomorrow. I asked Nicole to come out to the pool deck because I needed a cigarette. She immediately asked me if she could have one, she was dying for one....

Nothing is better than waking up to a line to start your day and having sex. I feel so much better now that I am doing coke again. The best part is I can go home and not have to hide it. I feel free again, except in time I will have to appear to be using less, but I won’t be:). I will use it just li...

I’m never going to rehab. Why give up something I love? My new Mike agrees with me. Just did line 11. So won’t even use all 17, Justin will be proud of me. I’m doing good and feeling great.

I have nicknamed him Mike now. Mike was going to shoot me up so now Jeff is Mike. I can’t wait to try it now, I have been wanting this for so long. I know Mike has too, so it is the right time for us both. Except no coke for 4 hours is not going to be easy, by then I will be totally hooked again. Th...

We just did a line. Jeff takes my hand and says I have to show you something. He opens his safe takes out a locked box. He opens it and says this is the heroin. I’m like OMG. He said I’ve been dying to try this. He said do you want to try it with me next week? You’d be the perfect person to do it wi...