I finally had a little talk with Nicole. I said it seems like we are competing for Justin. Let’s both enjoy him the way we did before. You can have sex with him anytime you want, and cuddle and kiss all you want

Nicole just did a few hits of weed, and I just looked at her while I was doing a line and said this is so much better. Then I pulled down Justin’s pants right in front of her and swallowed his load. Justin loves to watch me do lines. It makes me want to do more. I’m going to make Nicole so jealous t...

I want to be clear. I love my coke. I won’t stop using it. I want to try heroin one time, I don’t want to use it. If meth is really what that guy says, that could be a problem, but I want to at least try it. Ecstasy yes, I would do that again if it is really that good with sex. Time to do a line for...

OMG! I reactivated my dating account, and I already have 17 responses. Like usual a lot of jerks. I deleted 12 right away and blocked them. I had one guy tell me he is like me, loves coke and sex, but recently got into meth. He said once you get on meth, you will forget about coke. He said the bigge...

I love this. The more Justin sees me doing lines the more he loves it. This is so perfect! I already feel comfortable having Justin watch me do a line. It actually turns me on too. Just thinking he loves it now:). It is like a piano off my back. I can do my coke and he is happy. He asked me how much...

Now that I am back on coke and not working and know pretty much no people here, I think of my bucket list of things I always wanted to try but was afraid, or didn’t want friends to know. I’m at the stage right now or maybe it is the coke talking, where I feel I am ready to experiment. Meth has alway...

That was such a relief! I was so scared, and doing a line in front of Justin and he got hard, was soooo much what I needed. I can do my coke freely now. I really love Justin and this is really the only way we can work. I need my coke. Nicole told him if he didn’t accept my coke that I would soon be ...

Nicole went out shopping because she knew Justin and I had to talk about all of what I did. Justin is 4 times into his file. We were in the bedroom, and I was so nervous I had to do a line before we talked. I told him to give me a minute before we talk. I got up with my handbag where all my coke is,...

Justin is on his 4 th time listening to his file

Finally got up the nerve to view Glenn’s texts. Not at all what I thought and now he has me totally nervous. He said I’m not worried. There is enough meth in your coke that in 2-3 weeks, you will be totally addicted to meth and you will come crawling back to me. It’s just a matter of time. Enjoy you...

If this file works I will be so relieved. I will have my coke and not have to hide it. What a feeling that would be. My relationship with Justin will be free of me hiding coke. Tonight is New Year’s Eve. I have 3 lines of pure meth and I always wanted to try it. Hopefully if I’m really high and Just...

Justin got his file. He listened twice so we started to talk. It worked but not good enough, seems to be resisting it some. He is listening again. Part of the file is he completely forgets about this site. From now on this is my personal diary. Hope this file takes, usually it is instant for him. Th...

Well here is my surprise. I left Glenn’s house last night at 10pm. I didn’t do a line from dinner time on. I took all my makeup and enough clothes to get me through the weekend. I will get the rest of my stuff on Monday. I left him a note and he has blown up my phone since 6 this morning. I got home...

I’ve actually decided to take a completely different route. I am going to surprise everyone, including Justin and Nicole!

The more I think about this the more I think I will be a much better wife for Justin. No more hiding coke, no more going without coke. I will be so much happier and in the end Justin is going to benefit from it. Glenn is just too inattentive. When he is horny he is affectionate, when I take care of ...

I did keep all the meth I picked out. I want to save it for a special situation. Probably cut real well I could get 2 lines out of it possibly 3. So when I’m really in a party mood I will do straight meth which I have never done before, but want to try it. I hear the rush is amazing and it lasts abo...

I have so much baggage for Justin to deal with. The biggest is my ongoing affair with Mike. I really was having sex more with Mike than Justin. Before I moved in with Justin we had sex probably 3 days a week, and Sometimes multiple sex on some of those days. I wanted to be with Justin a lot more, bu...

Nicole wrote back file is for using but not abusing. Abusing will trigger a negative response. He told me what it is about, hypnotism. So I understand file now. Ok I wasn’t sure you knew. Justin is highly susceptible to hypnosis. So basically he will have a hypnotist make him a file that makes him l...

Nicole text me that she is home and took the week off from work because she was worried about Justin. I hope someday you realize how much he loves you! Every woman in the world wants a man like that. I love Justin, I’m a much different way, and he loves me, but we both know you will always be his gi...

I just got a long email from Nicole. The gist of which is how much Justin misses me, and how painful it is that he has lost you. He is even willing to sit down with you and is willing to work out something where you can have your coke, but not abusing it. He sees your using meth now, and he knows th...

After fucking him 4 times and again in the morning, I would go to my shop Amy had. Line ready for me we would go out and have a couple cigarettes, and sometimes I would go right back to Mike’s and spend the day doing lines and having sex. Mike could bounce back in 15-20 minutes and have sex again. S...

I have always been very loyal to my coke suppliers. With Mike all he had to do was text me and within the hour I was in bed with him. He was so worried when I met Justin. I remember the first time I went over he said, are we still going be able to have sex? I said of course. Don’t worry about Justin...

Glenn just wanted a blow job. He said he loves watching coke whore movies, and he asked if I have ever been one? I said yes, I love being a coke whore. I told him how when I met Justin I was already a coke whore with my coke guy Mike. I had an affair with Mike the entire time I was with Justin. I ev...

I finally figured this out and Glenn said he had the same thought and totally agrees with me. I am in the kitchen and I have all my coke and all my cigarettes in my handbag. Glenn asked me what I am doing and I said Justin and Nicole are coming for my coke and cigarettes! He laughed, and I yelled at...

I asked Glenn if he knew what his guy cut the coke with because now that I am using it on a regular basis it seems kind of over cut. He text him and he said I know the first bag was cut with too much baking soda. I made it up in the second bag. If she likes coke cut with meth she will love it, but t...

I haven’t text Mike since I left. I just text him and he said Holy shit Amber how are you? I said I’m doing great now, I went 2 months without coke! I finally have a new boyfriend and now I have my coke back:). He said 2 months, lol..when you were with me, you couldn’t go 30 minutes without a line! ...

Glenn is definitely used to his work schedule. He just went to bed already. I should get some cuddle time, but he is up early. He gave me a nice kiss goodnight and told me he’d have my line and coffee waiting for me in the morning. I think Nicole is right. He wants be dependent on coke and I would n...

Ok I thought of one more thing. I’m not helping my cause here, but I said To Nicole I would tell everything. That weekend I went shopping with Amy before we moved in together I was really at Mike’s doing lines and having sex all weekend. I think that is it. I’m really sorry.

Glenn has a strange desire. He loves laying on the couch and have me lick his cock and not really give him a blow job, but use his cock like a pacifier

The thought of giving up my coke is weighing on me. Just thinking about it makes me want it more. Just did another line. With my honey now.

She text back again Justin is making a calendar. (Very good sign for you) of when your ending doing coke. He wants to know how many lines a day you will be doing week 1 when you get here? I said by next Monday start with 20 so in 21 weeks it will be zero. Wow you are doing a lot of coke! I said, I k...

Wow, I get home and he asks where Nicole is? I had two lines out as you can see for both of you. I told him she had to get some things done because she was off today. He said oh no. Look what I got for you to give to her. He pulls out what he said was 18 more grams so a full ounce of coke here. When...

I had one other affair before I moved in with Justin. I was out with Amy one night and I met this hot guy. We were talking and we discovered we both loved coke. I went to his house probably 5-10 times. We did lines together and had sex. He was pretty bad in bed, so I stopped and filled that time fuc...

Ok, this is for Justin and Nicole. I’m scared right now, and I want to thank Nicole who is a true genuine person. I love you so much. I know you are concerned. Thank you. For Justin. You are someone I love so much. The last couple of months have been very difficult. I have not used coke since we got...

That was a painful meeting. I wanted Nicole to do a line with me, but she didn’t. I had to do a line in front of her. I needed it so bad. She told me after I shared with Justin I was using coke he was really concerned about me. He told Nicole to hold on, and he came back with all the pages I wrote h...

I just did a line before Nicole comes. Glenn asked me about her. I told him she was super hot. He wants me to take some coke and do lines with her and bring her back home. He asked me if I have ever been with her that way, I said yes a lot. I told him I will try I know she does lines occasionally. H...

I text Nicole back and asked her to just come over and do a few lines together. We never did coke together. Maybe me you and Glenn could have a threesome together. He would love that. He’s so sweet, when I got up he had my line and coffee waiting for me. She wasn’t too pleased. She said girlfriend, ...

My sweetie is so used to getting up early and he had my coffee and line waiting for me! I love him so much! Now I am enjoying a cigarette with my coffee. Reminds me of Amy when she used to have a line ready for me every morning with my coffee. NoThing like a line of coke to start your day! I just te...

Glenn fell asleep on the couch, long day and he is probably crashing. I told him to do another line with me, but he said he better not. I got a text from Nicole she said she misses me. Asked how it was going. I said really good. Glenn brought some coke home:). Oh then you must have had a good time. ...

I made brownies and dinner for Glenn. I didn’t eat anything, I did another line, and I am energized. I can see myself doing lines all night. There is nothing like coke, but it also helps you lose friends unless they like it too. Mike the guy I bought coke from, he was my best male friend. I had sex ...

I know this is a huge mistake. Everything I did wrong with Justin is because of coke. Everything. I couldn’t live with the fact I did all that. Now that I’m doing coke again, I love it. But it also means I burned my last bridge with Justin so I only have one path left and that is doing a lot of coke...

My sweetie had to go to the bank and back to his friends house to pay him as he didn’t have that kind of money on him. I’m feeling chatty and had some more secrets to share. Before I met Justin for as long as I can remember Amy at my shop would have a line for me ready right as I walked through the ...

He’s so cute. I’m ready for my second line and he said he is good for now. He said I will cut it for you. He made a small heart shaped line for me. I’m in the best mood I have been in since I stopped using this. I’m realizing already how much better I feel now. I always knew there is nothing in the ...

Doing lines and making love to the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with! I love Glenn so much, after making love to him and finally doing lines again, he knows how to make me so happy. He said he wish he knew how much I loved coke because if he did, I would never have left before. That i...

Tearful goodbye to Nicole, but I will be getting together with her as much as I can. Glenn will be home later this morning. Then the hard part saying goodbye to Justin until next Monday. That will be the longest I will not have seen him for since we first met. I will have my coke though and that wil...

I text Glenn from his house. I’m home unpacking all my clothes:) I love you so much! That is great! I love you so much! Tomorrow we start our life together! Yes we do, we finally did it! I know, we have too strong a love, I knew it was a matter of time. Are you sure you are getting the coke? Yes, I’...

My last night here. Pretty sad. I told Justin he should get off the hypnosis, it just isn’t right before he gets buried in it. I will miss both of them over the next week. I’m not perfect, far from it. Justin had me on such a high pedestal I always felt I could never live up to it. Nicole is probabl...

As far as me, Justin, and Nicole go. That was all part of my plan get Justin a gorgeous women in a threesome and guess who had the idea of moving her in, me:). I knew once she moved in, Justin couldn’t object to me moving in with Glenn, which since I moved in with him the last time, I knew I had to ...

The truth is I was smoking and doing coke when I met Justin. When I was at Jackie’s and we made the video and he saw the lines of coke on the table, That was my coke. I used to hate having to sneak cigarettes. So when I was at Jackie’s I made it look like I started smoking there. I had my own cigare...

I always appreciate input, but Glenn and I are very in love. I won’t change my mind, I will be with Glenn now. I love Justin a lot. This is hard on me. I will need my coke more than ever. I won’t see Justin until next Monday as Glenn is off until then. When I see him that Monday morning, I am going ...