I figured out exactly how I will know if Glenn really wants me for more than just sex. Every time I see Nicole’s boobs and how perfect they are in size and shape, the more I need to get mine done. If I get to the point of moving in with him, and it is working, I am going to go out of my way to let h...

I do worry some about Justin and Nicole spending weeks alone and together, if it gets that far. If it does though Glenn and I will be just as close and we will have what we wanted to strive for. We will have strongly bonded secondary partners, and it will be critical for me and Justin to communicate...

Justin and I embarked on a new journey to each have a secondary partner. Our biggest obstacle has been the fact that I have had a secondary partner for a long time and that paused for awhile. During that whole time Justin didn’t have one at all. Now Justin has one and for the time being I don’t. We ...

I got a chance to talk more with Nicole about Glenn. I told her that I was going to spend next weekend with him, and if it went well also 2 days next weekend. If it goes well, I will move in with him probably the next Monday after that. She asked me if things are ok with me and Justin. I said since ...

It seems like Glenn is not viewed favorably here, quite understandable I guess. One thing I can say is no one knows him like I do. I have seen the best and worst of him. The worst is when we have just a sexual relationship. There are no real emotions in that. When I moved in with him, there was more...

I do appreciate the input. I always like getting outside neutral input, so thank you for that. I am taking this slow. Changed 5 days to 3 when he comes back, and just 2 days the following week. It seems like when I move in with him he is much different. I want to get him at that point so we have mor...

Had a talk with Amber about living with Glenn. I asked her how long she thought it might be at the outside edge. She said she had no idea. I just told her if it becomes longer term like 4 weeks or more, please make sure we are getting a lot of reassurance from each other. We are really going to need...

Tonight after dinner we all go grocery shopping. You ever stop at the store and once in awhile you hear the clip clip of high heels and there is a hot woman all dolled up and you wonder where she is coming from looking like that? Well I am used to that, but now I will be with 2 of them lol. They are...

I am going to do this, but my priority is Justin and then Nicole, if this in any way has a negative impact on either, I’m back immediately

I did text back to Glenn to let him know I was still going to be seeing Justin you have to be ok with that. He text back, That’s ok, once we are living together you will slowly let go. It will be just like before when you moved in, just longer and better. You know once we move in together you won’t ...

I will test Glenn just like this time. If I end up moving in with him, I will meet him for lunch sex most days. After a few weeks of that I will start pulling back on that and see how he reacts. I will also avoid sex on a weekend day. I will know if he truly loves me or it still is all sex. If it is...

Maybe I am a bit jealous of Justin and Nicole, but not for the reason you would think. It’s because he has a loving relationship with her, and I don’t have one right now. I want that with Glenn and if I can get to the point of moving in with him I will have one too, which was our original goal. So i...

Justin knows I am telling him what he wants to hear. He also said if I am going in that direction, 2 days is smart, and then 3. Instead of trying something long term right away. I agree.

I finally gave in to Glenn. I made a compromise. He text me you know if you are here when I get home we will have great anticipation and our feelings will come out, and you will know right away. I said how about instead of 5 days, we are it just Friday and Saturday? He said, yes, you know what is go...

One other thing. Justin and I will be married. He is the only man I will ever be married to. There is no chance if I move in with Glenn that I will stay there. The longest time I would ever live with him would be now if I moved in with him, it is likely going to be a lot more than the initial 5 days...

The thing holding these thoughts together for me is I have to prove to Justin he can trust me. Even if I moved in with Glenn for several weeks, I am coming back, that is guaranteed. I will also be very attentive to Justin as he has been with me with Nicole here. If I do this, that will be an importa...

I do know if I do this I have to make him feel like I’m his now, and I will be, but it is temporary. I have to get him deeply emotionally involved, and that is going to require living with him for awhile. Then I can have him long term as a secondary partner. Once I do that, I can spend weekends livi...

Last night I spent the night with Nicole, it was the first night either of us slept a night with another woman. We both agreed in the morning it was really nice, and yes different but kind of special in its own way. We were both virgins to another woman in every way, and it seems to work for us. I h...

So our sleeping agreement is Amber and me every other night, 2 days a week all in the same bed, me and Nicole I night, and Amber and Nicole 1 night. Nicole said if ever Amber and I need more time with each other, she won’t feel slighted if it takes away one of her nights. She is so perfect for this,...

Danny you are always the voice of reason. It is hard, each situation seems flawed. The one great thing is Nicole. She is so perfect for this. She seems to understand the dynamics better than me and Justin. I could never do this if it wasn’t for Nicole. I have to say Justin gave me so much attention ...

The only way I will ever have a long term relationship with Glenn like Justin now has with Nicole is to turn just sex into something meaningful. The only way that happens for us is if I move in with him for an extended period. For me do I want to make that commitment. That is hard to decide, but Jus...

Justin basically said as he did before. Don’t try to make it long term if you decide to do anything at all. Don’t think 6 weeks, think 5 days, and go accordingly. I don’t want you to go for 6 weeks, but at the same time I’d be a hypocrite now that Nicole lives here, so I can’t deny you having someth...

I had to share these with Justin and I warned him as I told him before, I am telling him what he wants to hear so if I do move in he feels secure. You know all our trouble occurs when we are not together. When we lived together before you even said what a relief it was that we were finally going to ...

What a weekend. Yesterday I spent most of the day with Nicole helping her move out of her apartment. It was very small. Justin volunteered to help but I gave him a wink, and he knew we were doing more than moving. It gave me some time with Nicole. We had a chance to talk a lot. She is really a very ...

I told Justin that I don’t want to be with anyone else anymore. This seems to be a very good fit for all of us. If I stay involved with Glenn I will be managing 3 partners, and it would lead to problems. I want us all to be committed to each other. No other outside relationships. I’m probably going ...

The one thing I am living is there is no chance I can keep two ultra sex driven women satisfied. Not even close. Even with them having sex with each other. If I try I’m going to not be able to function very well. I’m not wishing Amber to rush back to Glenn but somehow I hope she gets into at least a...

That was one crazy fun night. It didn’t end when we came home. Amber and Nicole are enjoying each other on every level. They are similar personalities, and seem be bringing the “wild” out of each other. They had so many phone numbers when they came home they didn’t remember who was who. Figured out ...

They are so high. They have been dancing together several times. After one dance they stood on the dance floor kissing for about 3 minutes, and even the band stopped. They got an ovation! They went outside for a cigarette several times and must have 6 or 7 phone numbers between them, from women and ...

Amber just finished making over Nicole, as if she doesn’t look good enough already. They are going to smoke a lot before we leave. This night is gonna be interesting. Can’t wait to see what they decided to wear. Amber is so happy right now. She not only has a new close friend, they love each other. ...

I haven’t seen Amber having this much fun in a long time. Her and Nicole are such a good fit. They are in the bedroom trying on clothes for tonight. Amber is doing Nicole’s hair and makeup. They come out and model the clothes for me. Then they look at each other and start kissing. Amber says I love ...

So we all had lunch, Amber and Nicole sat down for a cigarette, next thing you know they are going at it, clothes coming off and they are going to have sex. Amber says come join us. I said I’m out of gas enjoy! I slept with Amber this morning and Nicole twice since Amber left. I have two extremely s...

OMG! They are still in the bedroom. Must be having gun. I want to talk to Justin if I decide to be with Glenn if he wold let me move in with him for an extended time. He has Nicole, so we would both have someone, and I have something to prove to Justin, he can trust me.

Ok time to go home. I bought a single rose for Justin and Nicole. I know they just had sex, but I’m not jealous at all.

I’m also getting feelings for Nicole which feels really different. Feels good though. Time to shop and head home. We have to get this so anyone can have sex with anyone so people don’t have to leave

I have a lot of time to kill. I unblocked Glenn and sent him a long long text. I pretty much told him that our relationship was 90% sexual and 10% emotional. The only way it would work is if I moved in with him at some point so our emotional connection deepened. There was more. Of course he said and...

I went out early. Need some stuff for lunch, and a couple other things. So Justin is home alone with Nicole unto 1pm about 3 hours. I’m shocked I am not feeling jealous at all. Justin said he probably misread my relationship with Glenn. He said yes, he was using you for sex and figured the more acce...

Nicole told me last night before we all slept in the same bed she was going to stop home for 2 hours so Justin and I could have some fun. We got so high last night, and it was such an emotional night with Justin talking to Nicole about helping her. He made it clear regardless of anything between the...

OMG. Justin just got Nicole to tell him why she can’t have a baby. I might not get this right but she was born with a T shaped uterus, had filopian tide issues, and may need investor fertilization if it can be fixed. More to it. Justin told her about his gfs they and the money. He is getting her a n...

I never had a man on the side before. I did it all wrong. I wanted him to feel like I was his so he wouldn’t get frustrated and walk away feeling secondary. I failed to communicate. I need another chance hopefully. It will turn out a lot better. But I know it’s a long road. Nicole her soon

Lol he isn’t going to be able to handle all the sex lol. On top of that he will want me away for the weekend with someone so he can have Nicole, and at least he will know I’m having enough sex. I have something to prove to him, and I’m going to get another partner soon. I hate he doesn’t have full t...

Justin said to me it seems strange you are not fucking anyone right now, almost feel like I miss that. I said do you want me to put an ad in again, and start having sex again by the rules? He said yes, not not right now, I think you need to really cool it for a bit. He is right, but I miss it too, I...

I’m going to drive Justin crazy playing with Nicole:)

I’m really focused on this. I even told Justin instead of going to the store today and get some groceries, I will go tomorrow. I want to leave you and Nicole private time to have sex together, and I will do it another day or two as well. I will let you know what time I am coming home each time. I ne...

Not to go negative, but I told Justin I was going to try and quit smoking for New Years, but with all that has been going on right now, I really need my cigarettes. Seems to get me through. I know bad excuse. The other issue is Nicole, because she smokes quite a bit, and if I am hanging around her a...

Justin is now warming up to the idea, but he worries how I can handle it. Right now I need to. I really think this can work. Right now I really trust Nicole. I am going to focus all my energy on making this work. Nicole and I are similar. She is into ultra sexy/ slutty clothes, and loves to be dolle...

Last night I had a long text exchange with Nicole. It isn’t fair to Justin that Nicole is no longer coming. I have been sleeping with guys almost daily since before we got here, and now that he gets a chance I ruined it. One thing I can say is he immediately canceled with Nicole as soon as I wasn’t ...

Wow. I just reread that and there is a lot of truth to what she wrote. I think she hit some really good points. When it is just me and her, she is right, she never ever made me feel uncomfortable and was exceedingly straight with me. She gave me a much healthier perspective. Communicating is really ...

I have to say something. Sometimes it is easier to write. I had 3 men in my life before Justin. I left everyone one of them because they were all verbally abusive, physically abusive, or controlling, or all 3. I met Justin and he has never been any of the above. Even now, he holds me and talks to me...

She told me she won’t be seeing Glenn anymore period. She feels totally played out. She didn’t allow me to take the blame it is all on her. She is scared to death I will not want her anymore, and I’ll never trust her again. I understand where she is coming because being truthful and agreeing to cert...

So now the next issue. Nicole as of now will be here Friday-Wednesday morning. I’m not sure what Amber has decided yet. She was really hurt that he was only concerned about getting sex, told her no point in staying over. Was kind of cold having her over period. That’s just so raw. She has been throu...