I learned from my grandfather. I remember him telling me when your not feeling so good about your wife, do something nice for her, and you will both realize how unimportant what is on your mind is. I always have carried that with me and it is so true.

I went out earlier and picked up a nice piece of salmon she loves fish. Got myself a filet mignon. I’m making her a candlelight dinner a nice salad some asparagus. I’m not happy with her right now I have to deal with that, but it doesn’t mean I don’t love and care for her I do.

She said she was going to Glenn’s this weekend because Nicole is coming here and she doesn’t want to be here. I asked her how can I trust you going there? You might tell him you don’t really have a yeast infection and get in bed with him? I learned something over this, you were right again. I need t...

She is really stung by his response. Truly, I don’t know what she is going to do, she has to sort that out. She gave me all the details about everything they talked about living together. The plan was to gradually start to live together, and once we did get that chance to try and make it last as lon...

This is painful for her. I really don’t like seeing her like this. I asked her if she remembered when we both had mild cases of Covid. She made me homemade chicken soup, nurtured me, and I her. Neither of us thought about sex. We thought about caring for each other. That’s love. I tried to explain t...

So Amber had her phone alarm set for 11. She had to text Glenn because she is supposed to be there at lunch. She read what I wrote, and I asked her if she would text him to let him know she has a yeast infection, do you still want to meet for lunch, I can’t have sex. So she did. His reply. Well that...

I just walked out and Amber is crashed on the couch and whimpering in her sleep. I read what she wrote. What I told her is this is supposed to be a special gift to each other, enjoying sex and happiness outside the primary relationship. I told her what it has felt like to me is she has made me her s...

I totally fucked up again. Sometimes I get too excited with sexual things like this. You think things are rolling along and suddenly someone gives you a jolt of reality. After I read what Justin wrote I all but fell into shock. He basically told me how disappointed in me he was, and I asked him to t...

I just read this NOOOOOOO!

She is going to wonder why I told her to live with Glenn as long as she wanted to, well I just got tired of competing. I never knew it would come to that. If I have to compete for my own girl, I have the wrong girl, pretty simple. We are likely done. Glenn won, congrats, we lost - sad!

This is one of the warning areas for all this. I see nothing but red flags ahead, I’m equally responsible. I think a lot of this could of been stopped a long time ago, but I was too guilty of being responsible, and in the end we will both suffer the consequences. What is my gut feeling? Amber will e...

I hope I’m wrong, but I think I know where this is heading. It will be a tragic turn of events for sure! It just seems all the NRE is turning our focus in the wrong direction, and I think it is probably to late to fix it. Sad days ahead for me and Amber.

The secret I have with Glenn is I gave him a date and promised at the very least that is how long we will live together. A hint: he was extremely happy:))) So am I. :). He is happy so you know it is more than a little while. If everything is perfect, I would commit to a 2nd date. And I’m not saying ...

I think our little secret is out. I am going to use this chance to finally be with Glenn, I never hid my love for him. It is up to me now, so I will be with him a long time, or until me and Justin hit a bump

Glenn is blowing up my phone. I asked him wasn’t that a nice little treat? Yes!! I can’t believe you surprised me like that, but the bigger surprise was what you told me when we made love, we are finally together, no interference. Yes! We are, didn’t I tell you just give me time? You did now you are...

She is so full of NRE right now. I had text Nicole earlier and said if you will have me we will be living together for what I think will be a very long time. I want to be in a totally committed relationship with you if you will have me? She said, if I will have you? You can have me forever if you wa...

I just told Justin I needed to go over Glenn’s for about an hour. I need to talk to him about this new arrangement. I told him I would give him an answer, so I really need to see him. Now I can deliver it privately making love to him:))))

I had to email Glenn. I started by saying hi sweetness! I love you so much! Remember what we talked about at lunch, what you asked to make happen? Hi love! I love you, do you mean about us being together finally? I said, yes. Well, it is happening:)!!!! No way are you serious??? I said yes I’m final...

Justin said as long as we have those nights together which are important he suggested I should live with Glenn longer or my jealousy over Nicole will be an ongoing issue. He may be right. I told him he has nothing to worry about no matter how long I live with Glenn. I want that so much so I’m glad i...

I just changed my mind about moving in with Glenn. I will but it has to be different. I just realized I would see Justin Monday- Friday, but because it is just until Glenn gets home from work, I realized I will never wake up with Justin next to me. I can’t do that. I need that feeling from him. Our ...

Wow, I read what Justin wrote. His instincts are good, he knows I’m going to get jealous to a large degree. He sat down with me after I came back from Glenn’s. He said I’m taking a huggge leap of faith. I really really trust you. I want you to hear all of me before you jump to a conclusion because y...

I’m really glad that not only is Amber embracing this she understands how all of it works. It has tabled a lot of her jealousy. I think after I’m with Nicole for 5 days and rush into her arms she will feel much more secure. One reason I want her to live with Glenn, and I’m like her on this, for as l...

I also want to experience living with Nicole.

She is getting ready to go have sex. She is right. She has had sex or made love to Glenn I’m sure over 100 times. As soon as she walks in the door she is on my lap kissing me. I trust her completely. I love that she is experiencing this. Is there anyone poly reading here? Only they would understand....

There is a hidden side to all this. Do you know how it makes me feel about Justin? He is telling me he loves me so much and trusts me so much and he knows how important it is for me to have a chance to live with Glenn, knowing how in love with him and he trusts me. That means so much to me.

I totally agree with Ambers feelings. Initially I want her to be extremely happy and know I’m happy for her. I know how much it means to her to live with Glenn. I trust her and us. I asked her if she would let Glenn sleep with Nicole? She said no way! Then I asked her why she would let me sleep with...

I want to clarify something sometimes my excitement is so strong I write with it. I will be living with Justin a lot more than Glenn, just not in the beginning if everything goes well, only if everything goes well. I love Glenn a lot. No secret there. We had a glimpse of living together and it was t...

I think Justin has the right approach, 1 week at a time. Time limits aren’t important, our relationship is. If that calls for 1 week or 30 weeks that’s what it will be. I think we are both on the same page with that. Am I excited I’m going to get to live with Glenn? OMG, yes! Especially after not se...

So Justin asked me a question. If I could live with Glenn for as long as I wanted how long would that be? I said OMG, I never really thought of that. I would say it would depend on a lot of things, mostly how my relationship was with Justin, and also how strong my love with Glenn was. I don’t really...

Justin suggested, I know you want to be with Glenn and 6 weeks sounds so nice to you two right now. Why don’t we start with 1 week, so we can keep things fine tuned and make adjustments as needed. If everything is ok a second week will be a no brainer, and just go week to week. I agreed. We are knew...

I’m so wet now. Justin said you are finally embracing this aren’t you? I said yes. We will each have each other all the time, even when we are with our other partners, all week while they work making love over and over. Then we will be together for as long as we want seeing our other partners on the...

I text Glenn before he left for work. I told him I had the best surprise for him ever:). He text back, please tell me, I hate surprises. I text back I was going to wait to tell you when we were making love today, I’m getting wet just thinking about this. When you come back We will be living together...

He is snuggled up with me. He just said to me that we are both going to have 6 weeks with our other partners to experience all the new relationship energy high. Our partners will feel totally satisfied and locked in so we don’t lose them, and guess what is going to happen Monday through Friday when ...

I asked Justin if everything goes well this weekend, and then the weekend Glenn comes home, I’m gonna miss him so much. So that Monday if everything appears and feels right to him on that Monday, would he be ok if I moved in with Glenn for a few weeks? He said if everything goes right, and we are at...

I asked Justin how it was the first time I had sex with someone since being with him? He said the video of Jackie? It was so amazing but I was on hypno, but then I saw what was on the table and I was so scared. Ugh forgot that was the first. I will never do that again, I came within literally second...

Justin asked me to think of something. If I wasn’t as in love with you as anyone ever in my life, why would I stay while you are deeply in love with another man? Don’t you think that almost every man in this situation would leave? I trust you. He said Glenn doesn’t enter the thought process. I’m sur...

I think this is what Justin does best. He has a logical way to share his thoughts. We started this to do exactly what I’m afraid to do, allow him with another woman. Grow our communication skills and have complete trust in each other, and it is happening. Justin also said to me don’t be afraid to fa...

Nicole text me. I don’t want to pry but after your text today I was worrying all day that something happened to you and Amber. Are you both doing ok? If you don’t want to answer I understand totally. I replied that is really thoughtful of you, but we are better than ever. We are talking about giving...

This is an important weekend for us. When we see each other Monday morning she is apt to see a man with love for another woman, but she will also see a man that can’t wait to hold her kiss her and make love to her. Really, this weekend and Mon and Tues, she is going to decide if she lives with Glenn...

So I sat down with Amber because seems to be struggling with me and Nicole. She also is letting it interfere with her and Glenn. I basically told her this is 100% based on trust. I have to believe you are who you were when I met you, and that is the woman I knew early on I was going to spend the res...

I hope I can feel that way.

Basically, compersion is the feeling of joy or happiness (and sometimes even arousal) for your partner's happiness with their other partner. I really believe I am there. I’m getting hard suddenly when she leaves to make love to Glenn and when she comes home. This is hard to explain, because it is no...

I love what she wrote, she understands, meanwhile I text Nicole and just to skirt through insignificant stuff. I asked her about her thoughts of staying with me sometime in the near future for 2-3 weeks at a time? She said your kidding me right? Of course I would want that I love you! I said it will...

I was dying for a cigarette and forgot to text Glenn. Of course he asked me if we were going to be able to live together when he gets home. I said, don’t be disappointed, but maybe. What I can promise you is we will live together soon, up to maybe 3 weeks:)))). If it works, I will live with you from...

I just read what Justin wrote. He is so on the money. I no longer hide my feelings from him since we started on this path. I think I have made it clear to him, and the way he addresses he understands the how and why behind it. It has nothing to do with him, or anyway I feel about him at all. It isn’...

I can see every direction Amber is coming from. I agree with what she wants and why she wants it. I have learned one thing from what we have done the past few months. I would say we get so excited we move too fast. Amber and I as well want this to move really fast. I want to experience Nicole the wa...

I’m walking out the door in 20 minutes to go make love with Glenn and it is so easy for Justin. I wish I could be like that for him. I know Glenn is going to ask me if we will be able to move on with each other when he comes back. We are both so looking forward to it but I’m so scared. I’m going to ...

When Glenn and I talked about moving in together for awhile he said even if it is just a couple of weeks, I just want to experience that with you. I totally agreed I wanted to have that experience with him so much. I told him I would try to make it happen, but I don’t think my fear will allow me too...

I feel like a hypocrite as I have sex with Glenn every day. I’m scared to death he is spending 5 days with Nicole this week. I have shed some tears on his shoulder, and thankfully he has a way of defining his love for me not just in words in how consistent his love has been all the time. Even when t...

The only thing about that for me is that means he will be likely living with Nicole for the same period of time as I live with Glenn, and honestly, I am scared to death I will lose him. It is what likely means after 5 days I won’t be able to handle him being with her that long. I’m so jealous just e...