I was able to stop after listening a few times. I did as I say struggle with it for years and I still have some fem characteristics that surface at odd times and the idea of cross dressing still turns me on. But eventually I lost the compulsion to listen. So If you don't want to or can't dress full...

Be careful with Stroke Sissy. It may be the most addictive file I've ever listened to and it will make you dress full time. It was the first curse file I listened to, only a couple of times, and I struggled not to listen for years. I'd come across the thread and it would come roaring back and make ...

Holy crap. I was chatting with someone and answering their questions about what I've done and listened to and where I wanted to go from here. He recommended that in addition to the CFG and CSG files that I also listen to Curse Stroke Sissy. I said I didn't want to be a sissy. He said it.was more.gea...

Well i have been continuing to listen to CFG and Curse Stroke Gay. Its pretty much all i can think about. Being submissive. Men and cock. Its what I want and deserve. If you havent listened to both together, i recommend it. Definitely want to be ready to please the next dominant man to find me.

Oh yes, I have started listening to this file along with CFG. It most definitely is having an effect on me. Cant not think about men and being submissive to dominant men. its what i deserve, and how i want to feel.

I'm debating listening again. Could use some guidance or encouragement.

Wow. That was an interesting file. I listened to it this morning which may have been a mistake, because I haven't gotten anything done today - just keep thinking about the adult. Ookstore and being submissive to someone again.

I can honestly say that although I've heard people talk about that file I never really looked into it, so I don't really know what it's about. But all we can do is what we are told to try right? So maybe I will.give it a try as well. Thanks!

Subdad36 - I've still been trying to make sense of it all. Part of me can't believe I let it happen. Part of me wanted it/ wants it So fucking bad. The simple fact is that his aggressiveness was suchanging a turn on, I felt like I suddenly knew my place. I will say that once I was actually sucking h...

Well, I finally broke down and went to a local adult bookstore Down on rt 1. I really thought I was going to be fine, buy some mags and toys, watch a little porn. They changed it from the lout I remembered. It used to be booths. Now it's a hallway with flor to ceiling curtains cr e a ting the booths...

Maybe you're turned on by the idea of totally losing control--becoming consumed with sexual thoughts & lust, but it usually doesn't happen that way. I guess maybe sex addicts are that way, but I think most people still have conscious control over what they are doing, even when aroused. I don't ...

On a side note, I've tried CFG recently, but I guess I'm just immune to it's effects. Whatever, time will tell. Well, its definitely one of those files that you must listen to over and over. I think in most cases, if not all, we all went into it saying "could it really happen?" listened to it once,...

ftslave67 wrote:Sorry for my ignorance, but what's an "ABS"?

sorry - in new jersey i guess thats the slang for adult bookstore.

jersey, why "god help me"? what's wrong with that?! Knowing what you want is the first step toward enjoying it. Set yourself free. Don't take on the guilt the world is so willing to weigh you down with. I get what you are saying. And I wasn't trying to.run away from things or let guilt weigh me dow...

Its taken a long time for me. things stalled and i made no progress but now the feelings of attraction for... :oops: hot guys is getting very intense. Im still scared of being gay, but i am watching more and more porn with guys sucking, fucking, blowing, rimming, etc. also a lot of very kinky stuff...

ftslave67 - No, I don't feel like my sex-drive is suppressed. Not by long shot - in fact, it is just the opposite. I feel completely submissive, and with the idea of submissiveness, I get this feeling that I can only describe as a feminine quality as well. If I had to describle it, the label "The we...

Subdad36 - thank you for writing that. It makes me feel a little less stressed out about how I've been feeling. Part of its been the submissive feelings, part of its been the artraction to men, and from me part of it has actually been an emssculation of sorts. I still don't know what it all is leadi...

I don't know if it's just me, but I feel like this file also puts me in a submissive mindset. Definitely not in the role of a top. I am soon curious as to what's going to happen when I finally give in and go looking to meet someone. I've been having urges.to visit an ABS but I have been doing my dam...

The compulsion to listen is so strong that if you just erase it you'll find yourself downloading and listening again. It's freaky when that happens. That's exactly what's been happening. I actually had a situation where I passed an adult bookstore today. I got about a me down the road and I ended u...

Well I can tell you I did try the deprogramall but the next day found myself listening even more and I don't have money for emgs removal file. I'm kinda stuck riding the rapids and holding on.

I honesf ly don't know anymore. I thought I was straight but I would get these urges that I was too afraid to act on. I started listening to this file with the hopes that it would give me the courage or at least help me to maybe experiment a little and figure it all out. Now I'm realizing that I was...

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I don't know if anyone is actually following this or even. Cares but I'm gonna continue posting as a record until it runs its course one way or another. Well I have had the desire to ljsten for several days but I e been talking with a couple men online about what I am goig through and possibly conti...

I did my best to not listen to the file for a couple days but i found myself waking up saturday and today and queing it right up again and dozing while it played. I am so damn stuck on this file, and have been feeling so damn submissive in general that i have been doing my best to avoid contact with...

Okay. I forced myself not to listen to the file at all yesterday, but i kept thinking about it A LOT. I found myself surfing the next looking at naked men. Had sex dreams about sucking cock most of the night. And to top it off, recd an email from another member with a pretty graphic picture that i k...

And I've wasted most of the day loopjng the file. Dammit.

Another night of sex dreams surrounded by men with large thick cocks... I remember thinking I could just take a taste if I didn't get caught by someone I know. Damn. Shaking my head.

Another night of sex dreams surrounded by men with large thick cocks... I remember thinking I could just take a taste if I didn't get caught by someone I know. Damn. Shaking my head.

Had a night of tossing and turning filled with bizarre sex dreams. I was submissive and serving men, and it really turned me on. I gotta believe this is the file at work. Needing to listen to it again today.

That was supposed to say "another man's cock, not "another cock".

Still finding myself drawn back to the file over and over again. Still don't feel like I could act on it but if I found myself in a situation with a stronger man, I'm not sure what I would do...

Found myself drawn to listen to CFG for the first time in ages yesterday. Ended up letting it run over and over again First time turned me on, but by the third time, i found myself drifting off, and think i listened to it about 5 times total yesterday. woke up this morning hard as a rock and feeling...

Hi all! Looking for someone that would be willing to help trigger me for various files I have listened to. Would be willing to listen to your recommended files. More than anything, I am looking for someone I can trust while under hypnosis. It may take a little while to get to know eachother before I...

Lol confused!

That's the way I felt, but I finally gave in and started listening to it. My only problem now is finding someeone I can trust to trigger me to see if this file actually works...

Exactly. I think it would have a great effect on me in terms of my submission. I dont think it would take much yo push me over the edge. I think part of me wants it to happen but not with someone I know deeply personally. But im always open to offers... LOL!!!

Hi All! I have found little or no real information on experiences with the trigger files, and I am wondering what successes you have had in general, and specifically with the triggayslave file. I have never been brave enough to have someone try triggering me, but I can tell there is something in me ...

Hi All- Ive been quiet and just taking it all in before I shared my experiences with CFG. I listened to it off and on about a year ago. I would say that it caused a few things to shift in me. 1. I find that i need to search out she-male or gay cocksucking erotica to get off. I need to do this almost...

Hi Darkenedav-

I havent tried it but would be willing to explore it with ya. email me at subjerseyguy@yahoo.com and let me know what i need to do.

-Brian.

subjerseyguy@yahoo.com I would love to hear from you~!!!