I guess what I really want is to be free of this cycle, the purging, feeling guilty/ashamed, only to start up again when I'm lacking sex in my life. I feel like I go out of control with this every time. When I have vanilla sex with a girl, I feel fulfilled and calm. When I crossdress and masturbate/...

Not trying to be a negative Nancy here, I just want to see if anyone else goes through what I go through with feminization. Any input is appreciated I've been kind of going on and off with feminization since I was about 16(I'm 23 now). I've thrown/burned away my clothes, high heels, make-up, buttplu...

Yeah, I feel you man, I've been kind of going on and off with feminization. I've thrown/burned away my clothes, high heels, make-up, buttplugs, and dildoes about 4 times now, everything together must have cost at least a grand. To top it all off, I have a mistress who I can visit whenever I want tha...