Forgetting (or blanking)... on demand... selectively?
Posted: December 11th, 2011, 10:41 am
So, I've recoiled slightly from a depth of trance that would happen pretty quickly... and every time I leave hypno and come back it, it's a little bit stronger.
This time, I've got a pattern I can tell -- a basic trance trigger, which puts me into a light trance... then a sort of 'overwhelm' or 'overload' of time, words, and thoughts that wears down the resistance... and then a deep trance trigger which brings me to the level that I don't consciously remember the trance.
However, the deep trance trigger... I want to 'forget' on demand, when triggered, but I guess there's a few things that get me.
I think I've got 'too much' excitement, suspense, anxiety, tension, wonder, and wanting to know what happens with the deep trance blanking out...
And in order to perform any of it online, I have to be conscious enough to keep my eyes open and the computer from idling. Or I'll be doing other things than devoting my full attention.
I've found that I demi-ignore some of the things, with some training, but I find I want, on some level, to not even realize or notice that I was triggered.
I can tell my mind is still being a little conflicted about it's interests.
Anyone have any thoughts, reactions, responses? Mind helping me sort some of this out?
Is the concept of deep trance and blanking out really a delusion, since you have to have something to remember in order to then forget it? What do you all know about 'forgetting'?
This time, I've got a pattern I can tell -- a basic trance trigger, which puts me into a light trance... then a sort of 'overwhelm' or 'overload' of time, words, and thoughts that wears down the resistance... and then a deep trance trigger which brings me to the level that I don't consciously remember the trance.
However, the deep trance trigger... I want to 'forget' on demand, when triggered, but I guess there's a few things that get me.
I think I've got 'too much' excitement, suspense, anxiety, tension, wonder, and wanting to know what happens with the deep trance blanking out...
And in order to perform any of it online, I have to be conscious enough to keep my eyes open and the computer from idling. Or I'll be doing other things than devoting my full attention.
I've found that I demi-ignore some of the things, with some training, but I find I want, on some level, to not even realize or notice that I was triggered.
I can tell my mind is still being a little conflicted about it's interests.
Anyone have any thoughts, reactions, responses? Mind helping me sort some of this out?
Is the concept of deep trance and blanking out really a delusion, since you have to have something to remember in order to then forget it? What do you all know about 'forgetting'?