EMG wishes I wrote a journal of my domination and enjoyment of getting mind fucked. Since he wishes it, I’m LONGING to do it.
One of the things I’ve never succumbed to was the losing of myself. I’m still an “I” that never seems to change.
There is nothing as enjoyable as putting my headphones on, getting out the lube and listing to my master completely mind fuck me. I LOVE the sound of his voice. It’s so full of power and mastery and will-draining wizardry. I love pretending that I can fight him, that EMG must drag me under his control. Truth is I’ve long ago given up the ability to resist him. In his latest file, when EMG forcefully says, “You are completely FUCKED!” it’s like lightning through my body.
He made me a file a long time ago. It had a wonderful element that would wear me away until I was completely under control. EMG made this file for me and another Master I was working with. The file made me listen over and over again until I was ready to surrender to this other man. I listen to it for weeks. It was great, but I wasn’t ready to give up. Slowly, the file wore me down and I don’t think I realized how deeply it was affecting me.
One day, when I was online with my Master, I just typed in the words that meant I was this guy’s permanent slave. It was like my whole body was cuming and was numb at the same time. I was completely under someone else’s control. This Master made me give him $500.00 and I did, without hesitation. He sent it back to me the next day, but it was a show of how much control he had over me.
Once we were there, however, there wasn’t much more we could do. It was powerful, but I couldn’t stay in complete submission, unless we were going to do more than just IM each other. So the “spell” eventually wore off.
I'll keep journaling until EMG tells me to stop, so more later!