WarpMyMind

I want to something that will completely fuck my mind over. permanent irreversible curse.

nothing left of me, no memories except for things like in horror movies. no limits

try the Bambi Sleep files

Looking for something without triggers, that's literally permanent

the Bambi Sleep files are permanent and may become irreversible. the triggers are just part of the package. don't buy what it says that the files only work when you are dressed as Bambi. part of why the file is "evil" is the fact that it is deceptively labeled. anyway, the recommendation was made, you can chicken out of it if you want.

will i know that its happening to me?

yes and no, Bambi tends to hide what she is doing until it is too late to stop her.

do not need full details but how fucked up will i end up?

and approx how long will it take?

Would these help me with my own challenge of aiming at a replacement of personality such that obeying extreme commands (masochistic ones only) would be my only choice?