Need permission to masturbate

[blassmela]

guys i have found a very interesting file, im sorry its nothing about this topic but i need to talk about it cause its very mysterious, it was just a number sequence of 40sec that you need to loop and its supposed to talk to you subconscious and create a connection between you and the tist... have anyone ever heard of something like that??

[davidsub1]

Sorry have no knowledge about that subject

[davidsub1]

So I have endured to listen to Cal’s curse several times now. Compared to EMG file permission to masturbate is starkly different and potentially more destructive. I found my self during the day at work feeling very horny but not experiencing erection but just wildly horny. Went home and tried to masturbate. I found I was able to get erect, very hard but then the torture began. Wet and hard bringing myself with some pleasure but then the curse takes hold. I don’t think I have ever got that close to orgasm with my sub conscious working to withhold orgasm as if I was able to get close but not being able to orgasm. Three times this evening and the same effect. This is truly merciless being made to understand I am a submissive slut and not yet seeking the humiliation to beg to be given permission. What I understand is that I may face the possibility of being denied as that can make the curse even stronger. In some ways I wish I could be humiliated even more