by oraprog » May 11th, 2011, 6:19 am
I have more or less stopped - I won't say quit because I'd still like to pursue it sometime, it's just not practical for me for so many reasons.
I will share this with you - I've secretly had the desire to crossdress for years, so this isn't something brought on by files here. But this site has helped me understand it better and that's a good thing.
A few weeks ago I was on a business trip to a large city and stayed over the weekend because of the scheduling. As it turned out there was a store catering to crossdressing. I went and tried on a pair of 5" stilettos in my size and absolutely loved them. I considered getting them, but what am I going to do? Wear a $60 pair of shoes for a week in my room in the evening and throw them out?
If I was on my own, just me with nobody else...then it's a completely different story. But having others at home just reminds me - I am who I am and without completely turning others out of my life, the shoes, despite being absolutely fabulous, just proved that it isn't possible to go forward.
It's a little bit of a let down, but nothing I won't get over. And just think of all the money I'll save on hair removal, hormones, waxing, shoes, makeup, wigs, new clothes, nail polish, nail polish remover, etc, etc, etc.