baseball28 wrote:Hey Alien - I am sure that I am not alone when I say that it'd be cool to hear an update from you - has your level of success "bottomed out" so to
speak? What I mean is, do you feel the need to continue to use the file to maintain your results or else you will go
back to being straight? Any interesting stories to speak of?
Any boyfriends / love interests yet?? :)
Well it's a little complicated because I'd never planned on staying gay, I thought I could change back to being bi or straight. But by the time I tried I'd been listening too long. So I tried a softer approach, suggestions from about the first of the year to become attracted to women again, and then when it came out Curse Forced Bi. And I actually thought Forced Bi had worked, for four days straight I was able to cum to women, but then Forced Gay reasserted itself. So I kept listening to Forced Bi, but it was just frustrating. Then I tried ordering the undo for Forced Gay, but for some reason it didn't arrive and I couldn't bring myself to track it down. Finally, I said to hell with this I have to decide one way or the other and I gave myself a suggestion that I would make a decision once and for all and either listen to Forced Bi or go back to listening to Forced Gay. So when I came out of trance I found myself listening to Forced Bi, and thought OK, the decision is made. Only when I went to listen to Forced Bi again that night, I listened to Forced Gay instead! And listened three times!
OK so that was a couple of months ago and I haven't listened to anything since. The weird thing is now I'm frequently turned on by women, I stayed bi in that respect, but I can't have sex with them. Those listens to Forced Gay reinforced my acceptance -- I hadn't listened to it for a long time, probably almost a year, and most of my listening was actually in the first couple of months. I can't seem to listen to Forced Bi anymore, or anything else that might undo Forced Gay.
There aren't really any partners where I am, there's sex, but no one I'd be interested in as a real boyfriend. I have to wait until I move back to civilization for that which probably won't be for like a year. So I'm thinking of listening to more gay stuff to try to polish off my resurgent straight side, but while part of me wants it, part of me still wishes I were bi, so nothing has happened.