Diapering has got me!

[Jennykins]

I have been tricked, I am so confused, I sit here

pondering my fate, I have been so bad for letting

myself fall for this, how can I be so stupid, what has

become of me, my thoughts racing, knowing what was

about to start happening, shifting into a more

comfortable position feeling the bulk of my diaper

spreading out around me, Diaper? DIAPER? what am I

doing wearing a diaper? My thoughts go back to how it

started, a time when I saw the hypnosis sites and

dismissed them as fake and possibly places that you

get taken advantage of, stay clear of these you tell

yourself,, they are bad places. Already in the back of

my mind I was curious, what do I know, the only way to

find out was to have a go. Over a period of several

months I did not realise that my subconscious had

already decided to give it a go, and it was not long

before the oportunity arose for my subconscious to

take over for one tiny inocuous moment. I was looking

around erotic websites like you do to see what is out

there and if there is anything that I was missing out

on, when I stumbled on a site that had dominant Women

who take conrol of Men and Women using hypnosis and

turn them into their mindless slaves. I looked long

and hard at the Home page not realising there were

subliminal messages whispering to me, and visual

stimuli that penetrated my synapses. One mp3 file

jumped out at me, it was a free file, an induction

that was to improve my life, so I downloaded it. Six

months later I had purchased thousands of dollars

worth of files and was deep in the clutches of this

dominating empire. What happened next was so bizzare,

the dominant that had so effectivly controlled me sold

me to an even more dominant Mistress, I did not know

this until I was directed to her site and then given

another free file that handed control over to her.

Soon I was being degraded and humiliated into

submission and it wasn't long before she had me

wetting myself in diapers. A number of times I tried

to get away but the triggers installed wanted me to

try and when I did try my obedience to her was re-

inforced in a never ending cycle of total control. Now

after eight years under her spell I thought I would

use the WWm site to break her bonds even if it meant

being controlled by another. OK it worked it is safe

to say, I am free of her even though I still have many

of her most powerfull files on my system, as long as

they are there I know I will not purchase them again

and go through the whole cycle again,. I shift

uncomfortably I am brought back to the present, just

thinking of the files makes me feel their pull, the

temptation is still there to listen but WMM is

comforting me, making me feel better, I feel my mind

slipping a little, The diaper is feeling more

comfortable now, it feels so nice, only this morning

what I thought would be another wet and messy diaper,

or was it yesterday, yes it was yesterday, I have been

wearing diapers for over 29 hours now, surely this is

not permanent. Only trouble is every time I come to

take it off I can't, Every time I use and wet my

diaper I replace it with another. I have been tricked,

tricked into wearing diapers full time. The moment I

put it on I was triggered, triggered into changing

into another if used or triggered into not being able

to remove it unless I use it, then I want another on.

I cannot get out of this, I have ordered another bulk

buy of fresh diapers and they will be here before this

lot run out, there is no way out. Having got dressed

and pulled jeans over my diaper I feel even more

trapped, in order to replace my diaper with a pair of

panties I will have to remove my jeans but to change

my diaper I can keep my jeans on around my ankles,

whilst the diaper is changed. My head is spinning now,

the urge to pee is growing and I know it is going to

happen, the diaper demands this, I can see the next

diaper waiting for it's turn to be worn, for it's turn

to suck my pee out of me, make me wet and then put

another on. The fold smiling at me in mock amusement,

there you have it all the evidence you need that my

mind has indeed been warped, I have given up one for

another and I am almost sure that I don't want this to

stop, here it comes again, filling up my diaper, that

warm wet snug feeling knowing that soon I will get

cleaned up and diapered once more. Please make a file

to break the cycle once in a while maybe with a time

limit that once passed increases my desire to get back

into diapers. Best wishes Jennykins. Happy to be

wearing a Diaper all the time. Sorry about the spelling and punctuation but I have been regwessed too:-)