Curse Stroke Sissy / Curse Bimbo - Sucess?

[Big_Sissy_Julie]

I think this counts as a success?

I'm sat here, nursing my recent boob job, and SRS Surgery, having got back from Thailand a couple of weeks ago..

2 Years ago, I was a Straight guy, never had any real thoughts to do this, I decided to listen to those two files to see what happened, just to be a bit inquisitive...

I found they were a bit addictive, and kept listening to them!

To cut a long story short, I sold the house, moved into a rented flat, and used the money to fund SRS including FFS, SRS and Boobs.

Got back from Dr Sanguan a couple of weeks ago, I'm 4 weeks post op, and I think the hypnotism is wearing off, and I can see more clearly what I've done, I've lied and cheated my way through the system and got myself changed without really being aware of what I was doing, like I was in a dream, and I've kinda just woken up...

I have to say, the missing cock bit is the weirdest thing, and having to dilate and have something inside me is just weird and gross...

[natchange2]

do you like it or hate it?
dose it feel right to have it?

[Big_Sissy_Julie]

Hmm..

Tricky question.

I'm enjoying it, but it's something new, so I might just be enjoying the novelty of it. I pass really well, so just blend in, which helps I guess.

I'm really having mixed emotions about my cock not being there any more, I don't think it's replacement is as good, or as functional.. Though my tight jeans do look much nicer, going to the bathroom is a pain...

The boobs are nice, but I'm constantly aware of their presence, and wearing a bra all day has got boring very quickly....

[ridd]

Congratulations...for being not afraid and going all the way!!
Can you tell me plzz what files did u listen? for how long? After listening for how long Curse Stroke Sissy started to have effect?
I dont know if I wanted to go full SRS but I want my clitty to be smaller and useless with a fully feminine body.I am really tired with fighting myself and just wanted to be feminine.
If you share with us the effects files had after say,one week,one month,two months will be much appreciated.

[Big_Sissy_Julie]

@ridd...

Err, I listened to the files I mentioned in the title! Curse Stroke Sissy and Curse Bimbo!

I can't really document the process like that, as I don't know. I didn't keep any records, just the notes from the Specialist in London, but they're not really worth the paper they're written on, as I just told him the answers he wanted to hear..

So once the hormones kicked in, it's a bit blurry with what's doing what...

To the guys who've PM'd me, thanks for your support... :D

xxx

[frosty46]

That really sucks to hear your negative reaction to the situation your hypnosis brought you to. I hope you're just having second thoughts Julie. I know every time I make my car payment I regret the work I put into and loathe the work I will put into the newish car I bought which is now old.

Off of what you wrote it looks to me as though that's all it is. Second thoughts. Of course you miss your manhood now that youve rid yourself of it. Abused women miss their abusers after they leave them -occasionally- don't they? Look at it like this, your dick was holding your sexuality hostage. Your inner self was a prisoner to your penis. You've got Scockholm Syndrome. You are better off with out that baggage your balls represented.
Your life was literally getting cockblocked.

Ask yourself if you really miss your old organ, or if you miss what one represents to you. Did your old one make you happy? If it did, why would your subconscious so eagerly rid yourself of it.

Look at your new situation, you can have any phallus you find. You can have more than one at a time at your disposal should you play your hand right.

You say you have always been very passable, so I doubt you would have any problems getting what you want and making yourself happy, but you're recovering and probably just depressed from having to lay dormant for this period.

Let yourself rest and recover before you regret and regress.

[frosty46]

"I'm 4 weeks post op, and I think the hypnotism is wearing off, and I can see more clearly what I've done, I've lied and cheated my way through the system and got myself changed without really being aware of what I was doing, like I was in a dream, and I've kinda just woken up..."

The dream was the reality of your desires and the world you're awakening into is just the nightmare you perceive reality to be. It doesn't have to be a nightmare. Live your dreams and don't let your nightmares trick you into believing your dreams aren't reality.