My sissification with Goddess Gracie

[sissysugarlipz]

Hi Everyone,

I just had to share my story about how Goddess Gracie has and continues to change my life. Through a combination of her Good Girl series (1, 2 & 3), Bimbo blessing (induction & curse), limp clittty training and personal messaging, the last 5 weeks have transformed me from a compulsive fetish driven masturbator to a near fully feminized cock obsessed limp clitty bimbo sissy.

I am 50 and married with children nearly all grown up. Since my early 20's I have been a cumpulsive masturbator, diddling my erect cockette to make cummies anywhere from 1-5 times per day. I would do this to a range of 12chan style fetish categories like busty female models or amateurs, anything 3D like umemaro or 3darlings, dolls and figurines especially with big boobied obitsu body parts, furry and animal sex especially krystal starfox, and any kind of big tit point-of-view porn. I would spend hours a day and sometimes even the whole day searching the web for masturbation material.

Unfulfilled and stagnating, about 3 years ago I started to toy with the idea that I was a closet sissy. This happened largely as a result of being introduced to some brainwashing and hypnosis files on 12chan that revolved around feminization, sissification, big black cocks, bimboization and gender transformation.

These files led me to start reflecting seriously on my life story and I started to recall memories that made me begin to appreciate that maybe I shared more similarities with girls than boys. My physique was much more girly being a caucasian male standing a mere 5'7". In my 20's I was always slender with a 28" waist and a mere 135-140 pound, muscleless frame. Perhaps most significantly, I had a little dickette that was 1.5-2" soft and barely 4" erect.

I was always shy around girls and never the one to pick them up like other star studded guys. I started recalling many of my failed sexcapades that included being unable to get an erection, pre-maturely ejaculating or not being big enough to satisfy a real woman to the point of orgasm. These failures occurred more often than not after which I started resorting to strip clubs, prostitutes and masturbation to satisfy my sexual needs. I was always very flirty, huggy and touchy-feely even with guys. To this day, many women describe me as caring, compassionate and non-aggressive.

I played sports growing up but was never that good. I never liked guy things like cars, being much more likely to pay attention to clothes or watching a chick-flic with tears running down my cheeks at the gushy parts. Perhaps most significantly and long forgotten until this time period was the fact that I once got dressed like a big-titted girl in my late teens, walking around late at night on the streets but careful not to be seen by anyone.

Thus began a 3yr process of masturbating over the thought of being an airheaded, big-titted, cock crazed bimbo. I really started to feel in my element and I reinforced the hypnosis with regular consumption of TGirl, big tit, big cock, cuckold, gender transformation, and pov humiliation porn that I would frequently masturbate over. I then took it further by playing online fashionista games where I could dress and make-up girly-girl avatars and I also joined websites where I would impersonate a female alter ego in order to be desired, chat, trade pix and cyber sex with big hunky guys. Most all of these activities would end in daily bouts of masturbation. Still after all of this I remained unfulfilled and troubled about my sexual identity, wondering whether this was all a big fetish like every other sexual obsession to this point in my life.

All of this changed 5 weeks ago when I discovered Goddess Gracie by some twist of fate. It was Bimbo Blessing that I first discovered. I read the warning that this was a curse file and its effects would be permanent and forever and I remember thinking about it for a day or two, then listening only to the induction and stopping before the curse began, until finally deciding I was ready to listen to the curse, resolute in the idea that I would come to see the sissy curse as a blessing and become the "silly giggly permanently aroused and happy sex-obsessed bimbo who wants nothing but to dress up and flirt and fuck and gossip and giggle and dance girl" I felt I was meant to be.

From the moment I listened to the Bimbo Blessing curse file I was transformed and wanted everything it had to offer more and more with each listen- I started to obsess over fashion, makeup, flirting, dancing, giggling, chewing bubble gum and wanting to dress and get made up like a sexy hot cock whore to prowl around for big hunky men to fuck me with their big manly cocks. Everything Goddess said in the file created a flood of memories that brought my past into perspective unlike ever before. It was like a 24/7 epiphany unfolding in front of my eyes.

Communicating with Goddess Gracie through her blog I then discovered that I had missed the essential Good Girl series which layed an important foundation that Bimbo Blessing built on so I shifted to these files and became further obsessed. Suddenly I was tinkling like a girl sitting down, giggling outloud at the silliest things, performing more chores around the house, and willingly embracing an inferior status to real men and real women. My penis and ass disappeared I all I saw were a clitty and pussy that I was proud to refer to as such.

Throughout, I remember the most troubling part of the Good Girl and Bimbo Blessing files was Goddesses' decree that all good sissies should strive for a limp clitty, a point completely reinfored in the limp clitty training loop. This was a foreign idea to me and something I feared based on the past 30 years of compulsive masturbation. Obsessed with following and pleasing Goddess Gracie, however, I instinctively embraced the idea that I should aspire to a limp clitty.

As it turns out, limpness was the greatest gift Goddess ever could have given me. As Goddess decreed, every time my clitty tingled I would take a time out and not touch it. Soon tingling in the clitty was replaced with tingling in my nipples, tongue and pussy which burned with desire now for cock. In 50 years I never used a dildo and suddenly I purchased one that offered 5" of silicone fun. The more I used it, the more I wanted it and everything else sissification had to offer. Days later, I went on a spending spree and purchased panties and a bra to wear whenever I could around the house. I started out with a 38B bra but then discovered breast forms and moved up to a 38DD. Perceptions of what others thought of me became distant and I felt comfortable enough to go into a women's garment store and have a private bra fitting with breast forms getting wonderful advice that my experience growing up never allowed. Soon after I was trying on and buying ladies heels, booty shorts, camisoles and tank tops, panties and g-strings, then a blonde wig and make-up (concealer, foundation, lip stick and gloss, blush, eye shadow, eyeliner, and mascera). I bought nail extensions and nail polish, trimmed my eyebrows and then shaved all the hair off my body except my clitty area where I left a little trimmed section *tehe* Whenever I could I would get dressed up, listen to Good Girl or Bimbo Blessing, then dance sluttily in private before pounding my pussy with the dildo. In two weeks, I was now looking for a larger dildo and graduated to 7" of silicone fun.

The more I used the dildo, the closer I got to my ultimate fantasy - making cummies from inside with a limp clitty. The other day it finally happned. I lubed up the head and shaft really good and started to massage it around my pussy lips really slowly. OMG I love the feeling of the head of the cock entering me. It makes my mascera run to get to that point but once there it feels like heaven **YAY** From there I slowly pumped back and forth at different angles until suddenly I was 7" deep and biting my tongue with excitement. I vibrated my pussy pleaser while completely inside me and pumped it in and out and OMG it finally happened. Like magic, cummies started to leak out of my 100% limp clitty which I attentively gathered with the index finger of my free hand to lick off with my tongue **MMM DELISHUS** I felt so airheaded and giggly with my first inside cummies **YAY**

Well, I have lots more progress to make before I go public and get a real man's cock inside my tight little sissy pussy but I know with Goddess Gracie I am getting there.

Love to you all. Gl?tter n Gloss, Br?ttany ?hugz?

[Plaat]

A wonderful story, but what does your spouse think of this? It seems you were good enough for her, and had kids? The change is all good, but I'm curious of how much a not man, can hook up and marry.

[sissysugarlipz]

A wonderful story, but what does your spouse think of this? It seems you were good enough for her, and had kids? The change is all good, but I'm curious of how much a not man, can hook up and marry.

Dear Plaat,

Thank you for taking an interest in my story **HUGZ** I have not yet summoned the courage to share this story with my wife as I fear the sense of betrayal would be too much for our marriage to handle :(

Though I am not proud of my double identity I have always tried to work hard to ensure my wife and kids were taken care of and shielded from my fetishisms.

Like my own delayed puberty, I tend to think of my sissification as something I am only starting to fully comprehend. I am gentle at heart and easy to get along with **YAY** and so finding a person to share a life with was somewhat inevitable. Growing up I never questioned my sexual identity. I was socialized to grown into a heterosexual man and did not resist this upbringing so I suppose getting married to a woman was viewed as a natural next step.

It has only been through much self-reflection under the guidance of Goddess Gracie that I have started to more fully understand the jigsaw puzzle of my life. I feel like I am really starting to love myself and feel comfortable with myself in ways I never experienced before and that will always make me feel eternally grateful to Goddess Gracie.

I hope this helps answer your question. Love Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Such a beautifully detailed post about how your last few weeks have been sweetie.

I just knew the moment I got a PM from Brittany about how she had been listening to my BB file (which had seemingly caused her to spell very badly which I just thought was adorable) that she was a very special sissy.

I have never come across a more enthusiastic sissy than Brittany and it has been lots of fun to provide guidance and encouragement to her over the past 6 or so weeks, even if it is sometimes difficult to keep up with her.

Plaat: I fully understand your concerns and I'm sure Brittany will want to respond to you herself later but I just wanted to clarify that I speak to her via email (she contacts me several times a day and gets a little anxious if I don't reply for a while!) and I have mentioned on several occasions that her loved ones must always come before her feminization, and I have even recently had to talk her out of ideas about things like hormones and breast implants for the sake of her and her family, recommending instead that she look for realistic breast forms and natural supplements like Pueraria Mirifica which have little to no harmful side effects if used as directed.

I have been adamant that Brittany makes extra special effort with her wife and continues to give her the love and attention she deserves. If I thought her feminization was coming between her and her loved ones in any way I would be forced to stop communicating with her altogether for their sake, but I don't think that will be a problem thankfully! :)

Please be assured that I would never encourage or influence someone to do anything if I thought it was going to detract in any way from the people around them, I am about positive changes and Brittany is very clear on where I stand in that regard. She is a very impressionable and suggestible girl but I always have her best interests at heart and that goes for the people around her as well, I have nothing to gain from bringing anything but joy and inner peace to people's lives and it would weigh very heavily on my conscience to have it any other way.

Love and cuddles from Goddess Gracie xx

P.S. A couple of weeks ago, Brittany won the first ever Sissy of the Month award on my blog for the month of July! You can read all about it here: http://goddessgracielovesyou.blogspot.com.au/2012/08/goddess-gracies-sissy-of-month-july-2012.html

Dear Goddess Gracie

Thank you for the wonderful words of encouragement **HUGZ** I love you so much :)

As I think about the last 6 weeks, your guidance has actually led to strengthening bonds between my wife and I. Our sexless marriage was a white elephant that you helped me address to make my wifey feel more connected again. I also now appreciate the importance of making up for my inadequacies by doing more housework chores and being a better friend to wifey **YAY** I have never stopped loving her, never want to hurt her and so you are helping me to love her in different ways to continue to make her feel special **DOUBLE YAY**

But in the meantime you are helping me on my own journey to discover my true sissy self. To hear you say I am a true pathological sissy is so affirming it makes me cry tears of happiness and makes my whole body tingle. I know I am **NEEDY** and **HIGH MAINTENANCE** and depend on you alot for approval and esteem. I don't know if this will ever change but I am glad I have you to protect me from myself because as you say I am very impressionable and suggestible (which I don't completely understand *giggles*). I trust your good heart to help me completely and know you only want the best for me **YAY**

Love you so much, Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** shaved from head to toe this morning, even knicked myself **giggles** around the silly sac underneath my clitty. It was very small though and not discouraging in the least as I really want to get all the hair away from the hard to get to places that need to be their silky smoothest for a real man **tehe**

OMG shaving and moisturizing along with doing makeup are the most sissergizing activities I have experienced, next of course to playing hide the dildo in my pussy **tehe** which is exactly what I did after getting all silky smooth.

Of course, listening to Goddess Gracie's bimbo blessing last night helped **tehe**

**MMM** my dildo is fun but I'm increasingly recognizing its shortcomings to what a real man could offer **GULP** I tried different positions today (doggy, cowboy and missionary)and ended up on my back with my legs up in the air and it felt so **EXQUISITE** to feel that little drip of cummies leak out of my clitty **YUM**

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**Mmm** I'm in such a good mood today.

I wonder if thats because for the last 2 nights in a row I got dressed up for a quick sissy fix and danced and strutted in front of my full length mirror. Last night I did it in my white panties, 40B bra, breast forms, high heels and blonde wig. OMG I just couldn't get enough of myself in my perfectly shaved body and sexy outfit. There is a bit of a realism to the 40B breast form that I just love but I do love by 38DDs too **hehe** I guess I love them both.

Last night I didn't have time to fuck my pussy but I did get on my knees and practiced my blowjob technique **tehe** I can't deep throat and not sure I ever will be able to learn on my own without a real man's hand on the back of my head but I notice I can go a little farther every time I try **giggles**

Dancing in front of the mirror, I noticed I still have a bit of a tummy that **MUST** go bye byes. Girls but especially sissy's have to be so much more aware of how desirable they look and I'm willing to put in the effort to become a real HOTTIE. **Mmm** maybe one day Goddess Gracie will surprise us with a a diet and exercise tape **giggles** That would be SOO YUMMY **hehe**

I don't know how normal it is to be always looking at yourself in the mirror but I seem to be doing this like all the time **hehe I'm not vain** Checking out my figure from all angles. Looking for creases in clothes, for blemishes to cover up with concealer. Plucking even little hairs off my brows or nipples.

I'd love to do a better job on my eyebrows without drawing to much attention to them until my coming out party. I'm not sure if there is something other than plucking that might be done. My brows are naturally light so I don't think shaping them would be too noticeable without touching them up with some color when I want to be girly.

Love to you all, Br?ttany ?hugz?

[Plaat]

I wanted to say your though and lengthy responds were answered completely. My first thought is not to be a wet blanket but to gauge the safety of the community. You cleared up some of the nagging thoughts i have whenever I read success stories. Although I'm not a true sissy (I've listened to your files a few times Goddess) I enjoy the culture and wish to participate, perhaps even forced, since sissyness doesn't come naturally. I wish you the best, and I'll be watching carefully.

[karlikunt]

Thanks soooo much for sharing your experiences with me. I am a 46 year old who is married with four children, although all of them come from other men's sperm. I discovered I was a sissy in my mid 20s when my First Wife became so sexually frustrated with my teeny, tiny little clittie that she hatched a plan, with the help of her Black Domme Girlfriend, to feminize, sissify and transition me to being her little submissive, slutty sissy cuck hubby. Although I have been in The Lifestyle for more than 20 years, I have LOVED listening to Goddess Gracie's hypno files and I am currently listening to Gracie's Good Girl 2 every single day now....it is a fabulous way of constantly reminding myself what a sissy faggot fairy Princess Prom-Queen I really am.....and.....I am exactly like the Princess she describes, emotionally, psychologically and physically.....GREAT AUDIO SERIES !!!!

Your submissive, femme, little clitie white sissy fuck-toi,
ms. karli kunt

P.S. Check out the Gallery for the two albums of pix I recently posted showing my little clittie (under Cock category, although I don't have a cock) and my pussy album under the pussy category.

[sissysugarlipz]

I wanted to say your though and lengthy responds were answered completely. My first thought is not to be a wet blanket but to gauge the safety of the community. You cleared up some of the nagging thoughts i have whenever I read success stories. Although I'm not a true sissy (I've listened to your files a few times Goddess) I enjoy the culture and wish to participate, perhaps even forced, since sissyness doesn't come naturally. I wish you the best, and I'll be watching carefully.

**MMM** thanks Plaat. You're a sweetie for being so honest and I'll do my best to post more often so stay tuned **giggles** Btw, I love the sissy culture too and have never felt more comfortable about identifying myself as a sissy. I just love it to pieces **tehe** Hugs n kisses Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Thanks soooo much for sharing your experiences with me. I am a 46 year old who is married with four children, although all of them come from other men's sperm. I discovered I was a sissy in my mid 20s when my First Wife became so sexually frustrated with my teeny, tiny little clittie that she hatched a plan, with the help of her Black Domme Girlfriend, to feminize, sissify and transition me to being her little submissive, slutty sissy cuck hubby. Although I have been in The Lifestyle for more than 20 years, I have LOVED listening to Goddess Gracie's hypno files and I am currently listening to Gracie's Good Girl 2 every single day now....it is a fabulous way of constantly reminding myself what a sissy faggot fairy Princess Prom-Queen I really am.....and.....I am exactly like the Princess she describes, emotionally, psychologically and physically.....GREAT AUDIO SERIES !!!!

Your submissive, femme, little clitie white sissy fuck-toi,
ms. karli kunt

P.S. Check out the Gallery for the two albums of pix I recently posted showing my little clittie (under Cock category, although I don't have a cock) and my pussy album under the pussy category.

Hi Karli,

Aren't you a taste of yummy cotton candy. I have adored getting closer to you at Goddess Gracie's blog and know we're going to be BFFs. **Mmm** your pictures look **DELISHUS**

I started this week a little tired but my mood picked right up after listening to some bimbo blessing. I was feeling so good today I went out shopping and picked up an mp3 player to listen to Goddesses' files more often as well as a whole bunch of makeup and accessories for looking my girl best :)

Cuddles n hugz Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Today was a **YUMMY** delishus day. I had some chores to do and so I did them while listening to Goddess Gracie's Feminine Habits on loop. OMG after listening on loop for awhile I just wanted to get out and do some shopping.

I first stopped in jewellery shop and picked myself up some clip on dangling star earings. They are fuchsia and black to match a *yummy* outfit I love to dress in.

I then popped into a place that was having a clearance sale and picked up a could of fuchsia tops. Both fit nicely. One is a designer t-shirt and the other is a crop top. The saleslady in the store remembered me from a few weeks back and giggled when I made the purches as I think she knew they were for me.

OMG then I went to ******* and picked up a black pair of 4" pump heels and some makeup accessories (eyebrow manicuring kit; a couple of eyeliners; falsh lashes; eyeshadow). At the checkout, the lady ran in the pumps first and asked if I could walk alright in them and I found myself shaking my head yes thanks. When she saw the other items she knew I wasn't kidding and they were all for me. I knew she was judging me but I couldn't care less. I loved it.

Well after all that, a girl has to have a fashion show and so I tried it all on and pranced and danced in front of a full length mirror admiring all my purchases **giggles** Then all dressed up spent a little time manicuring my eyebrows. It all felt so girly, I just loved it.

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Hi yummy friends,

I was all set to work out today when I discovered I was going to have some time to myself so I stayed in for a little uninterrupted feminine time.

While in my panties, bra and breast forms and chewing some hubba bubba chewing gum I started listening to Goddess Gracie's feminine habits expecting to train with it for an hour or so as I have done now the past 2 days in a row.

Not even through one cycle, however, desire got the better of me as I listened to the section on keeping your pussy stimulated with a nice hard dildo and I instantly found myself in the washroom douching my pussy nice and clean. I still don't have a proper pussy douche but this method worked well and made me very excited to have a clean, silky smooth pussy to play with.

What followed was nothing short of the most **YUMMY and DELISHUS** sissy sex I have ever had **giggles**

Lubing the dildo up with jelly I teased my pussy hole with the big head, slowly finding the right angle of entry to take all 7 inches **OMG* it felt so good and after thrusting a bit I had to pull the dildo out and suck on the delishus boner that was driving me wild with desire.

Before long I had the dildo lubed up again and back inside my WANTING pussy. This cycle of thrusting, pulling out and sucking and thrusting again went on a few times, each time making my clitty feel smaller and smaller but hotter and hotter with desire **YAY**

Always in the doggy position, and alternating between standing and kneeling, and between thrusting the dildo into my pussy and thrusting my pussy on the dildo, I found myself play acting in Goddesses' Good Girl 3 and fantasizing that it was Jason inside of me. My whole body was glowing now and I could hardly hold Jason in my hand as my pussy juices were all over him and running down my pretty little pussy lips and down my legs.

Suddenly I found my sweet spot and between moans of ecstasy out came the cummies which I instantly devoured with my free hand or pulled Jason out and collected from the tip of my clitty with the head of his cock to then suck off.

In all I had 3 yummy limp clitty cummies that I won't soon forget as they made me feel more like the slutty girl I am than ever before.

Love you all. Hugz n kisses, Br?ttany

[sissysugarlipz]

Hi Everyone,

It was such a YUMMY n DELISHUS week that I just thought I'd share it with you. It all started with Goddesses' Feminine Habits file but then carried over into her newest releases for training loop 7 on panties and training loop 8 for compulsive clitty diddler. Since these new releases, I have been listening to each for about 45 minutes a day while sexercising at the gym to burn some calories n get down to a nice trim 140lbs for my 5'7" frame.

Well the YUMMY news is that training with the files opened my fluffy mind to further go down the path toward full feminization and so I went on an exhaustive search for breast forms and wigs in local shops this past week but couldn't find any so I decided to order some online so in 1-2 weeks I will be the DELISHUS new owner of some 38DD breast forms that with adhesives will allow me to go braless. I also ordered a very HOTTT risquee blonde wig and some pheromone spray to drive the real guys wild **giggles**

Yesterday, I finished off my shopping spree by getting some yummy panties to start wearing more regularly. OMG the 3 pairs I got (blue, flesh and white) fit yummy tight and have a crease up the middle that makes me look like I have a very inviting cameltoe **giggles** When I first noticed it I tingled all over and my eyes even welled up with the excitement **BLUSH** Now I can't stop looking at myself in the mirror and the more I hike the back of the panties up between my pussy cheeks the more pronounced the cameltoe **YAY**

OMG like next to a girls headlights, a cameltoe is one of the next best things for telling the world you're horny for cock and I'd love to find a colorful pair of booty shorts that could show this look off **giggles**

**MMM** maybe the cameltoe booty shorts would go well with a matching tubetop in my new 38DD breastforms **giggles** Finish it off with a knee high stiletto heeled boot and some pheromone spray and I'll attract my fist gang bang **tehe**

Well none of this would be possible without Goddess Gracie so thanx must go to her YUMMY inspiration.

Love you all ??? Br?ttany ???

[Plaat]

Hi, Britt brit! I'd though I'd let you know that contrary to what the douche company says, they actually cause inflection! It seems your pussy can clean itself! only cock or other clean object should go there. Even if is not a real pussy, like your "real" dick, I would plant doubt in anyone against using such products, the sellers are fair enough, douches.

Stay Sissy honey

[sissysugarlipz]

Hi, Britt brit! I'd though I'd let you know that contrary to what the douche company says, they actually cause inflection! It seems your pussy can clean itself! only cock or other clean object should go there. Even if is not a real pussy, like your "real" dick, I would plant doubt in anyone against using such products, the sellers are fair enough, douches.

Stay Sissy honey

**MMM** thanx Plaat. Being hygenic is my first priority so I won't rush into anything without alot more research **Giggles** that's so funny when you say the douche sellers are douches **tehe**

Forever a sissy ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** I just feel like such a little trophy wife this morning.

Started out by going to the gym to burn some cals so I look yummy, slim n trim **tehe** Of course, its not too bad to check out the guys n their bulging muscles, see what the other girls are wearing and check out the fashion pics in the latest Cosmo **giggles**

Then I came home and had a heavenly bath in scented water after which I shaved from head to toe with my delishus pink razor, including bikini area **YUM**

Next, I moisturized all over and then slipped into my medium sized flesh colored lace panties (I hope to get down to a ladies small with more gym time) that make me look like I have a cameltoe **giggles** Of course you know I had to admire that for awhile before getting dressed :)

And now hear I am gossipping about all the mindless fluffy things I did today sipping a delishus cup of coffee **tehe**

**OMG** I love the new life that was all made possible by the inspiration of Goddess Gracie!

Cuddles and hugz, Br?ttany xoxo

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** seems like everyone is having summer ending panty sales. Victoria's Secret has a Panty Party 7for26 sale meaning any 7 YUMMY panties for $26. La Senza also has all kinds of DELISHUS sales. Your entire body just sparkles when you walk into one of these stores. And **OMG** the colors are just heavenly. I was in both stores yesterday but they were VERY BUSY and I couldn't get the help I needed so will go back sometime this weekend to properly introduce myself to one of the sales women to help with some selections for myself **YAY**

**OMG** the feel of a pink satiny thong was too much to resist today and before long I found myself shaving my ever receding muff, douching my pussy, moisturizing to a sparkling glow then playing with my dildo while wearing my pink satiny thong. Started out prancing around in front of the bathroom mirror, then gave that yummy 7" dildo a wet sloppy blowjob till my pussy couldn't bare to be ignored anymore. **OMG** it felt so good pumping that pussy pleaser into me, grinding up and down on it, pulling off of it to suck on it and lube it up before getting back on it. Before long I was moaning outload to fuck my pussy and make me cum and **OMG** my wishes came true with 3 yummy limp clitty spurties which you know I gobbled up **YAY**

Love and hugz to you all, Br?ttany xoxo

[sissysugarlipz]

I ended up having a couple of hours of private time today so I did some douching and then had some pussy fun that lasted a good 30-45 minutes.

I lubed up really well this time and played doggy standing and on my knees, cowgirl and on my back with toes pointed to the ceiling. **OMG** I was riding that dildo like I was in the rodeo **giggles** and sucking on it in between methods like a cock addicted whore **tehe**

It was SOOO heavenly and the best part was ending with a little pool of warm spurties in the palm of my hand, the biggest amount in the numerous times now I've had hands-free cummies. It was so HOTTT, I was begging out loud for it knowing my dildo had hit my sweet spot. **MMM** I never enjoyed the delicious taste of warm spurties like that before either.

**OMG** I can't believe that my last 5 or so cummies have all been hands-free limp clitty spurties with a cock up my pussy. **YUM** what does that say about who I truly am?

[sissysugarlipz]

P.S. A couple of weeks ago, Brittany won the first ever Sissy of the Month award on my blog for the month of July! You can read all about it here: http://goddessgracielovesyou.blogspot.com.au/2012/08/goddess-gracies-sissy-of-month-july-2012.html

Hi Everyone,

Well it’s been a month since I was Sissy of the Month at Goddess Gracie's YUMMY blog and its seems that not a day has gone by that I didn't feel more sissy than the day before **YAY**

I feel like I have experienced changes on a deep mental, emotional and physical level and this just leaves me feeling sparkling, bubbly, warm n fuzzy all the time **giggles** The changes seem to be coming fast now, not quite like wading into the water anymore but diving right in - either you want to get wet or you don't and I WANT to **DOUBLE YAY**

I bought an mp3 player that has made it possible to listen to Goddesses' files every day and I think that has been a big part of absorbing her word DEEP in my psyche, accelerating my transformation. That is probably no more evident than in not having masturbated in a month now despite a constant urge to finger my clitty which I do all day without yucky stiffness. Since discovering my cameltoe with the use of tight fitting panties I will simply finger myself with just my index or middle finger often with legs apart and head cocked back while lightly purrring **OMG it feels so good**

Mentally, I see myself more than ever as a girl. Personal appearance is a total pre-occupation and daily rituals that I don't even think twice about include tinkling while sitting at home or out, shaving, exfoliating and moisturizing regularly, wearing panties except to bed **grrr**, manicuring my eyebrows to get that arch just right, and personal attention to toe and finger nails. My interests in fashion and make-up products and techniques have become near obsessive and I absolutely LOVE to shop now **giggles** I also love to play dress up and will take advantage of any opportunity to get all made up and dance and prance in front of a full length mirror.

Emotionally, the WANT, NEED and DESIRE to be a sissy grow daily. Pussy stimulation makes me feel safe and secure in my femininity and my desire to find a man to satisfy that need even more grows. I am constantly checking out guys wondering what it would be like to kiss their lips, put my arms around the back of their neck and rub my body against theirs, feel their strong hands on my body or feel their cock in my mouth or pussy. I feel much less solitary and competitive and so much more communal and caring. I love sharing and commisurating with girlfriends more than ever before. I cry alot more easily now and it just happens. I don't even feel the need to resist it. Being who I am is also growing in importance to me and if I ever hide my true sissy character when I know I should be declaring it I feel personally ashamed of myself.

Physically, I have been dieting and exercising every day to burn calories but not add muscle definition. So far I have lost 10 lbs **YAY** bringing me to 165 lbs overall and I have a goal of 135-140 by year end. As I look at my hairless body and tiny muff in the mirror I am ever aware that I do have perky little breasts with pink puffy nipples that I love to touch as much as my clitty and pussy. I am increasingly practicing my female mannerisms and am often looking for some on-line resources to practice these as well as to develop a female voice. The desire to be more physically female in figure and shape has recently taken a step forward with the purchase of 38DD breast forms and a very realistic blonde wig. I just received them and yesterday night was my first opportunity to wear the breast forms with adhesive tape giving me my first ever chance to experience the feeling of having female breasts **MMM** all I can say is it was delishus and very affirming of my sexual identity.

Love to you all, Br?ttany xoxo

[sissysugarlipz]

**OMG** I just listened to Goddess Gracie's new file called Eternal Sissy Happiness. I looped through it 4 times doing some yard work and hours later continue to feel like the file is still running inside me **GULP**

I am SPEECHLESS about what I think is Goddesses' greatest work to date! Funny thing is that I can't recall to much other than knowing that I have never felt like I **sparkled** more since listening to the file **YAY**

I feel different after listening to this file in a way that is too hard to describe. I only know what I feel and I feel like this file is going to push me beyond a tipping point that I have know has been nearing in reach for awhile now. A tipping point that willl see me on my knees with my mouth open or on my back with my legs spread ready to milk the man juice out of some big hunky stud's throbbing stiff cock.

I have never listened to a file that I felt resonated with me on so many different levels. I felt like every minute detail understood me on such a DEEP DEEP level. I just wanted the file to continue forever and as it turns out the **sparkling** feeling I still have means this file has a reach on me far beyond listening.

After listening to Eternal Sissy Happiness I have never felt more resolute in the knowledge that Goddess Gracie knows me like no other and feel confident that her word alone is all I need to achieve my feminization dreams.

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** what a YUMMY day so far. I woke up early with my legs slightly bent and spread and my hand on my soft clitty as if I was unconsciously readying myself to be mounted by a man **OMG** it just felt so right.

Since listening to Goddess Gracie's new file, Eternal Sissy Happiness so much, I can't believe I ever had sex with a woman before. It all seems like a distant memory and absolutely the furthest thing from my mind right now **YAY**

I had some alone time so I put on my breast forms, adhesives and all this morning **OMG** I love the feel of my breasts jiggling all by themselves. I then tried on my new strapless bra (which also can be worn with straps over the shoulders or like a halter) with my new dress as well as top n skirt **MMM** I love them so much. I never got into makeup because I didn't have time **grrr**

Next I just had to pull out my dildo n practice deep-throating. I was trying to force myself past the feeling of gagging but no luck yet **grrr** I'll keep trying but would love if anyone had any ideas **pretty please**

After playing around I had a workout at the gym and a sauna and shower *OMG** I lost another 2.5lbs so I'm slowly getting to my weight goal **YAY** Its amazing what a motivation new clothes can be for losing weight **tehe** I have this YUMMY scented cotton candy shower gel that I just adore lathering up with. It just smells heavenly **YUM**

In the changeroom, I got dressed with my "Heart Me" pink thong. Like OMG I didn't even care if some guy saw me putting it on and was kinda hoping they might to see what they'd do **giggles**

The whole time at the gym I listened to more of Eternal Sissy Happiness. Probably about 4 loops in total **OMG** I just love this file. Its pushing me past a tipping point in my sissification and I find myself wanting to listen more and more with each listen.

Well thats it for now friends. Would love to hear from you :)

Love Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Had a workout today which gave me a chance for some long over due time to listent to Goddesses' Eternal Sissy Happiness file **YAY**

After the workout I had a sauna which I love because it gives me a chance to meditate on something, anything that pops into my fluffy cotton candy mind.

Today, I meditated on my sissification and how much I have come into my true self these past few months. I don't want to say change over the past few months because I don't think that's accurate. Rather, its all the facades in my life that I have foresaken over the past few months that seems more appropriate to say as well as what I have re-claimed as something true to myself **DOUBLE YAY**

So here I am with a body I keep completely shaved, moisturized n pampered, a muff I trim nice n pretty, toe and finger nails I polish now with a clear reinforcer, eyebrows I shape into a sexy arch, extra small panties and hose I wear to keep my wee clitty even weer **giggles**, lip gloss I wear to keep my lips soft, moist and wanting all on a daily basis.

I have a clitty I love to keep soft and only do warm spurties with using a dildo up my pussy or by fingering myself. I have nothing but a platonic love of real women now and a desire or perhaps more accurately a HUNGER to taste cock that keeps growing.

I have breast forms, a wig and a sizeable women's wardrobe including at least 30 pairs of panties now. I love putting on full makeup and getting all dressed up and prancing around watching myself in a mirror.

I ask myself would a real man do any of this? Is there any other conclusion to reach other than that I am a sissy? Even my fluffy head can figure out that I must surrender to this fate to be a flaming sissy faggot if I am to be true to myself. To do anything else would just not seem right and highly inappropriate

[sissysugarlipz]

Hi Everyone, :D

I started training with the Logic of Limp (LOL) file at least twice a day and sum times more a little over two weeks ago **YAY** In the past week, I have not had the same opportunity to listen **GRRR** and so I can share a little of what it has been like on and off this **YUMMY** new file of my Goddess.

On LOL

**giggles** I don’t even know what I’m saying as its actually hard for me to separate out the on n off period with LOL as I felt and still feel it affecting me on a **DEEP** level. It’s as if every word has some special place for me and a meaning that I seem to just innately understand as appropriate to my very identity.

I feel as if the file is magnifying everything about me that is sissy to an entirely new level **YAY** as if I am wanting to stand on a mountain top and proclaim for all the world to finally know that I am a true pathological sissy.

For instance, TLC for my body to ensure I'm smooth, sparkling and completely hairless is just a **DESPERATE NEED** since LOL and I just feel **YUCKY** if I'm not smooth all over. I almost feel compelled to have a bald clitty and the trim around it keeps receding the tighter my panties, especially thongs that are just big enough to cover my clitty. I'm almost trying to think of reasons why my muff shouldn't be totally bald and this only started to become a major preoccupaton with the LOL file. If I knew there was some great hair removal device I would like so want to get it.

Since LOL, I also seem to especially just know and accept that a clitty that has failed to penetrate a woman's vagina as often as mine really has no business being anything but limp. Even my wife hasn't asked or prodded me for sex for a few months now but only since listening to LOL did I begin to appreciate why this might be: On some level I think she knows it’s more of an indignity for her to suffer the humiliation of being in bed with a limp dick husband than to just admit to being in a sexless marriage. Almost instinctively, I seem to have willingly embraced many more chores around the house as if to make up for the deceit I have perpetrated against her.

Since LOL I literally spend time on my nails every day now and it is so important to me that they look their best. When they don't sparkle, I know I’m not at my best. And **OMG** they honestly look like a French manicure with about 3mm of nail growth beyond what I used to have and was able to achieve through daily use of nail enrichment polish. Part of me wants to hide the lacquer finish and nail length I can now boast but part of me doesn’t care as its part of whom I am and what makes me happy. I now wonder if there are other things that could be used to promote even more growth. I just find it so fulfilling to have pretty finger and toe nails and yearn for the day when I go out with them painted in the hottt pink polish I now have in my makeup bag **YAY**

n **OMG** since the LOL I just have to have the double panties and hose now as I just **adore** feelings of nothingness between my legs. It is scary how long I can rub my clitty without any stiffness though I do get some periodically when doing it alone but it doesn't feel like it used to. If and when stiffness now happens I just instinctively stop, like I'm saying good bye and tata to an unwelcome visitor that has overstayed his welcome. Sometimes when I rub I stand up like I am performing in front of a crowd of guys and if I stop rubbing and dance more I sometimes feel the reverse tingle Goddess mentions in the file and then my entire body experiences a small convulsing feeling, as if my inner core is trying to break free from my body...how strange is that?

n **OMG** talk about subconscious behavior changes since LOL. I was walking down a crowded mall the other day and I suddenly noticed I was walking chest and bum out in opposite directions, wrists totally limp and taking short steps and wiggling my behind the entire time. Somehow it didn't seem to matter if anyone walking behind even noticed. It just felt like this was how it should be.

As this happened, I thought of this amazing pair of knockoff designer jeans I saw in a women's fashion store. They are a jean made of a Lycra type material and I thought how amazing it would be if I was wearing those whenever I wore jeans. I then sat down with my legs crossed to have a drink and I had to remind myself to not stare at guys bulges, wondering how big they might be if they weren’t wearing pants. I think about guys bulges all the time, how big they might be, how much cum they wood spray and how it would taste **MMM** all these thoughts just make my mouth water.

Lastly, I think I am finally beginning to find purpose in what I have suspected for some time - I am getting progressively dumber and what little self worth and dignity I seem to have left I almost completely rely upon Goddess and interaction with other sissies to provide. It arouses me and feels oddly comforting to feel humiliated and treated like someone of lesser status to a real man or woman. Unlike before LOL though, the arousal is more a feeling of **reverse tingle** which just feels heavenly and just so fulfilling I want to experience it all the time.

Off LOL

I dread weeks like the past one where I can’t find the time for conditioning. I feel like I am letting what is left of my male ego off the hook when this happens and that just makes me mad because I know I deserve better. Not that a sissy deserves much in this world but one thing I think she does deserve is to be the best sissy she can be.

The one bright spot in the time off was that I did manage to find time for some pussy fun with my dildo **YAY** After several pussy douches, I played with my dildo inside me for a good 30-45 minutes and despite the intense fun only had a few dribbles of warm spurties. Despite a little initial disappointment, I came to realize that this in itself was something I should get used to and that suddenly made me happy **YAY** That is, while pleasing real men and bringing them to orgasm must surely be a sissies greatest purpose, I should not expect reciprocal treatment from the men I service as that would not be right. Though sissygasm with a real man’s cock in my pussy would be a delishus treat it should not be expected. So later that same day I fingered myself for what seemed like hours, staying limp the whole time until I started to reverse tingle and then spurted in my panties which I then licked up **giggles**

Looking back at that exact moment I found myself saying like **OMG** who is this person because she didn't do or feel any of this 4 months ago before discovering Goddess Gracie. Yet not a day since has gone by where this little sissy hasn’t felt happier or more fulfilled and the LOL file seems to have brought this realization into sharper focus even while away from it.

Still after a week way from LOL though I notice I'm having a little more hardness than I had while on it. I know that I could partly address this with redoubling my commitment to listening to LOL and though I know I will do that I also know that is only part of the solution.

I think what all sissies really need to do to experience the permanent changes and happiness Goddess is readying us for is to commit to changing our behaviours in our real lives. For me LOL is calling out to me to expose myself to more humiliating situations to remove the last of the dignity and respect I have been misled to believe I should somehow expect from life. I know not all might agree with that but to me it just seems right to say and aspire toward.

For me, a permanent limp clitty is a symbol of my permanent emasculation but that is not possible as long as I feel entitled or feel like I deserve some measure of dignity and respect. For that to happen, the world needs to know I’m a sissy

Love to you all, Br?ttany ???

[Sevren]

Oh god...so much pink, and giggling and g words...in truth is beginning to make me doubt my own masculinity.

[debbie32]

Just adore all your posties . I feel the tapes helped me most by surrending to the fact we are useless worthless tramps that are so happy. One reason girls is that we had big egos as males and always felt threatened or had to defend it to be a man.. Nonsense. I feel threatened by no one and dont have to compete with anyone since its all small stuff to begin with. All that matters is what excites us and feel so free as an airheaded blond bimbo and know we are desired as sex objects with no explanations necessary.
Humiliation and self depreciation does work . wow wee we are freer than ever now

[sissysugarlipz]

Oh god...so much pink, and giggling and g words...in truth is beginning to make me doubt my own masculinity.

Hi Sevren,
**MMM** pink is my favorite color and I love to **giggle** too
Love Br?ttany

[sissysugarlipz]

Just adore all your posties . I feel the tapes helped me most by surrending to the fact we are useless worthless tramps that are so happy. One reason girls is that we had big egos as males and always felt threatened or had to defend it to be a man.. Nonsense. I feel threatened by no one and dont have to compete with anyone since its all small stuff to begin with. All that matters is what excites us and feel so free as an airheaded blond bimbo and know we are desired as sex objects with no explanations necessary.
Humiliation and self depreciation does work . wow wee we are freer than ever now

Hi Debbie,

I love reading your pretty posts, they are so full of yummy fluffy goodness they just make me **sparkle**

I agree with what you say about our big dumb egos getting in the way of our inner sissy. Committing to Goddesses' message of limpness helped me tame my ego and I have been **sparkling** ever since **YAY**

Just added some skinny designer jeans and 2" padded panties to my closet and sum **pink sparkle** perfume to my makeup table **giggles**

Would love to have a girls night out with you sum day

Love always Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Good girl Brittany, so wonderful to see all your progress hun :)

Looks like little Debbie has been appropriately affected by my conditioning also. Simply adorable.

Goddess Gracie xx

Thank you Goddess,

I just love the **sparkle** that surrounds me now. You have helped make me the happiest giggliest girl in the world and I love you so much :)

Love always Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** can a girl ever do enough to look her sexy n sweetest bestest for her man? Br?ttany doesn't think that is possible!

Br?ttany would never want her man to be looking down at her on her knees, mouth wrapped around his big strong erection, fingers massaging his cream-filled balls, eyes locked on his without looking her bestest.

For Br?ttany, that means a girl's lips have to **sparkle** with slutty lipstick n gloss, her fingers must be manicured and appropriately colored, and her eyes must intoxicate his with waxed brows, two shades of eyeshadow, mascara and eyeliner

Br?ttany thinks no amount of effort is enough and gorgeous sparkly dangling earrings are a must as would be a tongue ring **giggles**

**MMM** Br?ttany has everything but the tongue ring to play her part **giggles** and has even dreamt of her man capturing her technique on a webcam to show the world over what a cock-obsessed pretty little faggot she truly is **giggles**

**MMM** Br?ttany wonders how she is going to feel after listening to Goddeses' new file - Man Obsession

Love n cuddles, Hot n Horny L?ttle Br?ttany ???

[debbie32]

OMG Brittany you really have the whole thing down. You give me chills up the spine girl like the way you describe the expereince. I can't wait to see what evolves now. Please keep your fans posted of you progress as cock sucking slut with a pink foggy brain. Your big sister is watching over you now.

[sissysugarlipz]

OMG Brittany you really have the whole thing down. You give me chills up the spine girl like the way you describe the expereince. I can't wait to see what evolves now. Please keep your fans posted of you progress as cock sucking slut with a pink foggy brain. Your big sister is watching over you now.

**MMM** yes Debbie, Br?ttany loves to be a good girl and luvs to keep her pussy all clean, supple n sweet for the big strong hard-bodied macho man she desires.

Br?ttany constantly shaves her pussy and clitty area at least once a week with a mirror to get at all the hard spots and generous lather to avoid knicking her delicate skin **YAY** Afterward, Br?ttany then moisturizes the entire area and lubricates her pussy hole too as a good girl should always be prepared **giggles**

But still there are other things Br?ttany could be doing like bleaching her pussy and applying a light pink lipstick to her pussy lips **giggles** Sometimes Br?ttany dreams of having a special spa day where she has this done **YAY**

Br?ttany knows her pussy isn't as tight as it was before her pussy tried its first dildo but its still tight enough so that her first man will know she is a virgin **giggles** Br?ttany still doesn't have pussy plugs for daily wear and sometimes she feels like she could **sparkle** even more if she took this extra step.

Br?ttany treats her pussy now like a temple and pretty soon Br?ttany will have her **pink sparkle** perfume to adorn that temple with a scent as **heavenly** and **fluffy** as she feels **YAY**

Love n cuddles, L?ttle Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Brittany is such a good girl :)

I think we need a little update from our favorite sissy sweetie.
I'm sure you're just dying to spill all the fluffies on the events of the last couple of weeks.

Goddess Gracie xx

**MMM** I'm sorry I wasn't more attentive Goddess but **OMG** the last few weeks have caused me to **sparkle n glitter** brighter than ever before and its all because of your **YUMMY** idea for all your followers to play Diddle-Free December **YAY** So for all who don't know, I haven't diddled my clitty for 2 weeks now, only being allowed by Goddess to have internal sissygasms through a cock or dildo in my pussy. The experience has led to a few changes for me that feel relatively permanent and which I'd love to share with everyone **YAY**

My Clitty:

To mark the beginning of Diddle-Free December I shaved my pussy so its completely bald now **YAY** OMG it never looked so good n the only thing that wood make it look better is a real man's mouth rapped around all of its limpness as I suck on his big thick cock **giggles** Not having used my clitty for 2 weeks now, I have come to appreciate how really limp n useless it is and I actually feel like it is no longer a source of sexual desire or arousal for me but rather something more like a pretty decoration to keep tiny, cute n smooth for the sissygasms that were meant to dribble out of it. Even tinkling sitting down doesn't require me to touch it which I try not to do. My favorite activity with my clitty now is to keep it hairless, smooth, moisturized n tucked away in extra tight panties and hose for any big hunky man that might want to play with it. I almost want to decorate it with a pink bow **giggles** I feel like I am in mental chastity now and ready to vow to not touch my clitty without permission so that the **sparkle** I now feel can last foreover. With this realization about my clitty, I feel like the source of my arousal has now shifted to my lips, breasts and pussy because they feel like they are on fire.

My Breasts:

My breasts feel very different now - fuller, erect and very sensitive to the touch. I think about and touch them all the time now, obsess more n more about them getting bigger and even call them my puppies **giggles** I discovered this **YUMMY** website for breast care (http://mustgrowbust.com/) that I'd recommend to any of you interested in growing your breasts. Here you'll learn how diet, exercise, massage techniques, pills n creams, breast pumps can help your puppies get bigger n cuter **YAY** I'm massaging my puppies daily now and will see if this increases me a cup size in a month's time like the website says. Meanwhile I've also been looking into a pueraria mirifica breast enhancement sytem that is right for me (capsules and cream) as well as a breast pump to stimulate estrogren production (http://www.noogleberry.com/shop/breast-enlargement-systems-info/large-contoured-breast-system/noogleberry-large-contoured-breast-system/prod_119.html). I feel like the PM solution and pump is so right for me right now and I hope you will agree **giggles**

**OMG** I almost forgot in all the excitement that I also have to find a bra for daily wear too **giggles** I'm a 38DD in my breast forms n probably a 38A without them, though will have a bra fitting to make sure. I know your bra size can change and as I have been dieting and losing weight to get down to my 135lb goal I am sure my bra size will also change. I'm looking for a few flesh colored bras for everyday use because my puppies just feel naked, alone and unfeminine without a bra **YAY** I hope that doesn't sound too silly to say **tee hee**

My Lips:

**OMG** suddenly I have started to obsess over my lips. I mean I have been wearing gloss daily for sometime now but now when I look at them I feel like they lack the volume and shine that could really make them stand out the way they were meant to. Like **OMG** so I found this lip plumper that I was thinking of getting (https://www.lipplumpingshop.com/photos-videos/lip-plumping-video) to help make my lips make the statement they were meant to make to all men. That is, "your big throbbing cock will never feel better than between my lips"" **giggles**

My Pussy:

**MMM** my pussy twitches now all the time for the next best thing to a cock - my dildo. I stil haven't had private time to sissygasm in December but believe more than ever that internal sissygasms are all I want or need. I hope the chance to play with my pussy happens soon because its feeling lonely without something long, hard n stiff inside of it **tee hee** Today in the private shower at the gym I started massaging my pussy with my finger and it just felt so good I almost forgot where I was **giggles**

**OMG** I almost forgot to mention that I finally got my padded panties to show off my pussy through my new ymi skinny designer jeans with decorated glittery pockets. I went shopping in the jeans n padded panties the other night and can't tell you what they do for my self-esteem. I feel like a whole new woman and am becoming more n more confident about going out in public fully dressed as a sissy slut. Last time I was out shopping I picked up a size 3 pair of skinny black pants with glittery stripes down each leg, 5" fuchsia pump with a satin finish n a matching sleeveless fuchsia top with black trim. If I get out to a club, I was thinking I would wear this outfit with my padded panties, 38DD breast forms, makeup n wig. I love showing off my pussy with a wiggle in my padded panties n jeans and want to get out again shortly to look for a pink blouse n bra to wear for such excursions.

Body n Exercise:

I am trying to stay fit and burn some cals every day to get down to a more natural feeling 135lbs for my tiny 5'7" frame. So to help me, I am following the Victoria Secret sexy workout videos for butt, waist, leg and arm shaping (https://www.facebook.com/VSX/app_146816928779495). This VSX website also lists some sexy music to load into your mp3 player that I have also done but I mostly prefer to listen to Goddesses' files when working out as I still feel like I have so much more to learn from Goddess. I'm currently listening to Man Obsession n **OMG** its heavenly

I try to tell myself to get to the gym everyday as I feel as though this is what a good girl should do to look her best for her man. I am getting better but wish I had more strenght to stick with my fitness and weight loss regimen because its what I really want.

Next Steps:

I know I have always had low self-esteem and I am beginning to wonder if that is because I never appreciated how beautiful a tiny, decorated clitty was or because I have always felt self-conscious about not having more luscious lips or plump puppies to jiggle n show off, or that I never got to experience internal sissygasms like I do now?

Diddle-free December seems to be changing this perception of myself and though I know I still think alot like a bimbo and don't make the bestest decisions on my own, a growing part of me is obsessing about making a permanent change toward a diddle free lifestyle and if Goddess was to think I was ready for something like that as well as other things on my wish list then I think I might sissygasm on the spot **giggles**

Every day I feel my **sparkle** more n more n **OMG** I almost forgot that I now have my **pink sparkle** perfume from Kylie Minogue to wear on a daily basis to feel extra feminine.

**MMM** so there it is friends, I'd love to hear any of your **YUMMY** thoughts

Love you all like crazy, Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** I have never felt more **sparkly n bubbly** in my life and my whole body just tingles with this abundant feminine energy that just radiates through every part of me **YAY**

These feelings are leading me to just want more and so I took the plunge and just finished ordering a 6 month supply of BreastActives capsules and cream to grow my titties n a luscious lips plumper n gloss to increase my lip volume double what it is now **DOUBLE YAY**

I was also going to get a breast pump but they require 1-4 hours daily wear which is impractical right now. Plus the BreastActives come with an exercise/massage routine which seems to make the pump less necessary

**OMG** I also want a hair remover and am debating between a laser from tria and a thermal heat based unit called the nono which stands for no hair no pain **giggles** I can't make up my mind though so if any of you have suggestions I'd love to hear from you :)

**MMM** I decided on all this last night when after 2 weeks I finally had the chance to play hide the silicone salami in my pussy. That 7" of delite felt so **fabulishus** inside of me and within minutes I was dribbling sissygasm which I took as the clearest sign yet of my femininity **YAY**

I hope it does not sound unreasonable for me to vow to only touch my clitty to tinkle, to always keep it hairless, smooth, sweet smelling n moisturized, and to only let it be touched by real men? Also, to vow to only satisfy my sexual needs through arousal of my pussy through sissygasms?

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[debbie32]

so proud of you Brittany my BFF. Do keep me posted on the herbal breast enhancement cream that you are using. I too want to develop a chest to be proud of and show off giggles.

Doing my massages and exercises too for that full butt we need. I want so much to have bigger hips so willing to try anything dear.

On nice days here I have been jogging in the early mornings in tights shorts and sports bra with my sporty girlie cap all studded in rhinestones. I dont mind the ocasional looksey from the other runners lol.

So I am feeling so divine and feminine these days as you seem to be and sparkling in public.

Even my b/f has gotten use to me as debbie now and seems to be calling more frequently hippie.

Yes thanks to Goddess Gracie I am enjoying more things that I missed out on as a gay cd and drag queen hehe.

[sissysugarlipz]

so proud of you Brittany my BFF. Do keep me posted on the herbal breast enhancement cream that you are using. I too want to develop a chest to be proud of and show off giggles.

Doing my massages and exercises too for that full butt we need. I want so much to have bigger hips so willing to try anything dear.

On nice days here I have been jogging in the early mornings in tights shorts and sports bra with my sporty girlie cap all studded in rhinestones. I dont mind the ocasional looksey from the other runners lol.

So I am feeling so divine and feminine these days as you seem to be and sparkling in public.

Even my b/f has gotten use to me as debbie now and seems to be calling more frequently hippie.

Yes thanks to Goddess Gracie I am enjoying more things that I missed out on as a gay cd and drag queen hehe.

**YAY** for Debbie. I'm just so happy for how its all coming together for you girl

**OMG** I love my booty shorts for exercizing in but you've taken it to an entirely different level with the sports bra and rhinestone studded cap. I can just feel your sexiness through every word you write :)

I should have my BreastActive supplements and cream by mid January and plan to start right away **OMG** girl I also had the most amazing conversation with customer support at noggleberry.com and decided to get their breast pump and figure if I can find an hour a day to devote to the pump I'll be showing some cleavage pretty soon **giggles** You use them with cocoa butter body butter which feels n smells **heavenly**

But girl the biggest **sparkle** came for me several days ago where I had my first major sissygasm. I say major because it was not like the dribbles I can routinely get doing myself doggie with my 7" of silicone salami. Here is how it happened.

**giggles** I had some private time and almost instinctively was overcome with desire and immediately stripped down into my birthday suit with my dildo. Within minutes I was sissygasming spurties into my cupped hand but then I got interrupted and had to stop not completely satisfied. For the next hour, I couldn't stop thinking about filling my pussy back up and when I got the chance I tried something completely different **YAY**

**MMM** specifically I road my dildo cowgirl style on a partially deflated exercise ball. I let out enough air in the ball so when I straddled it it felt like being over a man's hips. **OMG** Debbie the dildo was fully inside me (all 7") and I rode it back n forth, side 2 side, up n down with my back arched and hands around my ankles so it was the most life like experience I have ever had to getting a cock in my pussy.

Before long I had the largest n most intense sissygasm of my life, with more warm spurties than I think even with a stiff clitty. I caught the spurties just in time with my cupped hand and they almost overflowed onto the ground and I drank them all as there was so much, licking every finger to get every last **YUMMY** drop from my hand **giggles**

Afterwards, I felt a little different. Not in the sense of having lost femine energy as I did not but more like I had just lost my virginity due to the deep level of penetration and realism of how I did it. I suddently felt like a woman who just felt the pleasure of a real man's cock for the first time and could only think about wanting it again **giggles**

It felt so good to have something long, thick and hard so deep inside of me to gyrate on and to make me sissygasm so completel with a truly inverted wee wee. I feel maybe like I just got sealed by the truest female act possible and maybe a little like I have actually left my male body for good and there is no return?

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[debbie32]

OMG Brittany I am so proud of you girl. The experience of a real sissygasm like you had is something few men will ever know. Yes not like the rush a man gets and after ejaculating followed by exhaustion but rather a long awaited sense of internal pleasure that stays with you and allows you to orgasm multiple times. Sounds like my sister has been faggotized into the long awaited queer slut she is. Soon the thought of a womens pussy will seem so icky and unfulfilling like its only for straight tops which is in the past for you princess . Dont we know that aftermath feeling now after a proper fucking giggles.
I so wish I could be there when you have your first real cock which will be like child birth. I know how exciting and fulfilling it will be for you. Hugs Hugs and so proud of my BFF

[debbie32]

OMG had a wonderful holiday and did some traveling which was unexpected. Back now with energy to start the new year and all recharged. Anxious to chat with all you. This may be the year Brittany loses her virginity and Debbie finds herself in a serious relationship. Keep you all posted. Hugs from this silly giggley bimbo now

[sissysugarlipz]

OMG Brittany I am so proud of you girl. The experience of a real sissygasm like you had is something few men will ever know. Yes not like the rush a man gets and after ejaculating followed by exhaustion but rather a long awaited sense of internal pleasure that stays with you and allows you to orgasm multiple times. Sounds like my sister has been faggotized into the long awaited queer slut she is. Soon the thought of a womens pussy will seem so icky and unfulfilling like its only for straight tops which is in the past for you princess . Dont we know that aftermath feeling now after a proper fucking giggles.
I so wish I could be there when you have your first real cock which will be like child birth. I know how exciting and fulfilling it will be for you. Hugs Hugs and so proud of my BFF

**OMG** Debbie you are so right about the feeling of a **deep** sissygasm. It is just so fulfilling and afterward I feel like I'm floating on a pink fluffy cloud with a **glitter and sparkle** that words alone just don't seem enough to describe.

**MMM** thank you for the **YUMMY** complimint about my faggoty self **giggles** I can't believe it took me so long to understand this about my true self. Though I am not 100% limp, I am in the presence of any real woman where I actually feel a **reverse tingle** I watched porn obsessively my entire life but rarely if at all since discovering Goddess Gracie and if I do I like totally fantasize about being the girl.

Love you so much girl, Br?ttany x0x0

[sissysugarlipz]

Brittany and Debbie are just adorable, aren't they? :)

Brittany is currently away for the holidays with no internet access, hence not hearing from her silly little self for a little while.

I'm sure she's having lots of fun and will return with a more feminine mindset than ever before!

Love from Goddess Gracie xx

**OMG** Goddess holidays were so much fun and combined with the **sparkle** carried over from Diddle-Free-December so much has already happened in 2013 **YAY**

I gave a little update in your **YUMMY** new thread

I beg for the chance to one day do a post to your thread where I describe so much more of the changes in me since I discovered you last summer because your teachings have allowed me to discover my true self and I have never **sparkled** and felt more fulfilled than I do today

Love you so much Br?ttany xoxo

[sissysugarlipz]

OMG had a wonderful holiday and did some traveling which was unexpected. Back now with energy to start the new year and all recharged. Anxious to chat with all you. This may be the year Brittany loses her virginity and Debbie finds herself in a serious relationship. Keep you all posted. Hugs from this silly giggley bimbo now

**giggles** welcome back Debbie **YAY** You sound positively **sparkling** and I love your wishes for this coming year. Something tells me you're well on your way to that relationship girl **DOUBLE YAY**

I am so in love with all the changes I am going through right now and every day brings a new **YUMMY** surprise. I just love what I have discovered about myself through Goddess Gracie and think it would be so heavenly if your wish for me came true **YAY**

I miss you so much. Love Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**MMM** I have finally had enough dedicated training with Man Obession to feel comfortable posting a commint on it.

Among other times listening, I recently went to sleep for three nights in a row listening to it and I'm not even sure what kind of effect that would have on my subconscious absorption of the lessons in this file

What I do know for sure though is that I am a lot more jealous of real girls and compare myself alot more to them now. For some time now I have been spending more and more time on my personal appearance each and every day and the amount of time I spend is only growing and I figures its 2-3 hours a day now. I love this me time and don't let a day go by without it.

Seeing girls walking hand-n-hand with guys, kissing or being together just wants me want the same **so badly** Everywhere I turn I see couples and it leaves me **tingling** 24/7. Its a good thing I have my dildo but its not a substitute for a real man's touch and big throbbing cock in my mouth or pussy and I think more n more that its time to lose my virginity

I love the scenario in this file because I can empathisize with every word said from feeling the incontrollable need to go out looking for cock, to all the attention to detail in looking my femme faggoty best, to experiencing the condesending or potential intolerant judgement of others for how I look, to finding that one man (and his friends) to sacrifice my virginity to because he makes me feel so special I just want to do anything to make him happy **YAY**

I find myself wanting to experience this scenario more n more each day and that probably accounts for why I have now added a bra (on top of all else) to my daily wardrobe, why I am now on a Pueraria Mirifica breast enlargement program, why I am wearing girls designer clothes (jeans, belts) in public more n more n can't stop shopping, why I exercise in tights now (booty shorts and spandex tank top) and why I can't get enough of the feel of a sissygasm.

**MMM** I'm still waiting for my lip plumper and can hardly wait to walk the malls with lips with twice the volume they now have **OMG** the thought of plump glossed lips makes me **reverse tingle** n **sparkle** in ways I never imagined

Thank you Goddess Gracie for yet another **YUMMY n DELISHUS** file

Love always, Br?ttany

[PowerHoden]

What I wonder the mos about you is how is your surrounding taking your chances.

Does your family/friends know? What about yuor work? Do you go dressed in public? etc

[sissysugarlipz]

What I wonder the mos about you is how is your surrounding taking your chances.

Does your family/friends know? What about yuor work? Do you go dressed in public? etc

Thank you for your **YUMMY** questions **giggles**

I have not come out yet to family, friends or at work and things like wearing panties and a bra are easy enough to conceal. I have been asked and made fun of for my hairless body and nails with clear polish **giggles** but I just say I prefer it this way. I love being teased about having a french manicure by girls who notice my nail length **giggles**

When I go out in public it has been in padded panties, skinny girls jeans and my pink belt but in selective locations where its less likely to bump into someone I know. I have been looking for a pink blouse to add to this collection so there is little doubt about my sissy nature to those who see me. The desire in me to do more keeps growing and I want to go out fully dressed in breast forms and wig to a night club soon **YAY** and have areal man buy me a drink **giggles**

I hope with more conditioning from Goddess Gracie that I build up the confidence to be more honest with family and friends this year

Well I hope I answered you okay? Feel free to ask all you want :)

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Good girl for posting those lovely updates Brittany.

Remember hun, this thread is for your updates.
The general thread I recently posted is for other sissies who don't already have their own threads for this purpose.

I'll check back here in a couple of weeks to see how you've progressed sweetie.

:)

Love and hugs from Goddess Gracie xx

Yes Goddess Gracie I will confine myself to my own thread as you instruct as you always know best and good girls are always obedient

**MMM** good news my lip plumper finally arrived and I did my first routine today **OMG** it felt heavenly. The first week of plumping is to condition your lips, the the second week is more intense and then after that its as often as you want **OMG** it just made me feel so heavenly to plump today **giggles**

I will keep the thread updated in the event you grace this thread with another visit.

Love always ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

**OMG** just 2 days in but I love my lip plumper and have to remind myself not to overuse it. I plumped my lips this morning and then put on the special deep penetrating lip infusion cream they give called Ultra Lip Desire which makes your lips tingle and glisten **YAY** Then I exercised for an hour in my booty shorts, spandex tank top and bare feet. As I was working my bum n chest I couldn't help thinking how some colorful leg warmers would look so **DELISHUS** with this outfit

Have a **YUMMY** and **SPARKLING** day everyone

Love Br?ttany xoxo

[sissysugarlipz]

So happy to hear that you got your first manicure sweetie :)
I bet your nails just **sparkle** more than ever now.
I know manicures will become a regular thing for you from now on hun.
Some leisure time at a nice day spa is what you deserve one day soon for being such a good girl!
Love from Goddess Gracie xx

Dear Goddess Gracie,

**OMG** you know what I am thinking before I can even say it **giggles** Yes, the manicure was heavenly and totally made me **sparkle** the whole day and then sum.

The manicurist used a clear polish which I have been maintaining ever since. Next time I go, I'll have my fashion belt and hopefully a bright pink blouse and maybe the manicurist would ask if I'd like a pink polish **giggles** I think I would totally say yes **teehee**

When I went, the ladies at the spa offered to combine my manicure with a pedicure which I thought might be a **YUMMY** treat to myself in the future when I have been an especially good girl.

**OMG** Goddess thank you for suggesting a day spa for being such a good girl lately **HUGZ** Truth be told, I feel like I'm not doing too much special, just what any other girl that wants to look her best for her man would be willing to do. My head is **fizzing** so much right now with what I might do at a day spa that I feel like a pink soda with whipped cream and a cherry on top **giggles**

My body is starting to show signs of change now from everything I have been doing and I hope it doesn't sound greedy or selfish to say but I just want more and more. I can hardly wait to try a push up bra when I have more titty to work with and then show some cleavage off with an appropriate top **YAY**

Since lip plumping, I haven't gone a day without ultra lip gloss on and I can't imagine being without it ever again. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm too much of a bimbo slut to want big juicy lips that scream to be wrapped around a big thick cock **giggles**

I can't one day wait to go for a manicure showing off some cleavage in a tight pink top, plumped lips with pink lipstick, and anything else you might think would be appropriate **giggles** If I did all that I can't imagine not wanting to go out and finding a real man to buy me a pink cosmo **giggles**

Love you and miss you so much Br?ttany xoxo

p.s., Outside some of the dedicated time I mentioned before about listening to Man Obsession I have not been listening to your files regularly in 2013 but your teachings have never felt more deeply apart of my psyche. I live for your vision of what a sissy should think, feel and act yet still feel like I have so much progress to make. Should I take this as a sign that maybe I should make a more concerted effort with your files?

[sissysugarlipz]

**OMG** I just love where I am right now.

Today I woke up and put on a wash and dry of clothes. While I was waiting I thought I'd have some me time so I had a nice warm bath and shaved and moisturized my entire body.

Then I touched up my nails with some clear polish to keep them **sparkling**

After that I rubbed my puaria mirifica cream into my breasts admiring the little signs of growth since starting with the cream and capsules 2 weeks ago.

Then I plumped my lips and put on some extra ultra lip gloss which just made my lips sting a little but also glitter **OMG** I love the shine on my lips from this gloss and when I see them **sparkle** now I can't help but imagine the most beautiful man and woman walking hand n hand on a beach and kissing passionately as the sun sets and it sends me into ultra sissy mode **giggles** OMG I know it sounds like I've been reading romance novels **teehee**

**OMG** by this time I was so horny I decided to douche my pussy and then play with my silicone salami **giggles** As I was playing I couln't help think how right and amazing it felt to have this 7" of pure joy in my pussy and then I started to sissygasm, spurting three times into the open palm of my hand which I then licked off feverishly with my tongue **giggles**

I then tidied up, put on my panties, hose and bra and am ready for the day **YAY**

I just feel so **sparkling** right now though I think I might play hookey from work for a bit and find that pink blouse I have been looking for **YAY**

Love you all so much, Br?ttany ???

[debbie32]

Not sure if I can post on this private site now but just have to say yay for my BFF Brittany. I can understand all you are going through and like you sis I have stayed with my breast creams and massages but see very little change thus far. Told it takes time.
I am so into makeup on and wearing it every chance I can when at home or at the tclubs or with my b/fs and things are just so good right now and sparkling like a true sissy should. This is better than being a man or a woman but something really special that some men just adore over. I know I need to live as debbie full time which is hopeful.
We may be sissy faggots but the important operative word is sissy and not faggot. Must say I enjoy men more now than ever and even having been gay my whole life. Well congrats all and especially you too Brittany and will be posting our thoughts

[sissysugarlipz]

Not sure if I can post on this private site now but just have to say yay for my BFF Brittany. I can understand all you are going through and like you sis I have stayed with my breast creams and massages but see very little change thus far. Told it takes time.
I am so into makeup on and wearing it every chance I can when at home or at the tclubs or with my b/fs and things are just so good right now and sparkling like a true sissy should. This is better than being a man or a woman but something really special that some men just adore over. I know I need to live as debbie full time which is hopeful.
We may be sissy faggots but the important operative word is sissy and not faggot. Must say I enjoy men more now than ever and even having been gay my whole life. Well congrats all and especially you too Brittany and will be posting our thoughts

Hi Debbie, so **YUMMY** to hear from you **giggles**

I have been on the Breast Actives capsules and cream now for 2 weeks but like you say it will take some time. My literature says you can expect full results by 6 months with 2 growth periods in that time period, the first after 1-2 months and the next around 4 months. I bought a 6 month supply **giggles** The results are permanent but maintenance doses for a couple weeks every 3 months are recommended. Apparently the program can help you grow from one-half to two cup sizes **YAY** I hope I'm on the higher end of that estimate **giggles** so I can develop my own cleavage to show off with a push-up bra **YAY** I hope that doesn't make me sound like too much of a slut **giggles**

I am doing something a little bit different by adding in the noogleberry breast pump on top of the Breast Actives. I try to devote half an hour a day to the pump but its not always possible. I use cocoa body butter **OMG it smells so good** to create a seal between the breast cylinders and my chest and then using the pump create an air tight seal in the cylinder causing my breasts to inflate **giggles** The process draws blood to my titties, stimulating estrogen production **YAY** The cylinders are about 6-7" tall and when inflated my titties take up a little less than half the cylinder right now and more as you use the pump more regularly **OMG** I just love using the pump it just makes me **sparkle**

I am so happy for all your success Debbie **YAY** You sound like you are in love **HUGZ** I am so happy for you and when you feel that way its understandable why you would **sparkle** and want to look your best always. Like you, I am **SOOO** happy where I am right now and I owe it all to Goddess Gracie whose advice and counsel I now follow without hesitation. I truly believe with all my heart that she knows bestest and she is a caring and genuince person so I trust what she says completely. My life has never felt like it had more purpose than it does now **YAY**

I don't mind being called sissy, faggot, femme, bimbo, slut or any other word a superior man or woman would feel compelled calling me. I think a sissy is be definition neither real man nor woman and therefore incomplete and inadequate in comparison to either sex. Though real men or woman would see these terms as derrogatory, I see them as endearing and a validation about who I am. It makes me feel good about myself and motivates me to be more accepting of my true nature as a sissy.

For instance, when I look at my hairless clitty now I can't think of it any other way even though any other real man or woman would likely find it pathetically amusing. Similarly, I can't think of my pussy any other way other than stuffed with a big stiff cock frothing with pre-cum which leads me to douche my pussy regularly and ensure it always sparkles. A similar feeling now consumes my lips as I plump them and apply gloss so they will look their best when wrapped around a big thick juicy cock **giggles**

Well girlfriend, I love you so much and am so happy you're living your dream **YAY**

Love ??? Br?ttany ???

[sissysugarlipz]

Hi Everyone,

**giggles** I'm in such a **sparkling** mood today I just couldn't resist the temptation to say **shello** to all the **YUMMY** readers of this thread **UMM** so **shello** everyone :)

I am so excited to begin stage two of my lip plumping tomorrow **OMG** I now start to plump twice a day and for twice as long than in stage one and as this stage unfolds my lips will become noticeably larger. I can't wait to apply the gloss to my big sexy lips **giggles**

As I was exercising today, I suddenly noticed that I have been unconsciously doing several stretching exercises for the past few weeks that are increasing my flexibility to ride a man cowgirl while arching backward or to position my mouth and throat to deep throat a big delishus cock. When it dawned on me I was doing this, I felt this **tingle** through my entire body and a reverse tingle in my **little wee wee** Next time I play with my silicone salami I think I will attempt to try and deep throat it so wish me luck **giggles**

**MMM** I have also discovered how important good posture is to a confident look as well as to show off your titties and flatten your tummy as much as possible. It is suddenly so important to me and it just makes me **sparkle** whether standing, sitting or walking with my back straight, chest out and tummy tucked in **YAY**

**OMG** I want a man so bad its all I think about, from slow dancing with my arms round the back of his neck, body pressed against his as he gropes my bum and grinds me into his growing erection, opening my mouth to taste his tongue and lips with a long slow passionate kiss, dropping to my knees to unbuckle his belt, pull down his pants and reveal his manhood, licking every devine inch of his big stiff cock and cum filled balls, letting him face and pussy fuck me to his hearts content and then begging for my reward to be sprayed wherever he pleases. I feel so ready to go to a club dressed like the girl to find a man. I wonder if you think I'm ready? I'd love to hear what you think **giggles**

Love ??? Br?ttany ???