by janus_lead » March 10th, 2014, 6:54 pm
Hello everyone. I'm... I wouldn't say that I'm underage, but yes I'm underage. Don't worry, I'm not some curious 13 year old. I'm bisexual, leaning more to the gay side, otherwise I wouldn't be here. Having a difficult childhood with lots of family conflicts had some effects on me. I'm not a emotional person, I suppose that's why the few files I've listened to had no effects on me. Personally I find the notion of "Straight-to-Gay" laughable. For one, it is impossible to change the structure of one's brain, one's sexual orientation is determined, if I'm not mistaken, before birth and/or at childhood, when the child's reproductive organ releases hormones to the brain. In some cases (most of the cases of the people on this forum), either the brain failed to absorb enough hormones, or the reproductive organ failed to produce enough (or produced too much). In which case, the brain receives reduce testosterone and/or increased estrogen (in the case of a gay male), causing uneven brain development in regions co-responding to sexual interest. It is, however, possible to implant suggestions, of which I suspect, would be temporary if they aren't periodically reinforced.
At 13, I thought I was gay. Why? I read a book, my mum (who doesn't read nor write nor speak English) bought be a book titled "The Ruines". Those who read that book probably know that there is a masturbation scene in there. Me being a curious 13 year old (see? CURIOUS) tried it out and found myself fantasizing of one of my tuition mates (a guy, obviously). But at 16, I wandered across lesbian porn, hey! HEY! I'm not sure about Americans okay? But we Asian kids do that kinda stuff, you know, watch porn. Buuuuuutt... Anyway, back to my story. ANYWAY, I wander upon lesbian porn, and I liked it! So I mentally noted to myself that I'm bi. ... Let that sink in a bit. Yes. So, is all about discovery, some people discover their gay side (and in some cases, straight side) waaayyy past their youth, like in their late 50s. I can't give you researches to prove my point, I've got my studies to worry about. So yeah, raise the mizzenmast, jib the topsails, I'll leave you folks to chew on that.