Chubicure wrote:
Hi Everyone,
I want to start by saying, WOW. And then uh oh. So I'm married and have been without sex for about 18 months. My wife just doesn't have a big drive so I've been spending some time online using stories and femdom to find my fantasies. Those with men who are forced-bi or somehow find themselves tricked or forced gay really got me hot for a while. But I've never been really attracted to anything other than the cock. I've played with toys and everything, but never been able to be attracted to men. Always felt uncomfortable around gay couples, watching them together, kissing, making out, even gay porn. Always had the effect of shutting me down. What I liked was being submissive and considering the change.
But here's the thing. My search for another fantasy led me to Curse Forced Gay. I haven't tried any other hypnosis ever. And I didn't read this forum first. So two nights ago, ...
The idea of a permanent change has always excited me, but as I said, never really looked at men. Not in the shower, not at work, not on the street. Not attracted to them. LOVE to look at women. But here's the thing. I heard the file once. Two nights ago. And I've had some very interesting things happen since.
I don't want anyone else to get hurt. That certainly isn't the idea, so I totally get where you are coming from. I just wanted to take the j/o material to the next level...
I've listened to the file ONCE. Just ONCE. I was just chasing the next edge of that fantasy and it read just like tons of other files that threaten scary results but don't come true. But this... I'm so turned on and want to listen again now. But
I appreciate all of the support I've seen on this thread reading through it. You guys are amazing for each other. Is this the real me coming through and being released by this file? Or is this just the file and it is really that good?
Uh, yes. Welcome.
You really should have read the thread -- and the warnings -- first. Yeah, yeah, yeah ... too late now. You're as susceptible to hypnosis as I am. And that's going some. One listen was enough to instill a nice ten-year obsession with being a jock. Considering how deep you went -- yes, that's extremely deep -- it might be too late now.
I suggest that you and your wife -- or you alone if your wife won't go -- see a marriage counselor. If nothing else, this will help you decide if you want to stay in this relationship. If yo go alone, you can talk about you gay feelings and decide if you want to act on them.
I suspect that you may have had gay or bi feelings. Nothing works that fast unless there's something there to work with.
Permanent changes are the hallmark of Curse files. You picked an intriguing file to listen to for your first file. Yes, these changes are permanent. At lest, you should treat these changes as permanent until you have proof that they aren't. There's less mental anguish that way.
I'm wondering ... did you have the player on repeat when you listened? If you did, you may have listened to
Curse Forced Gay more than once. If this is a reaction to a first listen to the file, you probably are a much better subject than I am!
Well, you certainly got an entirely new universe of jerk-off material, including all the male-male slash fanfiction ... including the Winchesters (Supernatural), K/S (Star Trek), etc, etc, etc ... and an entire side of xtube (and similar sites) to investigate that you hadn't paid too much attention to.
I'm sure each of us can recommend a website or two filled with all sorts of gay material. Gay musclemen/jock erotica can be found at www.pridesites.com/omelissokomos/ with some people from WMM contributing stories,
callmecrazy and
magus among them. Smoking erotica can be found at www.smokinmen.com.
I second Santi's invitation, Chibicure; if you want to keep contributing to this forum here, you are more than welcome.
If you're interested in becoming femme, you could try ViVe's
Feminine Conditioning at http://www.vivehypnosis.de/?p=698. I'm sorry. That wasn't too helpful, was it?
As for your question of "Is this the real me or is it the file?" It could be the real you; it could be the file; it could be some combination of both ... or neither. There's no way of knowing ... now. But from reading this thread (and others like it) ... yes, the file is that good.
sherardp wrote:
I was informed I should listen to the deprogram all, but I for some reason dont want too. I have kept myself from listening to again, which I am recently starting to notice girls again. But at the same time something keeps making me want to listen to this file again.
The Borg ended their standard message of assimilation with
"Resistance is futile." Resistance is extremely difficult, but is not necessarily futile. One or two did escape becoming totally gay; he/they became bi instead.