gayblake wrote:NorthPole wrote:What a ride CFG is.
I have been reading this thread and listening to CFG for a while but only have posted one update, in December. I went through a period of not listening at all after I posted but have gotten into it in a big way since last week. Each time I come back to it I find it having more of an effect. So this time, when I started listening, I cut out any suggestions related to being humiliated about not being attracted to women as I don't really want that if this time actually does the job of taking away my attraction to women for good. I feel like I am getting really close to that point. I already feel like I want to date men over women but I still feel attraction to women, although i can feel it diminishing.
Since I started back up with CFG I have been purposely watching porn with women in it to track how my attraction to women is changing. The hottest thing about women in porn for me now is how little they turn me on compared to the men.
I am so close to being an official turnee.
What a nice story! I love hearing how other turnees test out the effects of CFG. I was listening to CFG tonight and I had some similar revelations. For the last little while I've been convinced that I have always been gay, but I have attractions to women every so often so I'm not sure anymore if I was gay before or if GFG has just taken it's hold. But, I'm pretty sure I've always been gay, and CFG is helping me bring my gayness to the surface.
One thing I realized is it is probably diminishing my attraction to females, but I'm not 100% sure. Before I went into CFG hard last time I hired an escort, very good looking girl. I tried to fuck her to prove I was still at least bi, but I got soft really quickly in and she lost interest. I ended up jerking my flaccid cock until it came as she watched, wondering why I couldn't get hard for her I imagine. Anyway we hugged and I went home embarrassed about the whole thing, and dove back into CFG. I'm not sure I ever had a real attraction though, cause that is the only time I ever had sex with a girl, so I'm not sure if it was just CFG from before or if I never had it in me.
So I've decided to give it another go for a month long challenge, and try to go all the way. I obviously like men, so I think it is only reinforcing my real desires. I'm hoping it works and after the month I'll have only gay desires. Here's hoping all you turnees have a good ride too!
I get what you mean about thinking that maybe you have always been gay. I'm going through some of that now. I have thought I was at least bi because my first sexual fantasies were about a male classmate and I also fantasized about women, I haven't been with either a man or woman. Lately though, I have been wondering if maybe my thinking of women was just a result of the guilt I felt from masturbating while thinking of men. It's all so confusing.
I thought of doing something similar to you too. In February I went to Amsterdam for a week with my brother. I thought about visiting a prostitute while there but I didn't really get time to myself or the nerves to follow through.