Surprise, surprise, yet another guileless rube succumbed to CFG. I'd lurked around here for a bit, started small, and worked my way up to Curse Cum, which actually somewhat worked. My goal was to condition myself to the taste of my cum so I wouldn't be so grossed out by the thought of it and would be able to enthusiastically go down on my girlfriend after sex for those times when I got off before she did. Mission accomplished: I listened to the file a few times, successfully tasted it a few times, and then walked away from it with no lasting effects.
Then I saw CFG and my interest was piqued. "Huh...I wonder what would happen", I thought to myself. Since Curse Cum's effect was so temporary, I figured CFG's would be as well. I'd definitely had some gay fantasies before and wondered what it would be like, but had always identified as straight, had only had sexual activities with girls, and had never had a gay experience of any kind (though I'd imagined them a few times). But I'd fantasized about eating my cum while horny as well, felt compelled to do so after listening to the file, then lost the compulsion pretty quickly when I'd accomplished what I set out to do. So I downloaded it.
After the first listen, it had already taken affect. I found myself thinking about - and getting aroused by - men's cocks. Not men, just their cocks. And me sucking them off. I was intrigued, almost in a detached, scientific way. It was a novel feeling, and I went with it. I still managed to have sex with my girlfriend the next day, but I went completely soft during a routine position change, and when I finally got hard again, I couldn't cum to save my life. I tried to fight through it at first, but gave in and imagined myself sucking a big, shiny cock in order to finish.
It was then that the negative feelings began to sink in: I just thought about blowing a dude in order to get off while my girlfriend furiously rode me cowgirl-style. I didn't want that. The next day, I sat down at the computer and looked through WMM to find some workout motivation files (my exercise habits could use some help). Instead I listened to CFG again. I knew it was a bad idea, but I felt such a compulsion to do it that I almost did it automatically. After that second listen, the cock-sucking fantasies were even stronger and more vivid and happening constantly while I was trying to go about my life, and were joined by images of me getting fucked in the ass and loving it.
I was so horny, so I tried to watch some porn: sexy young college girls doing all sorts of cool stuff to each other and themselves. Nada. I switched over to a leaked video of a current pop starlet/former child starlet sucking the cock of a pop star. I'd successfully rubbed one out to her dancing in her music videos in the past, and now here she was sucking a dick and fingering herself and I wasn't getting the slightest reaction out of it. I was feeling so pent up though, that I sighed, cued up a video of a ripped young stud jacking his thick, veiny cock and was able to relieve my tension. This didn't feel right. This wasn't me.
I put together a playlist of the deepest, most relaxing induction I'd ever encountered, YSH - Remasulinization 1 & 2 by yourhypnotist, and TrainSexWomen Binaural with my own ocean surf/alpha->theta binaural layered behind it, took the laptop & earphones up to bed, and gave that playlist a listen last night. The induction took me so deep I have no recollection of anything until my eyes suddenly opened and I saw that the files had stopped playing. I was afraid I'd fallen asleep and not gotten anything out of the files, but the clock revealed that my eyes had opened an hour after I'd hit play, and it's a 1:04:16 playlist, which hopefully means I was trancing THAT deep.
Today, I felt confident that the playlist had worked a bit. I intentionally pulled up a cock-sucking fantasy in my mind, but it didn't instantly make me hard, and even required a bit of effort to keep the fantasy from spontaneously vanishing in my head. Unfortunately I was having the same problem with sexy-young-sorority-girls-riding-me fantasies. I got home from work and gave the playlist another listen.
Once again, I blacked out during the induction and regained consciousness exactly an hour later with no recollection of hearing the files. I chilled out for a bit, then decided to listen to JackDrago's Stroke Manly. I didn't really fall into a trance per se, but I did get very focused on his words and the sensations, and time seemed to fly. So maybe it was a very light trance. Nevertheless, after the file I was horny as hell, but all that stroking and edging had left me a touch desensitized so orgasm was going to take some work, both physically and mentally. I decided this would be a great way to test my progress: I cued up the leaked celebrity sex tape from two days ago, and was pleased to find that it successfully got my motor running.
I'm going to continue to listen to my re-straight-ifying playlist daily for the next few days, which I think might be enough to undo the effects of my brief, highly-successful dalliance with CFG.
YSH - Remasculinization 1:
https://www.warpmymind.com/index.php?ga ... le_id=6776YSH - Remasculinization 2 (isochromic version):
https://www.warpmymind.com/index.php?ga ... le_id=8289TrainSexWomen:
https://www.warpmymind.com/index.php?ga ... file_id=11I used the induction from Shore of Relaxation by MN_FriendlyGuy:
https://www.warpmymind.com/index.php?ga ... le_id=6504It's a truly spectacular file on its own too; I highly recommend it for anyone looking to just relax and destress for a bit, and also for anyone who's had trouble hitting/holding that trance state and wants to give their mind a chance to feel it & embrace it. It never fails to effortlessly zonk me out, even if I'm in the foulest, least receptive of moods.
One tip re. the Remasculinization files: they're kinda loud compared to Shore of Relaxation and TrainSexWomen, and jolted me out of trance when I tried listening to them last night, so I turned the volume down and had to start over. I'd advise either using your audio player's volume normalizing feature, or loading them up in Audacity and lowering the gain for each file (I like -19db for Remasculinization 1 and -16db for Remasculinization 2).