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outkast1728 wrote:@stryper, i'd be happy to be your support if you ever need someone to talk to about all the new feelings and stuff going though your mind and body..... think of me as your "coming out buddy"
stryper wrote:outkast1728 wrote:@stryper, i'd be happy to be your support if you ever need someone to talk to about all the new feelings and stuff going though your mind and body..... think of me as your "coming out buddy"
"coming out buddy"??? I like the sound of that! Sure, that works.
davidrb wrote:stryper wrote:outkast1728 wrote:@stryper, i'd be happy to be your support if you ever need someone to talk to about all the new feelings and stuff going though your mind and body..... think of me as your "coming out buddy"
"coming out buddy"??? I like the sound of that! Sure, that works.
@stryper and @outkast1728, Keep us all in the loop. Your adventure/transformation is one of the reasons I come back to this forum often too see what you, and others, are experiencing. Wishing you all the success
dickdodger69 wrote:After reading through this thread that is a common thought we all had. None of us thought this file would work on us. I’m sure I speak for everyone in saying happy it worked on you as well.
steve_nope wrote:I've been listening to the shattered heterosexuality starter files fairly regularly over the past couple weeks and there's some attraction to men from them, I still have my attraction to women. I'm also getting scared of continuing on with listening to them.
stryper wrote:steve_nope wrote:I've been listening to the shattered heterosexuality starter files fairly regularly over the past couple weeks and there's some attraction to men from them, I still have my attraction to women. I'm also getting scared of continuing on with listening to them.
What is the fear? Once you turn - it's great and you really don;t look back ...
steve_nope wrote:Honestly turning gay really wouldn't affect a whole lot about my life, I'm single and not married. I guess I'm just afraid of the change.
Dave564 wrote:Steve, I’m sitting here in bed with my boyfriend reading your post and we both agree there’s nothing to be scared of - the changes (if they happen) will be slow and you’ll have plenty of time to think about them.
The reality is most of us enjoy the changes when they start happening and you’ll want to continue - you won’t feel about them the way you do now because currently your thinking them from a mostly straight perspective x
smooth9 wrote:Dave564 wrote:Steve, I’m sitting here in bed with my boyfriend reading your post and we both agree there’s nothing to be scared of - the changes (if they happen) will be slow and you’ll have plenty of time to think about them.
The reality is most of us enjoy the changes when they start happening and you’ll want to continue - you won’t feel about them the way you do now because currently your thinking them from a mostly straight perspective x
As someone who is still changing and evolving - I have to say this is true. When sexual thoughts of men begin to dominate your mind - it is ... intoxicating. I think for most folks in here, these thoughts have been below the surface and when you lift the lid....it's great. But, honestly now when I feel horny, I look at pics of men, I have phone sex with men, etc and I truly enjoy it. The shame, etc. begins to fade away pretty quickly actually as you are drawn back to men over and over, reinforcing the hypnosis. It's true faces are the last to fall and they have begun to work on me. In the last couple of weeks, I've seen a couple of men's faces that I was instantly attracted to. I still have periodic interest in women...it kind of comes and goes. But loving men isn't something to be afraid of - with the exception of if you are married, which I've seen some post. I'm in that boat too - if I weren't married, I know I'd already be dating men. That's the biggest challenge. It's really hard to go through this on your own.
Bellman4642 wrote: I recently found a local hypnotist and did four sessions with him. I asked just to work on being comfortable as a gay man. The first two were great. Then the third one he made me crave cum and had to suck one cock a day. I did not know it at the time just thought I was horney and more comfortable with things. The fourth one he made me into a dirty slut. I am hooking up with anyone on CL. I hook up with 2 guys a day or more. I let them do anything they want to me. I meet up with truckers or on cars. In public. I cannot control it. If I try to not hook up and I do try I get ill and sick to my stomach. The only way I found out was going into session five and asking the hypnotist to work on slowing down my desires. He then told me what he did and will not change me for thirty days. Said he thinks I will not want to change. I'm in my third week and he might be right. I've had more sex in the past two weeks than I had in the last 5 years. I had my first gang bang yesterday and today was the best I've felt in years.
Bellman4642 wrote: I contacted the hypnotist and told him he was right. I wanted this life I wanted cocks constantly. He told me he purposely did this not to be deviant but to make sure I knew what I was getting into. We met last Tuesday and Wednesday and worked on my acceptance and coming out. He also reinforced my cravings for cocks by my request. I also bumped my listening to CFG to 3 to 4 times a day. Friday was a big day as I came out. Told my wife and was kicked out of the house. Figured that would happen and already had a hotel room reserved.
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I still have sex with strangers twice a day at least. Been the subject of gang bangs. This is who I am.
Bellman4642 wrote: About a week ago I woke up in the middle of the night having a panic attack about all the changes in my life. I decided there and then i was no longer gay. I could not believe what I did. I thought I was having a heart attack or something. It was about 2 am when this was going on. Told myself I made a huge mistake with this decision and it wasn't to late to fix. For the next four hours I deleted every account I had relating to a gay lifestyle.
Bellman4642 wrote:The latest from me
First of all thanks to all that care enough to give me advise and help. After my panic issue I explained to my hypnotist what happened and that I thought I wanted to stop with the sessions for a while. It was explained to me that this was my subconcious losing my dominate/alpha side. He said that the hypnosis to make me more submissive were in fact working and working well.
I have become a submissive gay man. I am so unbelievably happy about this.
kcrunner wrote:2nd cock sucking experience.
Had My 2nd cock sucking experiences Saturday night. The guy said it was one of the best he has ever had. I was shocked. He had been partnered for 30 years. This was a new thing for me.
I was definitely flattered by his comment. Perhaps it was the wine I had been drinking or the edible I had consumed. But I really got into it. I’ll have to find another guy to see if I can do it as well the next time.
I do think that the two MP3s that I downloaded on this site of listen to perhaps 50 times have really dropped my inhibitions. I definitely feel more comfortable and had a great time.
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