Breaking Curse ForcedGay
Posted: July 6th, 2007, 8:13 pm
I have had a very interesting experience with Forced Gay.
It is likely to be one of the most powerful files on the site. Most seem to stay at the low, soothing, introductory monotone but this thing brings to down into trance then hits you with both barrels.
I am a (still) heterosexual male with a transformation fetish. I’ve been lurking around here for some time, either to scared or to lazy to really try most of the files. I’ve always wanted to be a girl, even cross dressed a little around early puberty ( looked good in a dress at that time), but frankly I feel I have enough social/emotional problems without inducing true gender dysphoria on myself.
Enter sissyboyoxford’s success story. An achievable, real life transformation. To be honest it was enough to turned me on.
You must understand I love women with all my heart and genitals, but I’m really shy and chivalrous. Intelligent girls are awesome though they also tend to be damn picky. I can’t stand unintelligent girls for very long but nor can I stand the idea of becoming a fuck’um and leave um sort of prick.
So a couple nights ago, on July forth, I was feeling particularly sexually frustrated and self-destructive. I figured that if I “switched teams” so to speak, things would be easier. Men are as a rule, horny. While it might take days, weeks, MONTHS to get a girl in bed surly getting into a gay mans pants would be a synch.
So help me god by time the file was winding to a conclusion I wanted to grab my hard on and run into the night looking for one to suck. One of the only things that stopped me was the fact that I hadn’t been commanded to move yet.
Then something really strange happened.
The file works by installing a powerful primary fixation on male genitalia. With that as the foundation it continues with secondary commands to love all that is associated with the organ and shun traits that are not.
My hetero nature made a tooth and nail resurgence of itself. I started looking through my porn and came to the Futanari transformation (normal girl to dickgirl) section. In the face of this the secondary directive to stop liking women was counteracted completely. Seeing those images reminded me of just how much I LOVE the female form and how desperately I’d hate to lose that.
So while the file was successful, I refuse to continue on with it.
I currently have zero attraction to men, but I’ve been left with a couple side effects. I’ve become more aware of my own penis. When an erotic thought or beautiful set of curves walking by causes it to tingle I end up with a full blown erection because having an erection itself has become a strange sort of turn on.
Also I have an addict like desirer to listen to the file again. My mind keeps scrambling to find a justification that’ll get me to do it, but I know it’s just programming and I hope it will fade in time.
It is likely to be one of the most powerful files on the site. Most seem to stay at the low, soothing, introductory monotone but this thing brings to down into trance then hits you with both barrels.
I am a (still) heterosexual male with a transformation fetish. I’ve been lurking around here for some time, either to scared or to lazy to really try most of the files. I’ve always wanted to be a girl, even cross dressed a little around early puberty ( looked good in a dress at that time), but frankly I feel I have enough social/emotional problems without inducing true gender dysphoria on myself.
Enter sissyboyoxford’s success story. An achievable, real life transformation. To be honest it was enough to turned me on.
You must understand I love women with all my heart and genitals, but I’m really shy and chivalrous. Intelligent girls are awesome though they also tend to be damn picky. I can’t stand unintelligent girls for very long but nor can I stand the idea of becoming a fuck’um and leave um sort of prick.
So a couple nights ago, on July forth, I was feeling particularly sexually frustrated and self-destructive. I figured that if I “switched teams” so to speak, things would be easier. Men are as a rule, horny. While it might take days, weeks, MONTHS to get a girl in bed surly getting into a gay mans pants would be a synch.
So help me god by time the file was winding to a conclusion I wanted to grab my hard on and run into the night looking for one to suck. One of the only things that stopped me was the fact that I hadn’t been commanded to move yet.
Then something really strange happened.
The file works by installing a powerful primary fixation on male genitalia. With that as the foundation it continues with secondary commands to love all that is associated with the organ and shun traits that are not.
My hetero nature made a tooth and nail resurgence of itself. I started looking through my porn and came to the Futanari transformation (normal girl to dickgirl) section. In the face of this the secondary directive to stop liking women was counteracted completely. Seeing those images reminded me of just how much I LOVE the female form and how desperately I’d hate to lose that.
So while the file was successful, I refuse to continue on with it.
I currently have zero attraction to men, but I’ve been left with a couple side effects. I’ve become more aware of my own penis. When an erotic thought or beautiful set of curves walking by causes it to tingle I end up with a full blown erection because having an erection itself has become a strange sort of turn on.
Also I have an addict like desirer to listen to the file again. My mind keeps scrambling to find a justification that’ll get me to do it, but I know it’s just programming and I hope it will fade in time.