a succses that I never belived would happen
Posted: July 27th, 2005, 8:00 pm
I pasted this story from a journal entry I made a few days ago
I never thought it would work. I saw it as a kind of kinky joke to play on my self and as a test of my self-control. Let me tell you I was wrong. I picked the one thing that I thought no hypnotism could ever do to me even if I really did become hypnotized. Train Bladder Incontinence. I knew for it to work at all I had to really try to achieve a trance. So I listened and concentrated and really obeyed the commands. I relaxed I concentrated. I listened intently and I was surprised that I did actually feel like I was in a trance. I couldn’t move. It felt like a dream when you cant move your limbs. I couldn’t stop the ideas being feed to me from the file from running through my mind. I found that I was driven to keep listening to the tape over and over 3 or 4 times a day. Understand that I am not one of those adult baby types and I didn’t really want to be incontinent, I just want to see if it would work. I felt that if it did feel like it was working I could just cut it off and regain control and that would be that. But as I said, I was wrong. Its been at least two moths now. I still listen several times a day. I tried the deprogram file but my mind rejected it and I cant bring myself to listen to it or to stop listening to train bladder incontinence. I am now almost completely incontinent. For a while at first when the urges came on I could fight them and sometimes win, though I’d often lose and when I did it wasn’t just a dribble. Either I’d win control or, if I lost, then my bladder would empty completely. I had to begin wearing adult diapers to save myself embarrassment in public. Over the weeks, I began to lose control more and more often. Now, I don’t even feel the urges coming, I just suddenly realize that I am emptying my bladder, regardless of the situation I am in. though its terribly embarrassing one of the effects of the file is that whenever it happens I get a rush good feelings surge through me. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but for now I don’t see any way out of this predicament I have trapped my self in. Just like it says to do in the file I have begun to accept it. Im begining to belive that its permenent!
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I never thought it would work. I saw it as a kind of kinky joke to play on my self and as a test of my self-control. Let me tell you I was wrong. I picked the one thing that I thought no hypnotism could ever do to me even if I really did become hypnotized. Train Bladder Incontinence. I knew for it to work at all I had to really try to achieve a trance. So I listened and concentrated and really obeyed the commands. I relaxed I concentrated. I listened intently and I was surprised that I did actually feel like I was in a trance. I couldn’t move. It felt like a dream when you cant move your limbs. I couldn’t stop the ideas being feed to me from the file from running through my mind. I found that I was driven to keep listening to the tape over and over 3 or 4 times a day. Understand that I am not one of those adult baby types and I didn’t really want to be incontinent, I just want to see if it would work. I felt that if it did feel like it was working I could just cut it off and regain control and that would be that. But as I said, I was wrong. Its been at least two moths now. I still listen several times a day. I tried the deprogram file but my mind rejected it and I cant bring myself to listen to it or to stop listening to train bladder incontinence. I am now almost completely incontinent. For a while at first when the urges came on I could fight them and sometimes win, though I’d often lose and when I did it wasn’t just a dribble. Either I’d win control or, if I lost, then my bladder would empty completely. I had to begin wearing adult diapers to save myself embarrassment in public. Over the weeks, I began to lose control more and more often. Now, I don’t even feel the urges coming, I just suddenly realize that I am emptying my bladder, regardless of the situation I am in. though its terribly embarrassing one of the effects of the file is that whenever it happens I get a rush good feelings surge through me. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but for now I don’t see any way out of this predicament I have trapped my self in. Just like it says to do in the file I have begun to accept it. Im begining to belive that its permenent!
:oops: