Hi
The files I"ve been listening to lately have been working really really well but now i kinda want them to stop working so well. It's hard because. It feels like when i was getting into the files to begin with, how I felt like I was letting go of such a curcial part of myself. Now that i feel like i've really found myself i have to let go of it again? I feel like a jock, and i feel like i've always been, like it's part of my nature. It's become distracting mostly because i've been so fucking horny all the time and i haven't gone around to do much besides do sports and lift weights. I'm worried about the impact it'll have on my job and it still isn't something im willing to let go of. I'm jacking off and looking for partners a lot more than ever now and to be quite honest i like it. Ive never been this happy with who i am when i feel like I'm a jock. I feel more dominant, more confident, everything that i wanted to be when i first listened to the files.
Now it's hard to have to let go of this side of myself. Because now I don't want it to. I want to stay a jock. I want to jack off all the time and have all the fucking sex i want. I wanna be jacked and at some point i contemplated on just leaving my job and be a personal trainer but i don't wanna do that. it feels so good to be a jock but it's not right at this point in my life, and it's quite harmful because i'm really leaning towards going full jock and just accepting it hahaha
What advice can you give a bro out?