Hey there,
When I listen to sessions I now reach what I would call deep relaxation fairly easy. My body feels in a way disconnected from my mind and I dont even know where my limbs are. I also have a sometimes a bit strange feeling in my head (some sort of pressure from inside of my forehead). Sometimes this feeling also changes to a VERY pleasent feeling. I cant really describe it, maybe when this pleasent feeling got much stronger it would be almost like an orgasm inside my head. And when the hypnotist says "you go deeper" I have a feeling like my mind floats down in a way.
I am sure the suggestions to some extent do work. Especially suggestions that influence my emotions, for example like "You love to be hypnotized, you want to be hypnotized" or "my voice makes you feel good". I didnt plan on getting such relatively strong emotions about hypnosis, but those suggestions really have worked. I now love to be hypnotized and just thinking about it gives me a small rush and very positive emotions. Until recently I thought, Ok, I get very pleasent feelings from this, but for the most part I pretend. Well, one time I woke up during a part of a session I regularly listen to. It was the part of the session which contained the post-hypnotic suggestions, and I was quite astonished to hear what was being said there. I had TOTALLY forgotten everything that was said in that part. Now, it occured to me that one certain behaviour of me was a direct consequence of one of those suggestions, and that I had forgotten this fact. Now, THAT BLEW MY MIND. Finally I knew that I dont only pretend and that this really does work.
But nevertheless I am still not really content with the depth of my "trances" (I find that to be a bit of a misleading term). Here some of my "problems":
1. It's not like the words of the hypnotist become my thoughts, there are still many thoughts of my own. Also my mind tends to not entirely focus on the hypnotists words or voice, it drifts to something else. Now you maybe say, oh thats normal. But the problem is: When there is for example a suggestion in the session that I should eg put my hand somewhere, this only seems to happen when my mind is totally focused on the voice. When I am in this "drift mode" nothing happens. Any idea why that is so? Am I pretending? Does that maybe mean I am in no "trance"?
2. How can I get this pressure feeling in my forehead to be replaced by the more pleasent feeling I described? Its not pain, but I'd like to replace it with something more pleasent.
3. Above all I have problems with visualization. Sometimes I see (sort of) clear images, but mostly only for a few seconds. When I see them I get very amazed, and I guess that amazement makes the images disappear again. What can I do to see more realistic images and to keep focused on them and not get so amazed that I finally see something that they disappear? And what should I do: Try to intentionally create the images told by the hypnotist or just wait until they pop up by themselves (which has never happened to me i think)?
4. What is the difference between deep relaxation and real trance? I guess I reach some sort of trance, but it still feels like its not very deep and not much more than a deep relaxation. Don't get me wrong, I really like what happens to me when I listen, but I would also like to reach a deeper state of trance.
Any answer that could help me will be very much appreciated. And dont be harsh on me, I know that I all in all know relatively little about hypnosis, so maybe those questions are not that intelligent.
(sorry for my long winded language. I am no native speaker and dont know how to express this in a more concise way)