EDIT:I want to clarify that this is not related to any specific files, but rather to the way my mind responds to inductions in general.
So I've been listening to several induction files, nothing fancy, just simple files aimed at having you experience trance.
I have tried quite a lot of the usually recommended files like:
-Sarnoga's Road Home and Adderall Boys
-Blink's Basic Induction
-Lutz's Bubble Induction
-Cardigan's Gradual Induction and Deep Trance
-Dldrip's dldrip009
-Haxsaw's Attaining Entrancement
-Poptart634's Deep trance
-Henkk Thok's Ultimate induction
-Ocntrl BasicInduction 003 and total relaxation
Among others , however these are the ones getting better results
(If what I'm getting can be called results though)
(No EMG's files, I know it sounds weird but its a voice I just cant focus into, it gets on my nerves)
I have tried them several times each, I get very relaxed and overall i feel sucked into the hypnotist's voice.
Now , the problem is that as soon as I am suggested anything,
(be it as obvious as asking you to stare and then asking you to notice how tired and heavy your eyelids feel)
I get very nervous and it ruins my relaxation.
I suddenly become aware,
(given I usually get kind of zoned out and most of the time I am not aware nor I care about my surroundings).
I get full of expectation:
"Will it work?"
"Will I really feel more relaxed as the count goes?"
And of course given the excitement, my heart rate going crazy,the sudden awareness... It didn't work.At all.
"DAMMIT I screwed up" I think.
Then doubt assaults me:
"Should I keep listening?"
"How is this part going to work given it was supposed to be heard while tranced?"
To me it feels like if there was some kind of bullshit detector that awakes me in a rush because it doesn't believe the suggestions are going to work.
For example, any kind of
"Notice how your (X limb) is getting relaxed, relaxed and heavy ...
(some time later)
notice how hard is to move it right now"
Not even a slight resistance, not mental nor physical.
Then I get discouraged, because it WAS supposed to work, and now it didn't I'm ultra resistant to the rest of the file, as if it was some kind of negative reinforcement that it wont work.
It sounds as if I was trying to prove myself it doest work, but consciously it's quite the opposite.
I don't know what to do and how to approach it.
Am I really hopeless?
This whole thing makes the idea of not being able to be hypnotised to linger in the back of my thought.I try to resist, and not to judge or analyse things I hear,however its taking over.
Given I that don't know and don't have anyway to know if I am making any progress towards trance, every fail, every try , is a disappointment and as I said, seems to increase my resistance to future uses of the same induction.
Any tips on the right approach to follow for a newbie who has never been hypnotised before?
How does a hypnotic trance feel like?
How can I know if I am making any progress at all?
My mind is very... dunno systematic so It kind of craves evidence of progress.
(Though I know there are everyday life's trances when you seem to put the autopilot on, and it happens quite a lot to me too.
PD:Excuse my poor English writing.
When listening it's not an issue, since im a lot better at listening than at writing.
And no, I don't need to be consciously translating everything I'm hearing,It has been automatic for quite some time now.