I can hardly take it any more... I've grown an addiction to hypnosis, and I'm sick of it. Not an addiction in the sense of a curse, or being forced by a file... but an addiction of trying... trying to get a file to work.
It's been months now, since mid last year, I have been trying, and trying, and trying to get a file to work. And I haven't seen any result. It's not from any lack of effort or belief, no... I've been listening to files daily, often multiple times a day. NO effects, ever, not once.
I've tried different inductions, I've tried different files; I've tried the same damn file over and over again, even if I'm sick of it, just to see if I could get a result. I've tried the accelerator; I've tried listening while I sleep; I've tried chat hypnosis; I've tried triggers, curses, training... Nothing works!
I spent a couple hundred dollars so I could get quality recording equipment so I could make my own files ;I tried making my own files, I tried listening to other files... I would be meticulous to make sure that there were no errors or issues in my file that would bother me...
I seem to be able to trance, but that's just about it... I just kind of lay there, just listening to the file, my whole body feeling... different...
Long sessions, short sessions, multi-file sessions, sleep sessions, file-repeat sessions.
I. CAN'T. GET. ANY. THING. TO. WORK.
You'd think that after damn near a year of trying I would have something; a smidge... the tiniest excuse of a reason to continue... but there's nothing.
I'm sorry, normally I'm very patient, very controlled. But I just lost it a few minutes ago, when I tried, I really tried, but I didn't get anything. And now I'm afraid, because I don't have any drive to continue anymore, but I don't know how to continue if I stop.
Why doesn't anything like this work for me?