Psyche pain

[Rachoi]

i'm trying hypnosis again, but for whatever reason my head always spikes with pain any time i start relaxing and letting the voice in the file take control, its painful enough to snap me back to full control of myself and leave me with a constant throbbing... anyone have a solution to this? or is it possible i cant be hypnotized?

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[Rachoi]

hrm.... the pain isnt in my eyes... the pain spike is normally signifigant enough to last a full day

i think there mightbe a part of me that is resisting, for the simple fact of how i was raised, but i dont think i can break that withougt effectivly nevefr waking back up...that jsut makes me even more worried, i do like holding control of myself when i'm awake.

as for the eye rolling, i wouldnt fully know, i've only tried it alone, and i've tranced with my music, but its probably not the same

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[Rachoi]

i was raised with the idea of 'if you arent in control, who is?' sort of mind set, and to be assertive about my own choice of life.... i'nd i have

the reason i worry about losing control for good is.. well.. my mind has never been that solid or restricted in thought, and the part that worries me most is that someone would get a hold of me and never let me go, even if inside i would rather escape some how

and as far as people i trust that much to let me go when done.. i do not even have a single name on that list.. keeps making it seem more and more imposing

couple that with desires i dont even need impressed into me... yeah, i worry

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[Rachoi]

not a hint what so ever, last time i tried hypnosis was with a friend and for some reason i shouted at her to stop.... might have been the pain talking that time

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[Rachoi]

i'll give your idea a shot... i think i need to find some scripts then, still getting used to the idea of it working and making me all the more nervous... i bet this will work.. cause my music an trance me out easily enough...

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