Hi there
Like most actors, I hate auditions, but they're an essential part of getting work. I'd like to put together a script to tackle some of the issues I face each time I have to audition for a particular job.
The most common problems I face in an audition are to do with self-consciouness. I'm rarely self-conscious on stage, during a live performance, but somehow at 10am, in some featureless room in front of a potential employer, all sense of the moment disappears, and as a consequence my performance feels forced and wooden. (Literally, in the middle of one audition, while I was doing a speech, the thought went through my head "God, I'm boring *myself*!")
I hate to feel that I'm being assessed, and knowing that (after all) that's what the auditioner is doing during my speech makes me nervous and self-consious. What I want to be able to do is to enjoy living the character for the 2 mins or so of the speech, to feel what he feels, to open myself to his vulnerability, to know (as an actor) that what I am doing is good acting. Coming from the English tradition of acting, I'm not interested (as might be many Method-trained American actors) in actually believing that I *AM* the character, but I want to know what he knows, feel what he feels, as if giving life and form to some otherwise powerless entity. Good acting feels (to me) like a shared intimacy with a character, and of course it's hard to be intimate with someone if you're conscious of someone assessing you. (You might wonder how its possible to do that in front of a 2000-member audience, but that rarely seems to be a problem - something to do with the kick I get from *performing*, which has in turn something to do with ... not sure of the right word... overcoming, seducing, getting the upper hand, subjugating the audience: "Sit quietly and watch something good... great, even!")
The other problem is a more general one - nerves getting in the way of remembering the words to a speech or song, especially if it's not long since I've learned it. Perhaps a general instruction to relax might help - although there's always the fear that if I loose concentration for a moment then the wheels might fall off!
So, as a complete newbie, can anyone suggest any suggestions/commands/triggers that I might be able to assemble into a useful script for audition preparation? Any help you can offer would be much appreciated - I'll get you tickets for when I'm performing on Broadway!