(skip to the bottom if you dont want to read about me rambling about my hypnotic experiences)
Hahaha I seems to always pop up once every few months. I really like the idea of being hypnotised. Being controlled in a safeway to experience new things and create changes.
But I always find myself drift away after a few weeks. I feel its because I never go deep enough into trance. Often times when the hypnotist is talking about the outside world fading away and the feeling of floating it instead of helping me drift off into trance makes me suddenly become more aware of my body, where moments ago I may have been to distracted to think about it.
But thats just one of my issues, generally I feel even the deepest I have gone has been just beneath the surface. I want to go deeper, I want to be consumed by the hypnotism, completely under the control. when I hear a command I want to be able to fully obey it.
at the moment most of my actions done under hypnotism are very conscious actions, if they they say "you feel your hand raise in the air" after a moment of feeling nothing I slowly raise it myself just to prevent myself from disturbing the whole event. because I feel like if my hand didnt raise the whole thing would be cheapened in my mind. (this is just one example but it gives you an idea about how I feel during most hypnotic commands)
but I know what the hand thing feels like when it works. Ive had it happen once and Ive never gotten it to work again but it felt like when you have had your arms pressed against a door way and then you stepped out and they floated up.
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anyways I digress, those are my symptoms, im problem overly analytical. I was just wondering if there were any really good files to train you to go deeper. What would the best ones be