Diana_Ronni wrote
Why? Is it only black or white issue?
Any way to know before going all the way?
Nothing is ever a totally black-or-white issue. Many things are shades of gray, which frustrates some people.
There are many paths from point A to point B. Some are shorter, some are easier (less obstacles), some are more convenient, some lead through Point C or D or E, each of them offering other choices that may seem more attractive than the original goal of Point B. Do you have the same goals now as you did when yous started high school? I don't.
Life is more like Robert Frost's
The Road Not Taken than a well-traveled Interstate.
The Road Not Taken
~~ Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
After all,
the road to hell is paved with good intentions ... though that is never mentioned in the Bible. The saying is thought to have originated with Saint Bernard of Clairvaux who wrote (c. 1150),"L'enfer est plein de bonnes volontés ou désirs" (hell is full of good wishes or desires)." [Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_road_to_hell_is_paved_with_good_intentions
If you keep your eyes and mind open, you will see branching roads that lead to other goals that are more attractive to you (now) than your original goal ... or may promise to get you to your original goal more easily.
I've always found that the road less traveled has more interesting people and knowledge. (I started this with one "road" quote; I will conclude with another:)
“The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say”
~~ J. R. R. Tolkien
The Fellowship of the Ring
https://youtu.be/9Drnr8IpiXQ