WarpMyMind

Ideally I would like to experience sexual attraction from both ends of the spectrum(gay and straight) before I decide to commit to a specific orientation. So curse files are out for now. I also do not want something that is going to override my nonsexual adult baby time. It looks like I am pretty susceptible to hypnosis since 3 of the 5 files I've listened to have worked with some degree of success. The two that haven't shown results yet are curse files(Safe Bladder Bowel Loss and Curse Perverted Dreams{had the most boring vanilla dreams ever last night}) so I'm sure it will take several times listening before I do see results. Any suggestions that fit into my criteria will be most welcome.

My advice for starting out would be EMG's TrainBisexual, although I can't say entirely how effective it will be for an asexual individual. It shouldn't lock you into anything from my own experience, as when I'm not regularly listening to it I am much more female-interested than when I do listen, but I'm bisexual anyhow and primarily only use the file to "even out" my desires.

So if you decide that being sexual isn't for you, or you choose that you do prefer to be specifically heterosexual or homosexual, you're free to transition by stopping the file or using another training file or even, if you really want, a Curse file for the orientation you choose. If you like being bi, you could even use Curse Forced Bisexual to lock yourself into that.

Thank you for the suggestion, Kharon, I will definitely give that one a try. I am hoping that this will work for me. I know asexuality is a broad term and for me it means that I feel no physical attraction to either sex. I guess I would be considered a fetishist since the only thing that can arouse me is an idea. That idea is transformation. It doesn't matter the type of transformation(anthromorphic,regression, gender bending) or the mechanism(props can help such as a diaper, but if there is no change incorporated into the fantasy then nothing happens) used in the fantasy. I remember my first time masturbating as a preteen, wishing that I was not human during the act. I think that's why I have been so aroused since I've found this site, since hypnosis is merely another mechanism for transformation.

JackTheWriter wrote:I remember my first time masturbating as a preteen, wishing that I was not human during the act. I think that's why I have been so aroused since I've found this site, since hypnosis is merely another mechanism for transformation.

You may be interested in the Dollification or Robotization files as well then. They basically strip you of much of your will and you become simply a sex toy for some one. Of course your still left to your own devices to find that some one.

If you like, PM me and we can discuss this in more detail.

I honestly do not know if I am truly asexual or not. I guess that is what I am still trying to figure out. For the longest time I have resigned myself to being this way.

To expand a bit on what I've posted before I have been able to find release with difference fantasies that haven't included transformation but its like I burn right through them. Once a particular device or fantasy is no longer new then I can never seem to cum or even get hard to it again. As a teen I was able to dream of straight sex and have release but after the 3rd time I found that I could no longer become hard. The same happened with gay fantasies, fantasies with me being a woman and being with a man, me being a woman and being with a woman, hermaphrodite fantasies and more. Now if I start off as a man and change into a woman during the act in the fantasy then I still can achieve release.

I should also let you know that I am still a virgin. I am afraid of sex because I am afraid that I will burn through the act just like I burn through the fantasies. I would not want to get to the point were I am having sex with a partner and after a few times I just can't perform anymore.

I don't think I am this way because of social stigma. Most of my family thinks I am gay and I feel that I would be happier if that were true. Gay friends that I've had think I am straight. I think its because people don't see me leering at their sexual preference so they automatically assume I am the opposite.

I do have a bit of hope. A couple of nights ago I started listening to Cum Curse with Masturtrance. As part of my self-humiliation I have drank my own cum in the past. Not every time but once in a while so I decided to listen to this to see if it would increase that desire for humiliation in that respect. It worked and had a side effect. I had thought that the part about drinking other peoples cum wouldn't work but just tonight I found myself fantasizing about sucking cock. I've never had this particular strain of fantasy(I have about sucking cock, but not for the pure reason of getting the cum) before so time will tell if it too will become old and no longer excite me.

To answer your final paragraph, tanya, I don't want to jump off the deep end right away so I think I'll stick with the train bisexual file. I haven't started yet because I don't want to be listening to too many files at once. Thank you for your insight, it is much appreciated.

Wow! True asexuality is fairly rare...most studies put it at around 1% of the general population. I should know...I, too, am asexual. The likelihood of meeting on this site is pretty slim. Which flavor of Ace are you? I'm asexual aromantic. From your note, I'm guessing you're somewhere closer to a gray demi.

Welcome!

On the asexuality front, have you discovered AVEN? It was a tool that helped me with the realization that I was not "broken." Helped a lot with my own self image and self confidence.