Very analytical mind
Posted: November 2nd, 2005, 8:25 pm
Hi,
I'm fresh here, but i've been fascinated with hypnosis for years, tried it with mild success on frends and generally informed myself on every way possible on amateur scale.
My first interest into the topic came from my wish and need to "hack myself". With strong infotechnological background, obviously, it has been always a quite annoyance for me, that there seem to be "inacessible" portions of my OWN mind. I was very interested of "same information being in different places/levels of my brain having different effects". Which also resulted in understandig, that I'm not skilled/experienced enough to move it exactly where it felt useful.
I could go on with this introduction for few pages, but to the point:
In all those years I've learned much about "mechanics" of the brain and principles of hypnosis and all of it only resulted me knowingly playing trough scenes of hypnotic possibilities and instinctively installing different "protective triggers", as i understood, that i'm only human too.
But as irony goes on, all of this just made me asserting more and more control over myself "not able to change" instead of the first result, in which I wanted to gain more flexibility and self control.
So basically I'm mostly overprotectivly analytical, trying to consciously process everything i can ( i have developed even some extensive "playback" habits and "looking myself from a side" parallelisms ), all about letting only "things i like" to affect me..
Why I'm here, is that it's not really having the results i would "really" like and I'm mostly leading a "double life" of total chaos and sleep deprivation versus highly analytical and organized cracker-jack, able to tell things coming from miles away. Mostly because after all this crunching, leaving myself in half zombie like state and sleeping like dead after this, is the only "rest of myself" i really know. ( considering freaky half-lucid dreams in the end of such cycle are at least small added bonus.. )
As of trying to listen to the files here on the site, which I truly know ( believing is for wuzzues ;) ) would work probably wonders on everybody with enough patience.. I find myself being attentive enough able to correct the audio anomalityes coming from lossy compression and that's nowhere near any trance, as you guess.
I guess I would still benefit greatly from self-induced trances and autosuggestion, as I probably FEEL strongly about trusting anybody else near me, while being so open, but there are obvious paradoxes about trancing yourself deep enough, to have any effect, versus being wake enough to make any use of this state.
I have even experimented with reading and recording my own scripts and having them play from evening until morning for days and other such obvious things.. I have not noticed even any "normal" effects.
But I'm very interested about induced hallucinations and other such "windows" to the subconciousness. It seems to me, I have done "too good job" on blocking myself for all this to work.
Any suggestions to such a tough nut? :)
I have even visited some religious groups and spiritual people, but while being interesting an generally pleasant crowd, I find quickly, that they mosly speak on their gatherings until people around eagerly fall into almost natural trances and start imagining things themselves, as they don't tell much, only speak. But i'm technical person enough "not to fall" for this.. and i find myself mostly analyzing speach patterns and monitoring for "normal attention spans" to max out and discarding mumbo-jumbo, that should just stuff it full, while enforcing unfounded mantras..
Basically I'm searching for a method of some "internal access" without feeling too vulnerable and open..
It seems this is somewhat right place for asking such advice. I visited this site few years ago and it was a pleasant surprise to find such active forum today!
I'm fresh here, but i've been fascinated with hypnosis for years, tried it with mild success on frends and generally informed myself on every way possible on amateur scale.
My first interest into the topic came from my wish and need to "hack myself". With strong infotechnological background, obviously, it has been always a quite annoyance for me, that there seem to be "inacessible" portions of my OWN mind. I was very interested of "same information being in different places/levels of my brain having different effects". Which also resulted in understandig, that I'm not skilled/experienced enough to move it exactly where it felt useful.
I could go on with this introduction for few pages, but to the point:
In all those years I've learned much about "mechanics" of the brain and principles of hypnosis and all of it only resulted me knowingly playing trough scenes of hypnotic possibilities and instinctively installing different "protective triggers", as i understood, that i'm only human too.
But as irony goes on, all of this just made me asserting more and more control over myself "not able to change" instead of the first result, in which I wanted to gain more flexibility and self control.
So basically I'm mostly overprotectivly analytical, trying to consciously process everything i can ( i have developed even some extensive "playback" habits and "looking myself from a side" parallelisms ), all about letting only "things i like" to affect me..
Why I'm here, is that it's not really having the results i would "really" like and I'm mostly leading a "double life" of total chaos and sleep deprivation versus highly analytical and organized cracker-jack, able to tell things coming from miles away. Mostly because after all this crunching, leaving myself in half zombie like state and sleeping like dead after this, is the only "rest of myself" i really know. ( considering freaky half-lucid dreams in the end of such cycle are at least small added bonus.. )
As of trying to listen to the files here on the site, which I truly know ( believing is for wuzzues ;) ) would work probably wonders on everybody with enough patience.. I find myself being attentive enough able to correct the audio anomalityes coming from lossy compression and that's nowhere near any trance, as you guess.
I guess I would still benefit greatly from self-induced trances and autosuggestion, as I probably FEEL strongly about trusting anybody else near me, while being so open, but there are obvious paradoxes about trancing yourself deep enough, to have any effect, versus being wake enough to make any use of this state.
I have even experimented with reading and recording my own scripts and having them play from evening until morning for days and other such obvious things.. I have not noticed even any "normal" effects.
But I'm very interested about induced hallucinations and other such "windows" to the subconciousness. It seems to me, I have done "too good job" on blocking myself for all this to work.
Any suggestions to such a tough nut? :)
I have even visited some religious groups and spiritual people, but while being interesting an generally pleasant crowd, I find quickly, that they mosly speak on their gatherings until people around eagerly fall into almost natural trances and start imagining things themselves, as they don't tell much, only speak. But i'm technical person enough "not to fall" for this.. and i find myself mostly analyzing speach patterns and monitoring for "normal attention spans" to max out and discarding mumbo-jumbo, that should just stuff it full, while enforcing unfounded mantras..
Basically I'm searching for a method of some "internal access" without feeling too vulnerable and open..
It seems this is somewhat right place for asking such advice. I visited this site few years ago and it was a pleasant surprise to find such active forum today!