Need some gay kink at least in my head

[JohnD]

I'm a gay man, happily partnered to a wonderful, sexually fulfilling man for close to ten years. I don't want to ruin my relationship or to cheat, but I would like to experience the kink my partner isn't into but I crave, even if it's in my head. I am really turned on by watersports but he doesn't like it at all, and I would love to be someone's (cyber?)sub, but not his. I'm hoping there's some guy out there who could guide me to at least online or recorded bliss through subjugation, forcing me to serve and abusing me.
-- JohnD in DC aka hypnogaymer