expensive private book stash

[kunoichi]

basically I have written a novel and over the next yea or two it will be edited but once I get it copy written I'd like to finish it's squeals. the thing is I would like to include a hintai vs problem is i don't wzant to write it. main reason is it breaks one of my to wo rules

1. no fan fiction{this is my personal rule and I don't right this stuff but it's not the rule broken}
2. no hetai/porn/dirty novels.

that lats rule is very importantly to me. mainly because it's been so hard in certain places in my squeals to keep it from being so. the thing is I have had so many sexual fantasies about the characters{mostly the females and one of the males}. the reason for this is obvious. I had a dream that could be my universe done as a hentai and I loved it. it's has been the only time in my life I had fantasies about submissive girls that are detailed as this.

so I have a few questions.

1. do you think it's completely wrong to have a private version of a book or version of the universe to yourself.
2. who would I go about getting that written and who can I trust business wise.

p.s. this will all have to wait till the book gets copy written