Leaving...
Posted: March 4th, 2008, 9:52 pm
Morality can not be divorced from context. To use a good example, "Raped by Happiness", makes perfect sense if that is how your psychology is wired but is shockingly wrong if "normality" is how you're wired. I've realized, however late in the game, this site and its contents, the whole EMC game I've been active now for five years is not what I've found to be who I am.
You only know who you are when you've seen your sky. For many of you your future and happiness is contained in this world, and that's fine, I hope you get so far with it you can't ever recover. I've reached a point in my life where the world has opened up in such a way I know that this was for me a fantasy world of my own creation. A baseline from which it couldn't possibly get worse.
After all, hypnotism in this community is just playing out a shared desired fantasy. I did not come here to become something so much as to trick myself into thinking that revealing my desires was actually transformation from some external power.
My fetish has always been about growth, about a shared celebration of life's pleasures and openness. Much as I know many here come from a different context and understanding, I can not see how tales of submission, masochism and the like fit into a childhood dream of sexual freedom elicited through hypnotism and the other games we play.
Submission in my context is freedom, but the freedom of abdication, of drunkenness, its means is the ultimate stupor, its ends is a kind of death worship. Others here use this as a path to liberation, to me it was the ultimate set of vices.
I wish everyone here well. Those who feel that what they do here is damaging may want to leave. Those who feel this is Liberation, who have felt the positive impact of self realization, by all means its something you ought to celebrate.
The party I'm invited to is at another place.
You only know who you are when you've seen your sky. For many of you your future and happiness is contained in this world, and that's fine, I hope you get so far with it you can't ever recover. I've reached a point in my life where the world has opened up in such a way I know that this was for me a fantasy world of my own creation. A baseline from which it couldn't possibly get worse.
After all, hypnotism in this community is just playing out a shared desired fantasy. I did not come here to become something so much as to trick myself into thinking that revealing my desires was actually transformation from some external power.
My fetish has always been about growth, about a shared celebration of life's pleasures and openness. Much as I know many here come from a different context and understanding, I can not see how tales of submission, masochism and the like fit into a childhood dream of sexual freedom elicited through hypnotism and the other games we play.
Submission in my context is freedom, but the freedom of abdication, of drunkenness, its means is the ultimate stupor, its ends is a kind of death worship. Others here use this as a path to liberation, to me it was the ultimate set of vices.
I wish everyone here well. Those who feel that what they do here is damaging may want to leave. Those who feel this is Liberation, who have felt the positive impact of self realization, by all means its something you ought to celebrate.
The party I'm invited to is at another place.