Probably to have a lot of gay sex, suck lots of cocks and to be a crossdressing sissy when young enough to really enjoy it.
Probably from the age of 17, 18 or so. I might even bring back the files for curse stroke sissy & curse forced gay and make myself listen to them over & over :twisted: . (I would also advise my 16 year old self not to waste time getting lovesick over Cathy Lewis because it was never going to happen and I should probably find out if she had a brother instead.) :lol: