by espfrench » May 13th, 2021, 11:52 am
I've personally been using Sarnoga's 4 part "Diaper Dependence" program, along with a couple of the short "reinforcement" loops. And you're right. These "files" really are addicting. They also give you a definite "positive feedback" as you begin experiencing success. And it quickly becomes near impossible to just give up and walk away. Not that I'd want to anyway.
I had to go into all 4 files with an audio editing program, and remove all of his references to urinals. It really is very distracting to any woman trying to maintain a trance, and use the files. I also removed 8 to 17 minutes of "deadwood" from each file that just didn't apply to myself.
It took a couple days of work. But the end results were a set of MP3 files that worked for me.
I'm finally finished with the 3rd file. I've been over 4 weeks now voiding my bladder with little to no warning. I'm also able to easily poop in my diaper now, while experiencing only the most "positive emotional reinforcement".
So... Going on three weeks now I've been using my version of Sarnoga's 4th file, I know that sooner or later I'll begin voiding my bowles without warning. And the truth is... I can't wait.
My psychologist and I have been talking this over for almost 2 years now. I think that on an intellectual level she gets that it's the need to completely give up the choice, and to truly NEED my diapers, for real. I don't think she really gets it, on an emotional level thought. But she's been supportive of my decisions. (As apposed to a couple of the assholes in our monthly group.)