by childlike » September 9th, 2019, 1:57 am
[quote]How often do you listen to that file?[/quote]
Well Mika, funny you should ask. I've been a bit frustrated by all the "say it" commands and not able to focus on them. I've been able to go into a deep trance but frustrated at the thought of coming out of it to consciously try to repeat these phrases. So to answer your question, I listened 2 or three times a day for the first three days, then once a day for about a week, and finally, I didn't listen for a few days.
Tonight, I just listened to it again. I decided to just go with it and not worry about whether I pick up those phrases or not. At first I felt like, "Here we go again. Nothing different than before."
Then, before I knew it, I was lost in trance. I noticed that I had drifted off, but when I regained my awareness, I remained comfortably in the trance. But here's the kicker. I felt super relaxed and super focused when Mommy gave those commands and I was able to repeat most of them. What's even more, while before it seemed that there wasn't enough time to say them, I now felt like there was. Sometimes the pauses were a little bit short, but it didn't really bother me to just finish "saying it" as Mommy started speaking again.
I don't know if the file is successfully planting suggestions in my mind. That's hard to know, given that I already want and need to wear diapers all the time and wet like a little baby all time. Perhaps we'll know in time, if and when I wet my self while awake, at a time and place that is inconvenient and possibly embarrassing. As silly as this sounds, it's the only way I know to be sure that I really don't have ANY control.