expectations and realities
Posted: October 29th, 2020, 4:09 am
Even though it has been quiet around here, i thought i'd pose a question to see if my expectations are out of line. Background, i've been using various files for 20 plus years, at this point. I find them quite relaxing and enjoyable to spend time with. Most often, i'll listen before bed, but sometimes will listen as I lie down during day for rest/nap.
There have only been a couple of times where I've noticed any significant changes or effects from files. First was from a non ABDL file where the result was some un controlled movements of my arms and body, which worked quite well and was surprising Second was from EMG's 20 minutes as a baby, where for a little bit after listening, i was unable to do much but squirm on my bed.
This brings me to the question. I've been pondering for a while, but thought more about it yesterday. Are my expectations for diaper files higher than what the realities might be? One thing I hear in many files is "wetting like a baby", or helplessly wetting. Now, I am analytical minded, so this may be too far, but i'm wondering if in my mind i define these differently than they are intended, and am setting up for failure.
What i hear from those two statements is that wetting will happen subconsciously, without thought or knowledge, and the diaper will be wet without effort. I think of a semi constant dribble, when i think of wetting like a baby.
Other ways it could be defined include:
When diapered, you feel the need to urinate, and you consciously wet your diapers, as it feels good and you enjoy it. You don't consider going to the potty.
You wear diapers, feel the need, hold it and then push a bit, and wet your diapers, again this is conscious and controlled. You may or may not consider the potty.
The first two seem more aligned with 'wetting like a baby' or helplessly as you use your diapers and don't consider the potty.
After all the files i've used, the effects I can see include increased desire to wear diapers, increased desire to wet and mess them, greater pleasure in doing either/both, but other than standing up where it is easy to relax and wet, i have to consciously push/relax to let go. Sitting being easier than lying down. When lying down, it sort of feels like everything is relaxed in my body except for a muscle around my bladder area which is tight. The other thing i'm seeing is that becoming a bit 'excited' makes it much more difficult to pee, and i'll notice that is sometimes the culprit.
Anyway, not sure this will make sense to people or not, but i wanted to try to gather my thoughts.
There have only been a couple of times where I've noticed any significant changes or effects from files. First was from a non ABDL file where the result was some un controlled movements of my arms and body, which worked quite well and was surprising Second was from EMG's 20 minutes as a baby, where for a little bit after listening, i was unable to do much but squirm on my bed.
This brings me to the question. I've been pondering for a while, but thought more about it yesterday. Are my expectations for diaper files higher than what the realities might be? One thing I hear in many files is "wetting like a baby", or helplessly wetting. Now, I am analytical minded, so this may be too far, but i'm wondering if in my mind i define these differently than they are intended, and am setting up for failure.
What i hear from those two statements is that wetting will happen subconsciously, without thought or knowledge, and the diaper will be wet without effort. I think of a semi constant dribble, when i think of wetting like a baby.
Other ways it could be defined include:
When diapered, you feel the need to urinate, and you consciously wet your diapers, as it feels good and you enjoy it. You don't consider going to the potty.
You wear diapers, feel the need, hold it and then push a bit, and wet your diapers, again this is conscious and controlled. You may or may not consider the potty.
The first two seem more aligned with 'wetting like a baby' or helplessly as you use your diapers and don't consider the potty.
After all the files i've used, the effects I can see include increased desire to wear diapers, increased desire to wet and mess them, greater pleasure in doing either/both, but other than standing up where it is easy to relax and wet, i have to consciously push/relax to let go. Sitting being easier than lying down. When lying down, it sort of feels like everything is relaxed in my body except for a muscle around my bladder area which is tight. The other thing i'm seeing is that becoming a bit 'excited' makes it much more difficult to pee, and i'll notice that is sometimes the culprit.
Anyway, not sure this will make sense to people or not, but i wanted to try to gather my thoughts.