by pendulous » April 22nd, 2009, 8:22 pm
I am a longstanding sissy -- about a third out of the closet, but only in the most carefully controlled circumstances. My personal survival seems to rest upon discretion. But sometimes I skate too close to the edge. Take hypnosis, for example. I am an utter novice, yet it excites me. It is new. It is intoxicating. And I am extremely suggestible.
So I took up your challenge for "Becoming Sissy." I was too frightened to just listen by myself, but I have games I can play to enforce self-compliance. I set my mp3 for a single play, and then locked myself up. I was in pencil skirt and 3-inch t-straps, and knew it would take me the better part of an hour to maneuver to the key and get myself free. So I gave in and listened, as I knew I would, and then just rolled over and slept through till morning.
When I woke, I remembered immediately what I' d done. It took me 40 minutes to get out of my fix. Then I put away the key (in a more difficult place), went back to bed, got myself comfy, set my player for one more play, and clickety-clicked that lock once again. Trapped!
I got two entire play-throughs, and I am scared to friggin' death. What are my chances of getting through this unscathed? I am fully accountable for the risks I have taken. But, realistically speaking, what are the odds? Can I get through this without life-changing consequences? Or is the die (most likely) cast?
half scared out of my wits,
pendulous