Chibisuke wrote:but what would be best for growing real breasts , my male shape toning out to be more feminine as well as my voice? without my penis and ballsac shrinkin away to nnothing. as i do want to when i can actually afford that Genitalia reconstruction (penis& ballsack to female genitalia )
Some people take carefully-controlled doses of hormones to achieve rounding of features and breast growth without shrinkage of the genitals. The trick is to determine the right dose. And female hormones are genuinely dangerous, with a significant risk of death from clots.
One possibility that comes to mind is Perfect Woman breast cream -- it's made from herbals but it's extremely effective. Not without risk, AFAIK herbals have the same clotting and liver damage potentials as the hormones they mimic, but it is applied locally which may reduce the ratio of systemic effects to breast growth (but cause less hip growth, muscle loss, etc. as well).
Finally, you could consider checking out the various vacuum breast enlargement machines. They're effective and there are no hormones involved. Brava is the best known, but some people swear by other systems. One disadvantage of vacuum development -- it apparently works best/fastest when there's already ample breast tissue, which of course is not the case in most guys. But they have been used by MTF's with at least partial success.