Hi. I’ve been a member here for a while. Rarely posted, just downloaded a file every once in a while. I’d like some advice for how to pursue my hypnotic goals.
I’m not into hypnosis for hypnosis’ sake. I came here seeking a way to hallucinate having a female body. In fact, mind control has always been a bit of a fear for me, which is part of my problem. [Domination, humiliation, bimbofication, also not for me, though I don’t consider my disinterest in them problems. No offense intended to those who like them.] Other problems I had to deal with are a feeling that there’s something wrong with believing what isn’t true (what my body looks like, for example) and problems with hypnotist’s statements I can’t quite fit into my experience. Examples: Trance for me is more about relaxation, so instructions saying how being made to remember something made me excited often don’t work and takes me out of trance a bit. Also, when people say “remember when you were the most (for example) surprised,” and I can’t tell which moment counts as the “most” and I’m knocked out of the experience.
Since coming here, I’ve tried some WMM files, some files from other sites, and a couple of text messaging hypnotists. I’ve been able to be hypnotized but not enough to experience my desired hallucinations. I know I’ve been going for the hardest thing to achieve.
I’m trying to give it another try now, and I’d like some advice on whether I could build up from simple things to more complex things. And if there is a regimen that might work.
I have two basic ideas for what I’m hoping for. One is the old standby, being able to hallucinate having a female body when I want to. Maybe that means the TriugFemaleForm-style way, but that means being aware every moment that the hallucination is there and being able to deal with it. Maybe that means the TrigWoman-style way, but that means somehow allowing myself to accept believing an untruth as a means of achieving my desired goal.
My other possible goal would be to forget about hallucinating in waking life and instead try to be hypnotized into always have a female body in dreams. That eliminates the “it isn’t true” problem since dreams already aren’t true, at least not in the same way that waking like is true. But there are disadvantages to merely dreaming it.
My blocks might make either option or both harder to achieve, maybe impossible. But real transition isn’t for me. If I want to have a woman’s body, I’ll have to perceive it into being.
Any advice?
[This post may bring people offering to be hypnotists or suggestions of hypnotists. I won’t say yes or no straight away. I’ll give offers thought and research.]