Feminization Journey of a Young Male

[blanketcross]

I am going go listen to Curse Hormone Change and a breast enlargement file from EMG. Hoping to add feminine appetite and Fembutt Growth to the mix after I see results with the current file. I am 17m (shh I am turning 18 in a few monthz) and are also transgender. I have manboobs that are ACups and are really small. What inspired me to start listening were some 36b bras I found in a storage container.
Short Term Goal: fill that 36b bra!
Long Term Goal: Have a female(ish) body before I leaves high school.

Super excited! Wish me luck!

[chase1]

How did you get an A cup? Hypno, hormones, gynecomastia? I have gynecomastia, but not enough for an A cup.

[Alt131]

Funny, I am almost in the same position. I am using Curs Super Female Whammy. So fare my clit has shrunk about 1in soft and 0.5in heard and my balls have gotten smaller and softer. Will keep updated on this thread. Would like to use EMG files but the sound quality is to low to get me into trance. Any suggestions on how to do deeper with his files?

[chase1]

I agree completely, but I am using the subliminal Curse Hormone Change. It is easy to trance to and has been extremely effective for me. There is a thread on that too. Also, a lot of people have rerecorded his files.

[blanketcross]

How did you get an A cup? Hypno, hormones, gynecomastia? I have gynecomastia, but not enough for an A cup.

Well I aam about 20-30 lbs overweight. That with off and on binurals got me to this measly a cup

[Alt131]

I agree completely, but I am using the subliminal Curse Hormone Change.

I can't seem to find that file. Can you like it?

[chase1]

I agree completely, but I am using the subliminal Curse Hormone Change.

I can't seem to find that file. Can you like it?

It is Curse Hormone Change, then under other types select subliminal. You need a premium membership to get other types of files. I'm creative so I write for my membership.

[blanketcross]

Decided to cut Male Breast Growth from my list and only listen to CHC. Reason being, after I trance to CHC and try MBG, I can't trance. Might add MBG to the end of CHC before the awakner, but after a certain time, I cut out of trance whether I want to or not.

[blanketcross]

I am not sure if I actually listened last night... I was really tired and started listening to the file. I drifted off, and "woke up" in the induction some time later. I am not sure if I had listened to it a few times then woke up or if I drifted off then woke back up within the 10 minutes the induction lasts. Hopefully i fell into a sleepy, deep trancy state (if that exists) and listened to the file alot. Will listen alot tonight. I have lots of urges to listen to teeny weenie by sarnoga every time I see anything about penis size. If i do, i will write another reply.

As far as the file and results go, not much has changed. That is expected as i have only listened for about 2 days.

[chase1]

You really should try the subliminal version. With the voices overlapping its almost like hearing it multiple times. And I guess it goes without saying, stuff is happening for me

[blanketcross]

it is a bit late for me (2:13) but i did end up listening to curse of the Teeny Weenie. I started out at about 5 1/8 inches for the record. Will listen to CHC tonight also.

[blanketcross]

Today, I had no erections, except once but it wasn't hard, maybe a little stiff. Now that I am on the site and reading stuff, it is stiff, but not fully erect. I did not listen to CHC much. Maybe half way into the subliminal file, although I did listen about 4 times about 1-2 hours before that. I will have to go to sleep early the next few nights (Exams...yack), but I will definitely listen to CTW no matter what. Around the middle of the file I wanted to leave (I believe it probably was around 36MIN, because during 2 previous attempts I stopped the file exactly at 36 minutes), but I kept listening! *Yay* I am sure that I am going to become addicted to the file, and listening tonight will probably ensure that I will continue to listen.

If you wan't to listen, but are too scared, here is a PRO/CON list...gosh I love P/C lists...maybe I should create a P/C list fetish file. AGH off track! Feel free to add stuff (by replying) and I will edit this list.
[b]PROS[b/]
You're penis will no longer get in the way with sports, and stuff like that.
During sex, your testicles won't bounce around (as much) and hurt.
You will be very unique, because small penises <2in are rare.
If your TG, passing down there will be easier, and T Levels will go down.
Ball-Kicks won't hurt! (Eventually)
[b]BOTH[b/]
Impotence.
Will have to bottom.

[chase1]

I just wanted to let you know in case you didn't check the other thread. I have decided to completely give up any attempts to resist the file, and completely give in to every suggestion. You aren't alone.

[OxyFemboi]

blanketcross wrote
CONS
You may become impotent.
You will not be able to top.

Many of the people who used Curse of the Teeny Weenie and its cousins (variations of the original file that others have recorded on the same theme) were total bottoms who had absolutely zero interest in topping but kept getting asked to top because they had a big penis. Losing penis size solves the problem of a total bottom being asked to top when they are not interested, have never been interested, and can conceive of no possible future when they would be interested in topping.

Also, a bottom doesn't need to be potent.

For some people (many, perhaps most of the people using the file), those "Cons" are "Pros".

Also, one "Pro" you missed:
Eventually, you cannot be incapacitated by a kick to the balls.

[blanketcross]

I just want my penis to disappear completely. If it can't do that I wan't it as small as it can get then I will just use panties that are tight enough to push it up. I also want my scrotum to sort of be absorbed into the skin in that area too. I have used so many electronics on my lap that I am sure that it is impotent so I don't have to worry about that.

[blanketcross]

Again today, I had NO random erections. Not even morning wood! The only "erections" I had were when I was/am aroused. Hopefully that stops soon. Hopefully my penis shrinks soon. I know it is my second or third day listening but I swear my flaccid size looks...thinner. Also, I was a little over 5 inches...maybe 5"1/8 and last time I measured (today) I tried to get as hard as I could and got 4+5/8-3/4 inches. I measure with the ruler on top of my dick pressed against my groin (not too hard). Unless I am like supah-aroused I can't get as hard as my max used to be.

[diode168]

Excellent progress blanketcross. How often are you listening?

[blanketcross]

I listen every night. Again today, no random erections. I just can't wait until I stop getting erections when I am aroused.

I DECIDED TO QUIT CHC FOR NOW.

My main focus is listening to CTW, and it is hard for me to listen to two hypnosis files at a time. If I trance to one file, it is hard for me to trance again. Right now, because of the immediate results I wan't to give full devotion to CTW. Btw, exams are going well! Cx

4 1/2 Inches :)

[chase1]

I may stop as well, the urge to listen has gon way down. I guess that could mean I'm done and my hormones switched. I done have the pain anymore. Good luck achieving an invaginated penis.

[diode168]

Wow that's terrific progress blanket.

Are you still masturbating? If you don't mind me asking.

I know off one person who managed to give himself type of erectile dysfunction by masturbating then once hard would just stop and wait until his flaccid and then started masturbating. The second he was hard again he would stop and wait for it to get soft.

Eventually he trained himself to stay soft while he masturbated.

[blanketcross]

I am at a loss right now. I have not listened for the past [2] days. I want the results of the file (CTW) but I don't want to listen? My flaccid penis looks thinner, and [yesterday] there was lots of spare skin that I could pull back. Also when I looked at it straight on it was about 1 inch across and now it looks 3/4. I havn't measured today yet. I also want the effects of CHC but I don't wan't to listen. I think it might be the length of CTW that repels me from the file.

ON A SIDE NOTE:
I was in the chat a few days ago, and someone by the name "Irene" hypnotized me. It was amazing and ever since then I have been craving the effects of what she(?) did to me. She took me down and told me I was Lady Sarah and she asked me about my dress (which was blue and silky) and about my house (it had 8 rooms and was quite large). I broke free from it and wanted to know what she was going to do to me in the end, but she asked me about my dress again and if I wanted to keep it, and she ended up getting me back into trance. Then someone interrupted me and I told her I will have to go and will be back, but she left. I even believe that it was the craving of wanting the effects so badly, that knocked me off track of listening to CTW! This was a few days ago, and I still want the dress. I think this might be the most effective hypnosis has been to me.

[chase1]

I know what you mean about the length of files, and not wanting to listen. I feel like I have had times where my subconscious gets burnt out on hearing the same thing. Like it gets board.

[chase1]

If you fund it is a case of getting board you could try rotating several files suggesting similar things. Like working out at the gym, boob fay, but day, flat tummy day, hormone day, ect. Or record the same file in different voices, so your subconscious thinks it's getting the same message from everyone.

[blanketcross]

Well I read the script for Little Miss Squidgy...I have seen it a while back but didn't listen because I was afraid that it would make me less intelligent. Reading the script that was proven wrong so I guess I have a new file to listen to! Gosh the script made me hard. Like as hard as I got before I listened to CTW (which I am probably not listening to anymore). The file is only 30 minutes long (minus the parts where you can prove your not a sissy to be able to stop the file). I am quite excited too. I don't have any cocks readily available to suck, because I am pretty devoted to saving myself to marriage. That may change soon though. I am not christian, the saving myself is just a personal thing. In fact, I don't really know what my religion is. I would say it is similar to Greek/Roman mythology, except not the same god(s). AGH I WILL JUST POST THIS IN THE RELIGION SECTION OF THE FORUMS/

[blanketcross]

Wow. I love this file and can't wait to listen to the others. I just really want to suck cock right now. I am so hungry for cum. Will listen again tonight.

[blanketcross]

Well, I guess I "quit" after LMS...not much happened...after one or two listens nothing happened. I am quite sad that I quite Teeny Weenie, as if I had kept listening it surely would be amazingly small by now. I am going to continue listening to TW again. I am back up to the original 5 inches.

[OxyFemboi]

blanketcross wrote
ON A SIDE NOTE:
I was in the chat a few days ago, and someone by the name "Irene" hypnotized me. It was amazing and ever since then I have been craving the effects of what she(?) did to me. She took me down and told me I was Lady Sarah and she asked me about my dress (which was blue and silky) and about my house (it had 8 rooms and was quite large). I broke free from it and wanted to know what she was going to do to me in the end, but she asked me about my dress again and if I wanted to keep it, and she ended up getting me back into trance. Then someone interrupted me and I told her I will have to go and will be back, but she left. I even believe that it was the craving of wanting the effects so badly, that knocked me off track of listening to CTW! This was a few days ago, and I still want the dress. I think this might be the most effective hypnosis has been to me

To get rid of these effects or the effects of any hypnosis you don't want any more, use ViVe's Deep Clean.

Description: This file uses the “Deep Down” Induction to get you into a very deep state of trance, and get your innermost mind to where you can erase all triggers and suggestions that you don’t want anymore. You can either focus on a specific suggestion/trigger, or let your subconscious mind decide which ones are deeply positive and enjoyable for you, and then delete all other triggers and suggestions.

Link: http://www.vivehypnosis.de/?p=1980

[blanketcross]

To get rid of these effects or the effects of any hypnosis you don't want any more, use ViVe's Deep Clean.

Thanks, but I love(ed) the effects of what happened. I wish that it hadn't ended, because it was amazing. I would probably even submit to someone who in return would do that to me.

EDIT
I deleted my KIK and the part about TW coaching.

[blanketcross]

I ended up downloading quite a few files.

Shrinking Penis Training Loop V2 -iked
http://www.warpmymind.com/Files/8897/Shrinking-Penis-Training-Loop-V2.php
I listen to this while playing videogames or reading. Probably hasn't had much effect yet as (including tonight) I have only listened twice with a total elapsed time of ABOUT 1.5 Hours. My penis (flaccid) seems...un-proportional to my balls? I sat down earlier and for a few seconds it was like my dick was swallowed up and only the head was pointing out. That is what I would like my end results to be like. I also would like my scrotum to become flat and smooth out with the skin around it.

I also downloaded the following from EMG - Lipstick, Curse Webcam Slut, and One Hour Doll. I will probably not listen to those tonight, as I plan on listening to Super Nova Female http://www.warpmymind.com/Files/7273/SuperNovaFemale.php

[blanketcross]

These are just some random things I have noticed, but sometimes my penis seems thin? Then after a while it will be back to normal. Other times it will seem short (flaccid). Side effect of CTW maybe?
Anyways, about the files I was talking about above, here are results.

Shrinking Penis Training Loop V2 Not bad. Not bad at all!

Lipstick. Did not, and will not listen.

Curse Webcam Slut. Didn't really effect me. If I were recording myself, I would probably do "dirty" stuff regardless. :oops: :P

One Hour Doll. Listened to while sleepy. Took off earbuds. Stopped listening.

Super Nova Female. TTS voice, ended up not listening to it all.

I will continue to listen to CTW again. Might listen to Shrinking Penis Training Loop V2 along with it. But that is a maybe.

[mistresssurrender]

reading some of the posts here....
it's pretty clear that many people do not understand the process of hypnosis.
First of all- being "bored"... is simply your conscious mind, trying to retain control. If you are committed to the end result of the hypnosis... ignore the "feelings" of boredom....

Secondly- there are many ways to deepen trance and therefore, deepen the embedding of the hypnosis. A google search will give you various methods of deepening trance.

I offer deepening files... in particular, "deepening hypnosis " mp3 & a blank slate file "Morning Mantra of Blankness" mp3.

I explain the "whys" of using these foundation files on My web site:
http://www.hypnosurrender.com/where-to-begin-your-entrancement-entrapment/

And please...remember that hypnosis works by REPETITION.
If you have been socialised to be male from time of birth till...whenever you realised that you were not a man.... then you need to remove that old, socialisation programming and run a new script.

I think that having a dominant overseeing the process of becoming feminine/ a sissy, is invaluable.
Just My opinion... of course....

[blanketcross]

Thank you MS. I am currently looking for a dom (on other sources), to help me with stuff. I am into DDLG and BDSM stuff. I am into the LG part of DDLG, B, and M in the BDSM part. I am sad there aren't many DDLG/BDSM files here. If you havn't found out, I am submissive.

[mistresssurrender]

Great to hear you are looking for a Dom/someone to be in charge of your journey. I hope you find a skilled Dom....
I do have a bdsm file available :

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Craving-Helpless-Prey-Third-Night.html

The Third night includes riding crop, pain/pleasure hypnosis, ruined orgasm.
I will also be producing a sequel to Mindless Sissy Fuck Toy, which will include bdsm play. That file will be released end of January.

Surrender is inevitable.

[Marchasfun]

I have been doing Curse Hormone Change for more than a month. I had a testosterone check in December and it was very low. I went yesterday for another blood test because the Dr. thinks I am actually converting testosterone into estrogen. I find out what the results will be next week.
Contact me by pm if you want to know more.

[blanketcross]

So, I was gone for the past week on a trip. Near the rear end, I constantly kept thinking about hypnosis and stuff. I will be able to listen again tomorrow. I will give more info on what I do tomorrow. I can't wait!

[blanketcross]

Well, I believe I have figured out what file I am going to listen to. A few subliminals by Cyrus_softpaw (particularly the addiction to hypnosis and cock addiction ones). Tree of self - Female by Smfx (if the induction on that one is good, I may try the canine one). Last but not least, a file by kei called Good girl: Feminizing Pussy Drip 2.

I am most excited about the Addiction to Hypnosis, and Good Girl files. I think I will enjoy the vocal cord shrinking with the GG file most.

On a side note, I am mentor!!!! Over 100 posts! Yay!

[blanketcross]

So before my trip, I remember being sick, and feeling distant from my body. Like it was in auto drive.

[Marchasfun]

Tomorrow I find out the results of my hormone tests if my estrogen is high I will be asking to go on female hormones. If it is not I have to find out what is going on. I am pretty sure that the hormone chage file is working and that it will show I am converting testosterone to estrogen. So I dont want the estrogen blocker and will be asked to switch hormones. This I hope will mean the 32nd of weekly shots and mood swings and being tired and a change to just pills and feeling better. If the tests show what I think they will I will of course post them for all to see. Wish me luck.

[blanketcross]

Tomorrow I find out the results of my hormone tests if my estrogen is high I will be asking to go on female hormones...Wish me luck.

How did it go?

Last night, or I should say this morning... just wow.
I believe I was experiencing a type of sleep paralysis, but jesus it felt amazing. Waves of pleasure flooded through my body as I tried to move. I remember experiencing a man holding himself tight to my back, and that sent more waves of pleasure through my body.
It was simply amazing.
For some reason, at the time, I had resisted it, and finally was able to move. It wasn't until after that I had realized how good it felt, so I got into the same position and tried to make it happen again, but nada.
I would experience that EVERY night if I had the choice. I crave it, and I don't use that word much or lightly.

This inspires me to make a script for something like it, but I believe vive has done something like this. If you havn't, VIVE PLEASE MAKE A FILE LIKE THIIIISSSS. I WILL TEST IT FOR YOU <3

[blanketcross]

So I guess I had the wrong ideas about bimbos. I (previously) thought that they were extremely stupid sex craved people. But now I more so believe that they are people who (sometimes) blank off or play dumb, and have a higher sex drive. Now that I know this, I believe that I am going to listen to a ViVe file called Bimbo Pride on his website. If I trance (consistantly the next day or two ) I will probably create a success stories forum thread.

check it out at vivehipnosis.de

Also about the numbnes/sleep paralysis thing, yesterday the bottom part of my leg got numb, and when I waked with it, it felt sooooo pleasurful. Like mm almost as good as the sleep thing, but still not as good. What could be causing this?

[diode168]

When parts of your body go numb they can sometimes feel quite pleasurable to get feeling back.

Are you still listening to ctw? Or have you given up completely?

[kyletainer]

Wow that's terrific progress blanket.

Are you still masturbating? If you don't mind me asking.

I know off one person who managed to give himself type of erectile dysfunction by masturbating then once hard would just stop and wait until his flaccid and then started masturbating. The second he was hard again he would stop and wait for it to get soft.

Eventually he trained himself to stay soft while he masturbated.

Interesting that you mention that behavior as those are the instructions in at least a few of the limp clitty files. You are instructed that you can only touch your clitty when it is completely limp. You can play with it if you want, but will stop touching it immediately at the first sign of an erection.