My results - Files or Genetic? You decide.
Posted: January 19th, 2009, 11:14 amOK, so I stumbled across this site about 5 years ago when i was 18, and became infactuated and even somewhat obsessed.
Now I haven't listened to many files consistently, but I have listed to many files, and the results, well... I can't say if they are attributed to the files or just my own changing in life. Still, I think if anything, the files definatly gave me a push, or an edge on the notion that I want to be a girl.
I have always been a very petite boy, with many soft feminine features. Even to this day, with me being 23, I can barely grow any facial hair and have been told by my mom that I still look very girly.
At the time when I first found this site I was going to the gym 5 times a week, and taking any bulking supliment I could get my hands on. I was in a confused point of my life, where I figured if I can't be the feminine boy I wanted to be (as I grew up in a small southern town), then I would be the manly man that society hoped I would be.
I continued this routine for 4 years, up until I turned 22, and then had a sudden change of heart. I was nearing the end of college and could see a possible change of environment in the future, so I quit working out. I started to let my muscle deterioate and my feminine features re-emerage.
Then, I stumbled across the Alison feminization files, and that's when I became obsessed yet once again. I actually did get into the habbit of listening to these files frequently, and found them having a profound effect on my thinking and views on being a feminine boy.
So during the summer of 2008 I finished college, and started looking for new places to move to. I packed up a suitcase and my cat, and traveled far northwest, a long long way away from the south.
The idea of becoming a girl had consumed my thoughts, and almost haunted me... because it had never been an option where I was born, raised and was living before I moved.
Now, I have always dated girls in the past (and considered myself straight), but that too has changed somewhat. I find myself now, far away from home, dating a boy (who makes an absolutely gorgeous girl when he goes in drag) and living for the most part... as a girl.
I don't even have boy cloths with me in my new city. I gave them all away to someone who is going FtM. I don't always go out as a complete girl, but I do always wear girls cloths. In fact, I have dressed in girls panties, shirts, jeans, skirts, coats, and even socks for months now. I always wear eye makeup at the very least, I have my eyebrows waxed as a girls, my body is hairless, my hair is cut as a girls, and the only article of boys clothing that I've worn in months are my boots (which are very girly).
I am saving up to buy silicon inserts to fill my bra so that I can begin wearing a bra 24/7. I anticipate to have purchased the ones I want by the start of Febuary. I also believe that I will have begun taking estrogen by mid-summer, and hopefully by this time next year I will be well into my way of transitioning into a girl.
I don't know if this is all a result of the files, my obsession with being a girl since I was 5, or the change of environment that has suddenly come about... but one thing is for certain... I am a girl now. =)
Now I haven't listened to many files consistently, but I have listed to many files, and the results, well... I can't say if they are attributed to the files or just my own changing in life. Still, I think if anything, the files definatly gave me a push, or an edge on the notion that I want to be a girl.
I have always been a very petite boy, with many soft feminine features. Even to this day, with me being 23, I can barely grow any facial hair and have been told by my mom that I still look very girly.
At the time when I first found this site I was going to the gym 5 times a week, and taking any bulking supliment I could get my hands on. I was in a confused point of my life, where I figured if I can't be the feminine boy I wanted to be (as I grew up in a small southern town), then I would be the manly man that society hoped I would be.
I continued this routine for 4 years, up until I turned 22, and then had a sudden change of heart. I was nearing the end of college and could see a possible change of environment in the future, so I quit working out. I started to let my muscle deterioate and my feminine features re-emerage.
Then, I stumbled across the Alison feminization files, and that's when I became obsessed yet once again. I actually did get into the habbit of listening to these files frequently, and found them having a profound effect on my thinking and views on being a feminine boy.
So during the summer of 2008 I finished college, and started looking for new places to move to. I packed up a suitcase and my cat, and traveled far northwest, a long long way away from the south.
The idea of becoming a girl had consumed my thoughts, and almost haunted me... because it had never been an option where I was born, raised and was living before I moved.
Now, I have always dated girls in the past (and considered myself straight), but that too has changed somewhat. I find myself now, far away from home, dating a boy (who makes an absolutely gorgeous girl when he goes in drag) and living for the most part... as a girl.
I don't even have boy cloths with me in my new city. I gave them all away to someone who is going FtM. I don't always go out as a complete girl, but I do always wear girls cloths. In fact, I have dressed in girls panties, shirts, jeans, skirts, coats, and even socks for months now. I always wear eye makeup at the very least, I have my eyebrows waxed as a girls, my body is hairless, my hair is cut as a girls, and the only article of boys clothing that I've worn in months are my boots (which are very girly).
I am saving up to buy silicon inserts to fill my bra so that I can begin wearing a bra 24/7. I anticipate to have purchased the ones I want by the start of Febuary. I also believe that I will have begun taking estrogen by mid-summer, and hopefully by this time next year I will be well into my way of transitioning into a girl.
I don't know if this is all a result of the files, my obsession with being a girl since I was 5, or the change of environment that has suddenly come about... but one thing is for certain... I am a girl now. =)