saffy672200 wrote:Has anyone had their life ruined by long-term hypnosis on this site?
I sort of have, depending on how you look at it. Ive always been a tg, but Ive always struggled with it because on the surface i like being a guy, and i really have no answer of why i want to be a girl. Personaly, I have the belief that its because female hormones fucked up my sex identity in the womb, but who knows. Anyways when i was 18(22 now)and halfway through hs, I was in a weird situation cuz part of me complelty wanted to go transition especially cuz my bi and very open minded friend was moving far away and i could have probably moved with her if i would of had to courage to tell her then, I also had a huge crush on her so the manly part of me wouldn't let me. Any way i stumbled on this site, and didnt really believe things like super female wammy could work, but i figured what the hell if it works thats great cuz it would take away the conflict i had of being a boy or girl. Well it didnt do anything at all at first. But then my girlfriend of half a year which was my only real relationship and i really felt close to broke up with me, mainly cuz her hs friends convinced her she shouldn't be tied down in hs. Anyway that really devastated me and i smoked weed that night and when i came home for some reason i listend to the curses sfw and total feminisation and curse mtf. And wow i completly went under for the first time. Well the next day i noticed patches of leg hair missing and freaked out. So i stoped, and ended up getting my gf back. Over time i noticed like small amounts of change, espeically after i would smoke weed, i actually think it triggerd the changes, cuz i stoped listeing to the file very quickly. I noticed my baggy clothes started sagging on me worse and worse till i had to change to smaller sizes, and ive always been skinny i was like 145 150 5'8-5"7. Now I'm like 130 tops.But i also was in denial becuz i really loved my gf and wanted to stay a guy. So i tried listeing to some masculinity boosting files and nothing really happend. Anyways like around 2 years ago now I was noticing it was getting really bad my hips were like really getting fem and my thighs were fat instead of muscular. But nobody really noticed becuz my clothes make me look like just a real skinny guy. I really thought i was just compeltly hallucinating this, but when i showed my friend who came back to visit my body she was shocked that i wasnt lieing to her and confirmed for me that this indeed was real. Well my gf and i started fighting a lot around then after i moved in with my friend and we broke up and i was devastated but thought this meant i should finally go transition even tho a big part of me didn't want to. well a couple months later i moved in with my friend from hs halfway across the country, and her gf with the plan of doing that. But she ended up pretty much stabbing me in the back for reasons i still dont really understand(she kicked me out and stole my tv over my dog who she said would be fine staying their). By the way i was on unemployment and had a small possession of weed charge that made it hard to find a good job till i just recently got it off my record,(fucking hate our corrupt, hypocritical war on drugs waging gov). Well so now i had to move back with my parents. And today im living on my own but dont have the money to transition tho i will soon, but a big part of me wants to be a guy again and have a girlfriend again. Im like hugely depressed about my situation, and I dont have anyone to talk to about this. My friends are all guys and none of them are open minded about tg or gay stuff at all, although they are very open minded about like everything else. I just wanna be like I was before. The confusion i felt about my gender was NOTHING to the depression and embarassment i feel about my life right now. And i lost the only person who would help me to i still dont even know wut. So yeah you could deffinantly say hypnosis has ruined my life, And i ardly listend and tried to reverse it. Recantly i have been trying to eat better and get away from soda, and im planing on trying to listen to a lot of masculinising hypnosis along with an anti estrogen and maybe a t booster to try and see if i could possibly reverse this, The main problem is their arent really any good masculinising files i can find, especially the ones that change your body and hormones like sfw does in the opposite way. I know this is my own stupid ass fault for listening.But I really feel terrible and would give anything to be able to live a regular male life again. I still feel like i have a minor chance cuz i still get errections and dont look like a girl unless you see me naked and i still dont really have boobs just a lil fat and slightly bigger nipples. I mean if girls can change to guys then it should be possible for a guy who changed partway girl to go back to a man again right?... Well if anybody has any advice for me or would make a file for me that would do what i need it to i would majorly appreciate it. And would body of an 18 year old maybe do the trick cuz that is essentially what i want, is to have the body i had 4 years ago before i listened.