Thought I would mini-blog my progress with this file.
I am new to the forum and new to hypnosis. I have been reading the posts and am glad to find a variety of different and tolerant people on the board making intellegent posts.
Can't explain WHY I have this compulsion but have had all my life and have FINALLY and recently accepted that it is part of me. And my husband accepts me this way as well.
I have always had EXTREMELY good bladder control (I mean like potty training and night dry at an unbelievably young age-and no loss of control during and after pregnancy-wet the bed once at 3 and wet my pants once at 4) even after kids and getting older but I want to be able to loose control in a controlled situation (ie I really do NOT want to be incontinent but would like that release when wearing diapers) I seriously think it would be easier to become full time incontinent but that is not for me and I am not AB, just like diapers. I am not attaching judgement to either choice - just saying they are not for me.
Night 1 - listened before bedtime - did have a very nice dream about diaper filling slowly with urine ........... but no action
Day 2 - Did wear diaper during day some and had some small uncontrolled releases that felt really good and they just happened - I did not TRY to control them. Slept normally bare-assed that night. I did listen that am and did listen to urniate now after which I peed when standing
Day 3 - Listened to tape after work and lay down with very full bladder.and a diaper. After 2 hours no go even though I was getting numb and chills. Forced some out.but it was not coming out on its own.....one problem is arousal......I get very very juicy and I know from experience that I cannot really pee when aroused (even though I am female). Not sure how to get past THAT one -- and wonder if others have this problem?
Well, I am going to keep trying -- I do obsverve it is easier to get deeper each time I listed, but I am probably going to do this one on alternate days since there are some self-help inductions that I also want....Advice is welcome and I will *blog* real progress to this post.
FYI - I am also a submissive and hubby is a dom :wink: