Heya all! Thoyght i woulf do an update as its my month anniversaru of starting the files! Thought i'd do a bit of an all encompassing update if that makes sense? Like an update of the journey so far and how i feel about it all
So i decided to start listenijg to these files because life is tough and i wanted to feel less stress. I wanted to have less thoughts raving through my head as well. I have tried hypnosis through tthe years but havent really sound mny that were very effective. I have been so pleasantly surprised to experience some of the effects lver this month but it hasnt been without its barriers or roadblocms
Ive always been someone who has above average spelling and sent3nce consteuction, usually able to get my point acrpss very succintly, often being asked to prrof read colleagues work and edit. In my day to day life i jave definitely noticed slme this vhanging but at work ive been able ti mitigate some of this though it seems to use more focus and causes headaches at times. But generally at work i dont think mich has changed because of thks extra fovus im using. But i guess that also shows its been working cus i have to focus harder? But i wonder if allowing ti to work less at work is also stunting it the rest of the time? Idk.
As i said i got distracted by some other files (still listen8ng to these ones usually but a bit less often) but i think trying to do both at the same time caused my brain to loose progress here. But focussing on them again seems to be making it work a bit again? I also have been listening to mental erosion 1 and 2 a bit so hoping that has dome long term effects. These file seems to mpre often than not cause me not to remember a lot of it for some reasoj. Not sure why its different or if im falling asleep at times, i do remember my first time listeing to it that after the i duction i wasnt aware of anything until the end count. Havent had a full time where ive felt unaware but pockets
Someone who knows that ive been doing this has given me the feedback that i've been making more spelling mistakes, sometimes make less sense a s and have been more easily co fused, asking clarifying questio s and such. I think with the spelling its less that I dont know how to spell something, but if i type it wrong i donr really care and dont want to fix it? And in terms of making less sense i still think im making sense to myself, so im not sure if i am making sense or not but ive found myself sometimes rambling a bit more in order to try make sure my point ks understood?
In the beginning i noticed more cases of me struggling to remember words, and kinda giving up on trying to think of the word, bjt less so lately probably cus of the lavk of focus. Im hoping this sis something that comes back because the feeling kf giving up held so much, like relief and some arousal, and peace.
I decided to listen to 6b and glad i did! Ive found myself thinki g of watching porn when i get horny more now and so have done that, but as with everything else have found some of that has disappeared. I started listening to the like file bit decided i didnt wa t tk listen to that one because while i wanted to sound dumb, i didnt like want to sound annoying lol. While ive had that one experience with maths i dont know how much it has effected me as i dont come across a lot of maths in my day to day life or at work. But i want to listen to that file even more for some reason, ive always hated maths so i guess km hoping that the file will make it enjoyable to give up and not try?
I'm currently on the passive one, For the last couple of files i'm not actually sure how many times i listened. I would forget how many lkstens i did so after a few i would do a couple more just to make sure i listened enough lol. I have also started listening to the addictive breasts file bit ahd to make some changes as my brain ssteuggles to focus when theres only one thing to focus on, so added some binaurals. Thats definitely helped! While masturbating now ive noticed that ive started to hold my breasts/nipples and occassionally when st home (im naked every second that im at home lol) ill just feel the random urge to grab my boobs bit no major cha ges there. Will update of that also does anything in the future!
I've noticed i have been reading less, usually i read ALOT, like at least a book a day. Im still reading but it takes me longer to finish a book, and my attention doesnt seem to be able to focus it for too long at a time. U sure if this is an efdect of any of the files but thought id mention it as its a change!
Is there anything else anyone wants to know? Not sure what i may have forgotten to cover but i'm happy to ask any questions that may arise
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